Lookback at 2009

2009-a look back.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Went to Australia & Korea ~
Watch after-midnight movie ~
Spend the whole night with deardear ^^
Book and organise chalet~
Learn drivin and gt my license!
Having non-family member staying overnight
Overnight at friends' house
Sign up a lot of membership
Start a blogshop
Went for filming cls
Went oversea w/o family

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions,and will you make more for next year?
LoL... I didn't even have any in the first place!
Hmmm... see 1st... most prob not :p

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yea...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope :)

5. What countries did you visit?
Australia & Korea...

6. What would you like in 2010 that you lack in 2009?
The stuff on my wishlist? hehe~

7. What dates from 2009 will etched upon your memory,and why?
25th Dec: 1st after-midnight movie

8. What was your biggest achievement this year?
Gettin my license! woohoo~~

9. What was your biggest failure?
Quite a few friendship prob... n study as usual~

10. Did you suffer from any illness or injury?
On and off... Feel like gng to fall sick bt didn't? Did visit e doc once thou

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Jigsaws - sooooo many diff style, diff pattern
Crafting tools and material - let e creativity juice flow ^^

12. Where did most of your money go to?
Jigsaw, craft, car lesson

13. What did you get really,really,really excited about?
1st anniversary...
Can't really rmb others...

14. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
Gekkou & Happy Birthday by B'z


15. Compare to this time last year,are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or Fatter? Erm... shrug
c) Richer or Poorer? Poorer @.@ somehow, I'm not earnin as much as I had wen I was in Guardian. And also my jigsaw and craft addiction as well as e car lesson fee totally eat my bank out...

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
More focus in study... spendin more time wid love ones... earn more $$ (look @ bank acc)

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Broodin in certain stuff?

18. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Of cuz~

19. What was your favourite TV program?
i can't even rmb what I did watch tis yr... But if wanna choose favourite... will b 'Qi Er Pa Pa' cuz GG in it ^^

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope...

21. What did you want and get?
I finally got a new mp3
I finally got my car license
I finally got more crafting stuff

22. What did you want and not get?
*point to wish list* nah~ those are the stuff I want but yet to get... any kind soul? @.@

22. What did you do on your birthday,and how old were you?
Wendy came over... Then deardear came aft work... Watch movie with deardear b4 he send me home...
I'm 19... e last time my age will start wid a '1'

23. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Gt my car license!

24. What kept you sane?
Family, bf, da & fel (though sometime she can b e 1 drivin me insane)

25. Who did you miss?
How about every1? hehe

26. Who was the best new person you met?
Fel!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Sometimes, things ain't what it really is. Give some time, and you'll see the true colours.

28. Quote a song lyric that sum up your year:
can't recall any song to really sum up my yr..

Driving TP

Woohoo~~~~ PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS!!!!!!!

Passed my TP wid 12 points ^^ yay!!!


will get my license 1 month ltr... wish fulfilled ^^ pass within tis yr~ wee..

Shawn ah dior even sms me tis wen he knew i pass:

Welcome to the Driving world~

p.s. dad gng to let me drive to aunty's ltr for e countdown part ^^

Movie: Sherlock Homles

Caught Sherlock Holmes with deardear @ The Grand Cathay just now...

enjoy e movie wid quite a lot of laughters here n dere...

the onli thing tt puzzle me is that... how come it seem tt sherlock holmes is like nth much without watson? it's like watson e one hu can c those stuff 1st n oso alway e 1 hu get holmes gt of tight spot/dangers everytime??

the dog is super cute though...haha... used as experiment :P to quote e nanny: 'the dog die AGAIN!' hahah~

not bad a movie...


p.s. still yet to figure out some part though.. hmm~

Movie: Avatar

Caught Avatar wid Deardear @ Amkhub... caught it aft touching down... My 1st after midnight movie!!! It's at 1am! *yea~ u can guess how tired i was... *

super duper amazing movie! so great tt I wanna watch 2nd time! and in 3D... *too bad i'm workin on New Year Day -.- family watchin 3D @ SDC T.T*

love the storyline.. Despite that I'm super tired... I still manage to keep awake throughout the whole movie~ fit for both gender... Action, romance, mystery, blah blah~

Deardear plan to watch it the 2nd time. and in 3D!!! bt not cfm though :(

End of Common Test

Finally e end of common test n e holidays are here...

Though still lots of assignments to clear up...

2 weeks to enjoy... But many many stuff to do~~~

Collaboration invitation cards. Journal review. Confirmation with teachers. AHHH~~~~

But there's fun time too~ can't wait for the parties on 26th and 31th dec... as well as the pitstop outing on 29th~


Holiday HERE I COME!

Movie: Planet 51

Finally caught Planet 51 wid Deardear 2day @ AMKhub...

it a really great movie tt is worth watchin!! I'm sooo amuse by e part tt chuck actually like hoppin wen he plant e flag.. n even hummin e victory song while dng tt... haha...

totally love rover!!! kawaii!!!! he's sooo smart la~ n e scene tt it's rainin... it's soo amusing! haha...


Sometime, what we truly are afraid of, isn't what's threatening us, but it's the unknown. Not knowing about something, not knowing what's going to happen, put us in fear. Little did we know that perhaps, this unknown is nothing to be fear about. It may be our friend, it may be the moment that changes our life, it may be a knowledge waiting for us to comprehend.

Sometime, we thought we know. But what exactly do we knew? Chuck had thought that the planet is uninhabited, because that's all the photo that they received from rover. Lem thought he know about the universal, but he barely know much about it. The SGT thought he know what the 'alien' want, but truth is, he isn't anywhere close to it.

really ought to catch this movie. Rather light-hearted with lots of laughters...

StageArts - TMT

Two years. That's the duration for my journey in SA-TMT.

In Jan '08, I stepped onto this journey.
On 18.12.08, I was being recognize and given a responsibility of assisting in running the department
On 11.12.09, it came to an end.

A short, but eventful two years.

The friendships that I had made because of SA in these two years
The ups and down that I had gone through during the events
The knowledge that I had learned over the events

The laughter
The joy
The disagreements
The hurts

I could still remember how much I had dread it the first time when I had to work with the rest of the department. Having to just join TMT for just couples of months, I still feel like a stranger in SA. I was the last to join SA, for my batch.

Having to be chosen to be in the committee for SA Night '08, had change my view. I enjoy working with the rest. And that was the time that I realise, I do get notice. Notice for my existence in the cca by someone in the committee. It's something that I had not felt from GG. That made me feel really good about myself, as it felt that I was being appreciated, being recognised for my effort.

Then, camp came along. Bonding between departments as well as all levels in SA. It had been fun, interacting with everyone. Not forgetting those games that we had.

Production, the majaor event throughout my SA-TMT life. I was choosen to be the ASM. But due to certain circumstances, I ended up being the SM. Indeed, it was a once-in-a-lifetime chance. It was my first, as well as my last. Unforgetable memories from production, a whole different feel when you work behind the curtain and in the control room. Through production, it brought me even closer with the rest of SA. Hanging out with some of them after the production at S11 for supper had gave me even more chances to know my fellow StageARTers better.

Halloween was a blast. Was unable to attend it originally as I had to oversee another TMT event. But had swop duty on that day. And boy, am I glad about it.

I could still recall about the committee interview. I know completely nothing about what's going to happen. I didn't even know that I was going for an interview. Not until the rest tease me about the TMT positions.

To be truthful, I had my eyes set on being the Head of TMT. And that was why I had join SA-TMT, when Amin first introduce me to SA. But as time goes by while I was in SA-TMT, my mindset change, especially when the next batch came in. I see someone as a better candidate than I was. I was no longer eyeing the Head of TMT, because I feel that the better candidate deserve it better than me.

But nonetheless, I was disappointed to know that I got the Assistant Head of TMT. In a way, I feel that I was given false hope of I getting the Head of TMT. But looking back now, I realise, signs been showing pretty early, given how the other person was chosen for the task, be it for camp or the production. I'm just second person-in-line.


I accept my position, despite the fact that I didn't want to accept that person as my Head. Biasness because I didn't manage to get the position and she landed on it? Perhaps. And to think, I had mention in the interview, how much I feel that she can't hold that role, that responsibility.

Then 2009 came. And my duty as TMT Assistant Head started as well. Clubcrawl, SA night, camps, production... All had became my responsibility as she's busy with her fyp and attachment.

I had voiced out, how displease I was. But due to miscommunication, nothing was done. The only that had change was, I no longer tolerate it quietly. And that was also the time that I realise, I wasn't the only one who doesn't like her.

Thinking back, I really wonder how many times I had to clear up the mess she left. Wonder if she really deserved her position?

SA night seem to be the start of the unhappiness. Realising how little she know about the way things work. Realising how little attention she's paying to TMT. Realising that the direction in which I hope to build TMT on, she don't even bother.

I grew tired. Tired of handling her responsibility. Tired of clearing up her mess. Tired of the unhappiness that was growing in me.

2009, I have to admit, was a pretty unhappiness time I had in SA. True that I enjoyed myself during events, etc. However, the reponsibility and duty were making me wary, making me really tired to even carry on.

In a way, I was looking forward to stepping down. It will be the end of responsibility. And most of all, I'll no longer be under her and she will be out of my life.

Yet, I'm not ready to end this journey. Despite to how unhappy I was. I was looking forward to Alumni Night, yet dreading it at the same time.

But things have to come to an end. And it ended on 11.12.09



The places that I get to go because of SA. Blk E room, Sport hall, Dome, TFA, Auditorium. All these places held memories for me, especially TFA. I had hang around the backstage for two events, which happen to be a time that I had misunderstanding with deardear in 2008. That was also the place where me and Erny had experience something creepy. The camwhoring session during the first events. All these had became nothing but a memory.


SA... Even though my journey for it has ended. But still, I'm an alumni. I'll still be back for events, but this time round, as an audience.

Thank you SA, for those memories and friendship.












p.s. SA is so damn pro. 3 years since I step into NYP, never once that I wore a skirt. Yet, for the alumni night, I wore my blue, flowy, full-length skirt. My first and my last I believe.

Fetchin mom

great... My psp decided to die on me just when I pretty lack of entertain!!!

Bloggin frm hp (1st time tryin out sia!!! Thought can't blog frm hp all these while... Zzz) currently @ airport, waitin gor mom to be out... Can't seem to spot her anyway *look around*

Phew... Lucky airport gt wireless.. Haha... If nt cfm bored to death *nod nod* shall go surf net while waitin for mom... Too bad hp can't view e normal fb mode... If nt can play game.... Hehe

Thots

Seems to have lots of stuff going through my mind currently. School, CCA, relationship, and whatever there is that I yet to be able to categorise into...

School:
Just had one quiz down... and 5 paper to go next week. Then it will be 2 weeks break. Projects and stuff... Glad that most lab pract are over and done with. So left with projects to settle.

Pretty vex over PDD product. Wish it can really just turn out the way it ought to be. Solutions were offered by others, perhaps ought to take it up? Couldn't help but ask myself, why did I even choose to do on snowskin mooncake when both me and my groupmate didn't try it before. And best thing is? mooncake isn't in the season now... zZz

Things are pretty manageable, but just confusing. Don't want to think so much into it le.


CCA:
in just a few days later, it marks the end of SA for me. 2 years. That's how long it been. Lots of stuff that happen which I half wish it didn't, especially for this 1 year. But still, I'm glad to be in this cca, for it have bring friendships to me. Experiences that I would never forget. Dreading, yet looking forward to it at the same time. *shrug*

as for the other cca. I really wish things are resolved and settled by ytd. I can't help but wonder, it is a wrong move all along? The decision to join, to stop for a period of time, to resume, to be a better leader. Or perhaps, all these shouldn't have been done? To leave it as how it is 2 years ago? It seems to be, if that was done, things will be less complicated now?

But like I always say, things happen for a reason and with each decision comes along with a mark that is left. A mark that is not removable, it may fade, but not gone. But, in a way, it feel as if those marks and decisions are huanting me, questioning me if this is indeed what I decided on, if I'm able to face up to the consequence of those decisions.

Thinking too much? Perhaps I am. Things can be rather simple. But they ain't, when things are interlope with other stuffs, like priorities, or even relationship.

It still boils down to how much I willing to sacrifice isn't it? But to sacrifice, you have to know the priority. All I know for myself is that, I'm a 1st-come-1st-book kinda person. I don't like cancel out on people or events. And that's the way I been doing things. However, it seems that to some, I'm not prioritizing my stuff well, that I'm not putting enough effort. If there are people doubting my skill, I'm ok with it, because there is still a lot more that I need to learn, to improvise on. Yet, commitment being questioned, that's one thing that I find it hard to accept.

Relationship:
Not that anything is screwed up or what. But just that there been too many bumps and hiccups this year. Some got back on course and moving along well, yet some had fall off the course and gone in a totally different direction. I hate it when I feel/have the impression that I'm being blame for the drifting etc in the relationship. It's a two way thing, it takes two hands to clap. I don't deny, I'm taking some for granted at times, that I seem to be can't be bother with it at times. It gets really weary at times, if it keep happening again and again, around the same issue. I learn about not holding too tightly, afterall, people comes and goes, even for the bestest friends.

Been thinking about quite some stuff, especially about future. And chat with my PDD mate had left me thinking. Both of us pretty much share the same mindset. Now, the thing is no about how we think, but rather, how much of it will be put in action? 100%? 50%? or perhaps 0%?




Lost in a way. Yet seems to be in 'control' in another.


Time is too short for regrets. Before you know it, dec will be over, 2009 will be over. On the last day of 2009, a reflection is indeed needed...

Movie: Twilight Marathon

Caught Twilight Marathon wid Da @ Vivo... Watchin both Twilight and New Moon~



Totally totally totally love e marathon!!! Me and da was telling each other that if all 4 movies are out and they have a marathon along with it, we are the 1st to get the tix... Haha...


Caught the whole movie of Twilight. Had miss the starting when I caught it last year. Sweet Sweet Sweet~~~ ^^

Love New Moon!! haha... The starting is sooo sad!!!! Ok~ e only thing that I didn't really like about e movie is the ending... What kind of ending is that seh?!?! Die Die must watch 3rd movie liao

Oh... What I like about Twilight & New Moon is that they follow the story in the book... *coughnotlikeharrypottercough* Though there's parts where certain stuff ain't explain... Like what's e power of each of the vampires, etc...

Can't wait for the 3rd movie to be out... oh~ n I can't wait for the last harry potter to be out as well...

*imagine the possibility of having a harry potter marathon! woah~ tt will be like 14+hr o.O

Story: Train track

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make........ ........

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally..

But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how
farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined.

And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens..

If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track!

Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

December's here

2009... one last month left... 11 months have already gone...

Year 2009 have gone by way too fast. Just can't believe that it's already 1st December... Where had the previous 11 months gone to?!


Too much stuff happen, til the point that I find it hard to believe they had only happened this year... School, work, friendship, cca... Too many~

One last month to go, before 2009 comes to an end... Part of me can't wait to start a new year... While part of me just wish that time slows down...

Suddenly feeling so lost. Too much stuff going around in my head that I can't even be sure what those thoughts are.

Realise quite a few stuff this year... Shall slowly reflect on the last hour of the last day of 2009.

Just realise that it's the month for my TP. Really hoping that I can just get it on my first try.


Better get back to work. Haix~