Minor Operation

Had a minor operation today to correct the right eye lower lid, two weeks after that operation. Local anesthetic this time round... And having it at the clinic instead...

*Shudders* Thinking back to the surgery at Mt A that day... Terrible experience due to the general anesthetic... Couldn't move at all when the doctor wake me immediately after the surgery to tell me that it went smoothly... Throat was stuck with phlegm... But I couldn't even cough to clear the throat...

The metallic smell that keep on lingering... Each cough causing me to throw up whatever is in my stomach... Even when there isn't any food in it! And due to this, I was stuck in the hospital until evening, even though the surgery was completed in the morning before 11am.

And thanks to that, I'm scare of anesthetic and operation! (as if I wasn't scare in the first place)


Didn't want to go for the minor operation, but mom made me do so. Just a day notice... Or should I say 12hour notice?

So much for there won't be pain when under anesthetic! I could feel where the doctor cut my lid, where he stitch it up! And it's hurt! Imagine a needle going through your skin and out, and that's not all, as it has to pull along the string!


I can't wait for everything to end. ARGH! 1st October removing stitches. I hope he can just removed all the stitches at one go instead of what he done previously! Removing the external ones, wait a week before removing the inner one...

Pissed off... There goes my pay again... Another month of pathetic pay =.=

Fate... is a funny thing

Just like what I had posted on my msn PM:

"Fate is a funny thing... You never know how things would turn out ultimately for you and somebody..."

Fate seems to be telling me, that things are out of our control at times, that situations ain't what we expect it to turn out to be. Things changes, so does humans as well as situations...

A lot of things had changed through this 1+year. Too many on related to relationship, especially some of the closer friendships.

There's a season for everything... There isn't a forever in anything... Especially for friendship... Even the closest friendship would drift apart...

Two incidents had shown me that letting time do its job would be better than to try to make things better. Rather than thinking things could be better by doing something for them and ignore your own feelings. Because, ultimately, they still going to be in their own mindset, thinking how much you are hurting them only.

At least, the distance was close up slightly with the other one. Unexpected, but it was really great chatting with her the other day... Wishing her well, and hopefully one day get to meet up again...

As for the other two... Leave it as such... I'm tired of trying to do something to improve or maintain the situation, when ultimately, the other party just can't be bother nor blame your for the unhappiness etc. Intruder? Spoil your happiness? Fine then, I leave, so stop blaming me when any other problem/unhappiness arise. Because I'm not even there anymore.



At least... I know, who are the friends who are truly there. And that is why I had posted in FB: " I don’t have to look for a true friend because if someone is true to me, they’ll just stay." I not staying for some anymore, because they doesn't even regards me as a friend to them.

An uncle had commented to monitor when I had commented that I'm lucky to have a few true/best friends around, and not just one/two only. Telling me that the truthful one have yet to appear and that's how life is.

But... Mine had appeared. Not just one or two. But a whole group of them. Situations since primary til now, I have seen who are the ones who are truthful, who are the ones who are sincere in the friendships. Even though most of these are peeps that I know online, but it's much more truer than any other friendship that I have.

Even though the longest is only seven years... But I know, there will be more years to come for this and the other relationships...


We shall see, what fate have for us in the future...