2011 - A look back

2011-a look back.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Went USS as well as USS halloween

Had my 1st flea market

Drive w/o parents next to me!

Had a theme birthday party

Went for night cycling

Became a full-time teacher

Went for Kpop concert - SNSD

To feel truly part of a class

Made a video for public viewing

In-charge for 1st aid kit

Went for 1st aid course

Made the protocol & final product for a campfire

Planned and run a camp fully as a camp commander

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions,and will you make more for next year?
50%?

For cycling, it stops as da's and my commitments kinda clash, thus did not have time to cycled together after April.

As for the card making, it's pretty much on the track still.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not this year, but coming soon!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope :)

5. What countries did you visit?
Malaysia - Port Dickson & Melaka

6. What would you like in 2012 that you lack in 2011?
The stuff on my wishlist? hehe~

Happiness?

7. What dates from 2011 will etched upon your memory,and why?
18th June - 21st Birthday Celebration

28th June - 1st day as full time assistant teacher

5th October - Start of my diploma in Early Childhood Care and Education

8. What was your biggest achievement this year?
Receiving appreciation and compliments on my creations

9. What was your biggest failure?
Can't recall

10. Did you suffer from any illness or injury?
Missed the last step on the ladder and thus injure my right feet. Even though it been 3 weeks or so, it's still hurts at times.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Crafting tools and material - let e creativity juice flow ^^

12. Where did most of your money go to?
Craft @.@

13. What did you get really,really,really excited about?
Birthday

The cookery presentation

14. What songs will always remind you of 2011?
Can't think of any to remind me of this year...


15. Compare to this time last year,are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Sadder
b) Thinner or Fatter? Fatter, I guess... My center spoil us with food. Hee~
c) Richer or Poorer? Richer

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Work on craft, reaching out to more people regarding my shop.

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Thinking abt certain stuff and be affected by it.

18. Did you fall in love in 2011?
Did I fall out of it 1st?

19. What was your favourite TV program?
I don't know the name actually!

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope... No point hating a person...

21. What did you want and get?
Calligraphy pen set... Got it for my birthday present...

22. What did you want and not get?
*point to wish list* nah~ those are the stuff I want but yet to get... any kind soul? @.@

22. What did you do on your birthday,and how old were you?
Spent the whole day with Fel & Edith. In fact I was 'booked' by Fel from my bday, all the way to 25th June... Reason? Camp training =.= So much for celebration eh?
I'm 21...

23. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Crafting~ & being appreciated for it...
Graduation

24. What kept you sane?
Love ones

25. Who did you miss?
Those that I once knew...

26. Who was the best new person you met?
AF12!! Especially my bean bean family~!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
When you made the move to change, the environment and how things would be changes as well... I made the move to change, because I no longer want to experience what I had been experiencing over the last few years.

28. Quote a song lyric that sum up your year:
can't recall any song to really sum up my yr..

To-do List

It's been more than a week since my last (of the last) paper ended. It's time for to-do-list for me to complete while trying to decide what to do with life =.= hopefully can really really get everything done... Since there been a few time only part of it was complete @.@

1. Cleared up my room
   
2. Cleared up my craftin area...
   
3. Sort out my wardrobe...
   
4. Make a scrapbook for the KL trip...
   
5. Make the class video...
   
6. Complete my 1st video-makin biz~
   
7. Complete my jigsaws...
   
8. Universal Studio... Any Kaki?
   
9. Outing with cousins...
10. Planned my bday party...
11. Conduct cards making/ crafting class...
    

Think that's all for now. I know that's a lot more to go... But can't think of any for now...


Been busy since my last paper. Only manage to start slacking today~

Had worked at Career Fair 2011 from Thurs to Sun... For the 1st time, I'm working full 4 days. The last 2 years, I missed out the 1st day due to exams... Enjoyed myself this time round due to the friends I made this year... Still find it hard to believe that my partner for Career Fair 2011 is my seconday junior... Talk about the world being small...

Slack a bit on Mon by meeting up with deardear in the afternoon, before both of us leave for work in the evening... Dropped by JDA before I went to work to get some advice from Christin about preparing the crafting stuff.

Then last Tue all the way to Fri had been busy with preparing the stuff for Sat's flea market @ MF... Crazy among of cutting and folding and scoring and stamping! Create cards as well as card kits for sale~ Lucky, this massive production didn't turn me off from crafting, not even for a short while...

Sat was mostly spent at Flea market... Didn't go as well as I hope, but at least it's in a way a form of publicity for my cards, and manage to promote my blogshop as well... Got a customized card order!!

Spend Sat night with WY @ Icing Room... Drop by JDA to handover my shortlisted Feb HA challenge card... And also tell Christin how the flea market went... Went Bishan to find WY and start on the cake decorating~ Enjoyed ourselves...

And today, I'll be spending the time sort my wardrobe... Can't stand the messiness in it~~



Would be working 4 out of 5 weekend nights... Mon & Wed at Yogurt place... Tues and Fri would be teaching tuition... Left Fri for any plans to be carry out.




HOLIDAY HERE I COME!!! ^^

2010 - a look back

2010-a look back.

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?
Drive w/o dad next to me!
Taught a 1-to-1 craft lesson
Went for scrapbooking session
Went for make-and-take
Train a sensory panel
Working at the 1st YOG

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions,and will you make more for next year?
LoL... I didn't even have any in the first place!
Hmmm... see 1st... most prob not :p

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Don't recall any...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope :)

5. What countries did you visit?
Malaysia - KL

6. What would you like in 2011 that you lack in 2010?
The stuff on my wishlist? hehe~
The decision for my future

7. What dates from 2010 will etched upon your memory,and why?
20th June - Birthday Surprise @ Science Center
21st June - Birthday celebration @ Ion's Swensen
Aug - YOG, duty @ main dining hall
26th December - Photoshoot
30th December - New Year Eve countdown party cum tonning session @ my hse


8. What was your biggest achievement this year?
Able to use a programme better than the rest, and was being call 'expert' by supervisor

9. What was your biggest failure?
Quite a few friendship prob... n study as usual~

10. Did you suffer from any illness or injury?
Had an surgery in Sept for my eye condition

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Camera - my 1st camera, that I bought with my own $
Crafting tools and material - let e creativity juice flow ^^

12. Where did most of your money go to?
Craft @.@

13. What did you get really,really,really excited about?
Birthday
KL trip
Make-and-Take @ JDA

14. What songs will always remind you of 2010?
Can't think of any to remind me of this year... But somehow, Lady GaGa song is on repeat in my mind currently =.=


15. Compare to this time last year,are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or Fatter? Erm... shrug
c) Richer or Poorer? Poorer financially @.@ somehow, I'm not earnin as much as I had wen I was in Guardian. And also my jigsaw and craft addiction totally eat my bank out...

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
More time to work on craft as well as setting up my blogshop... spendin more time wid love ones... earn more $$ (look @ bank acct)

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Thinking abt certain stuff and be affected by it.

18. Did you fall in love in 2010?
Did I fall out of it 1st?

19. What was your favourite TV program?
Gu Ling Jin Tan! Manage to catch a few drama via internet, thanks to Fel.

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope... No point hating a person...

21. What did you want and get?
I finally got my very own camera!

22. What did you want and not get?
*point to wish list* nah~ those are the stuff I want but yet to get... any kind soul? @.@

22. What did you do on your birthday,and how old were you?
When for training for practically the whole day. However, my dearest girls from guides (joey, yan ying & debbie, with Fel as mastermind) came over to NYP to help me celebrate my bday~ Had a surprise celebration by SP, Ms Gan, Jessie & Mei Hui @ Sensory Preparation Rm. Had dinner @ home wid family and dear... And then deardear bought a bag as well as a cake when we went to AMKhub to walk walk...

I'm 20... Out of the '10s' into the '20s'

23. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Crafting~
Completion of FYP

24. What kept you sane?
Love ones

25. Who did you miss?
How about every1? hehe

26. Who was the best new person you met?
YOG peeps!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Things won't stay as how it is. Ultimately, things would change, for better or worse.

28. Quote a song lyric that sum up your year:
can't recall any song to really sum up my yr..

Letting Go?

"拿的起放得下"

Who's able to really do the above? I know I can't, even though I'm still trying to do so.

Things that happen in my life, especially when it comes to things related to relationships, I'm still unable to let things go, despite how badly that it had gone to.

At times I really wonder, is it really the end? How could it have ended, especially in such a bad way? As if, what we had been before, was just nothing?

Besties, soulmates, sisters, friends... Did all these names/status even meant anything to you before, or just that it no longer matters now?


It's so easy to just remove someone from facebook, msn, contact list... And it seems that it is as easy to remove someone from your life, from your past, as if it had never happen before.

Sorry, but I'm not able to do it. No matter how hurt I had gotten, not mater how upset I get when I sees how things had turn out, I still unable to let things go and move on. Unable to totally remove someone from my facebook, msn nor contact list, much less from my life or past.


I still recalled back on those times. Those times when we hang out. Those endless chat. Those common likings. Doesn't anything remind you of anything?


I told myself to stay out, to not be bother about your life. But times and again, I couldn't stop myself. Times and again, I asked myself, why bother, when I'm longer exists in your life. Why bother, when you no longer regards me?



I may not remember at a certain point of time... But I would never let it go from my mind... When a journey was once shared between us... Have you forgotten the road that we once walk together?

Fate... is a funny thing

Just like what I had posted on my msn PM:

"Fate is a funny thing... You never know how things would turn out ultimately for you and somebody..."

Fate seems to be telling me, that things are out of our control at times, that situations ain't what we expect it to turn out to be. Things changes, so does humans as well as situations...

A lot of things had changed through this 1+year. Too many on related to relationship, especially some of the closer friendships.

There's a season for everything... There isn't a forever in anything... Especially for friendship... Even the closest friendship would drift apart...

Two incidents had shown me that letting time do its job would be better than to try to make things better. Rather than thinking things could be better by doing something for them and ignore your own feelings. Because, ultimately, they still going to be in their own mindset, thinking how much you are hurting them only.

At least, the distance was close up slightly with the other one. Unexpected, but it was really great chatting with her the other day... Wishing her well, and hopefully one day get to meet up again...

As for the other two... Leave it as such... I'm tired of trying to do something to improve or maintain the situation, when ultimately, the other party just can't be bother nor blame your for the unhappiness etc. Intruder? Spoil your happiness? Fine then, I leave, so stop blaming me when any other problem/unhappiness arise. Because I'm not even there anymore.



At least... I know, who are the friends who are truly there. And that is why I had posted in FB: " I don’t have to look for a true friend because if someone is true to me, they’ll just stay." I not staying for some anymore, because they doesn't even regards me as a friend to them.

An uncle had commented to monitor when I had commented that I'm lucky to have a few true/best friends around, and not just one/two only. Telling me that the truthful one have yet to appear and that's how life is.

But... Mine had appeared. Not just one or two. But a whole group of them. Situations since primary til now, I have seen who are the ones who are truthful, who are the ones who are sincere in the friendships. Even though most of these are peeps that I know online, but it's much more truer than any other friendship that I have.

Even though the longest is only seven years... But I know, there will be more years to come for this and the other relationships...


We shall see, what fate have for us in the future...

Friends?

Indeed, time proves everything.

I guess, this time, it truly being proven where I stand inside you. Simple birthday wish show much how you matter to a person.

I couldn't help wondering. Is that what you mean, when you had say 'Friends for life' or even when you use the term 'best friend'


Maybe everything had ended with a silent goodbye back to the meeting that we last had. A goodbye from you, that no one else ever acknowledge.




If that is the case. All the best to your future endeavor.


Trust me, August and September will be the time again to prove that I'm right. Because, it had happened before.



Sad to acknowledge that this is the ending of our journey. Whether each of us had done our part, I believe we know it in our heart. Whether you read this or not, I have no idea.

Birthday 2010 ^^

Had a wonderful 20th birthday...

Thanks to those around me... for the surprise, the celebration, the wishes ^^

Celebrations had started two days before my birthday, on 20th June 2010. A trip to Singapore Science Center (SSC) & Pixar Exhibition was more than what I had expected!

Even though a little monkey (you know who you are!) had let the cat peek out of the bag just to annoy me and get the name of the person who sms-ed her. I wasn't prepare for the surprise that was waiting for me at the corner of SSC McDonald! Being prank right for the start of the day (or should I say months before?) when MH told me that she would be late and told me to wait for them at Jurong East MRT station as they did not know the route to SSC *wonder why did I even believe them when they just went to SSC LAST OCTOBER!!!!*

End up they took cab down to SSC, thus I waited at MRT station for 1/2hr for 'NOTHING' =.= Walk over to SSC to find MH outside Mac waiting for me. She had waved to me and thought I saw her, but I didn't!! Not until she called me. She told me SH went to the gents, when in actual fact, he went to hunt for candle or was it lighter? Then called and make sure they ready before we went in. I thought we waited outside because Mac too many people, but it was rather empty inside =.= Only the front part of Mac look packed

Went in and the first thing person I saw was CASA!!! And on the table was HOTCAKES DECORATED WITH M&Ms AND A CANDLE ON IT!!!! Though someone had kind of leak a little that there's something planned for me, I never expect it to be right in the morning!


So birthday song can blowing of candle... Then off to get the proper breakfast! While eating breakfast, it was story telling from MH, SH and Casa ^^

Retrieve our tickets while waiting for Gabriel... Only then I realise, they planned it months ago! Casa had long confirmed his attendance with MH!!! And they made Casa bluff me that he can't confirm until nearer date =.=

Enjoyed both the Pixar Exhibition as well as visit to SSC. New exhibitions added! Me and MH were like teachers bringing students out for excursion :P The guys are more engross in the exhibition than me and MH... Especially at Mind's Eye. Rant mode on: they don't believe when I explain the exhibition to them *pouts*

While the guys were engross with the exhibition, me and MH were getting bored and tired. We were waiting for them to move on to the Sound exhibition. It's new, thus wanting to try out. Then MH received a call to say that her "mom" rushing her to go down to meet them.

Leave SSC and walk into another surprise! In order for me not to spot the surprise, MH chiong to Mac, while SH distract me by nearing getting himself into wet spot. Haha... He say he wanna try to chiong into the water feature! And MH dare him to do so~ To the point he said out to himself if he really need to take off his shoe to do it. Later on he told us, he was quite worry that if I still didn't see the surprise, he really need to take out his handphone and pass it to me to hold.

But then, lucky for him, I spotted my mom! Because her top is very very striking purple! And I saw her even though she stood pretty far in. And I didn't even see MH and Jenson when they are closer to me than my mom was!

And ta-da~ Surprise 2!!! I was so touched til I cried!! Because I totally totally didn't expect it to happen! Since there was already a celebration in the morning. *Originally I thought the celebration would be after the outing thus I wasn't prepare to have one in the morning. But after having the morning one, I didn't expect the second to take place!*

Thanks MH for planning. Thanks Sotong for being the middle(wo)man. Thanks Jenson for getting the cake and wait for such a long time! And most of all... Thanks all for being there to celebrate for me!!!


Off to grandparents' house for the weekly gathering. And celebration after that. Cookie cream ice cream cake from Swensen!!

On 21st, meet up with MH, SH, Pui, Jenson and Nich for ice cream buffet at Ion Swensen. Another round of pranking from them =.=" Firstly, Puii sms me telling me that she can't make it for the outing because last minute have to go work. Didn't really believe when I realise she didn't inform Jenson! So I told MH and Jenson that if she turn out, she pay full price instead of 1/2 price! Then MH sms two sms to say that she will OT and unable to make it. But somehow, I also don't believe it. (Tio pranked too much the day before liao~)

Puii came and said she want to go to the ladies, and I wanted to go since I stepped into Swensen liao. So obviously I tagged along la. End up, they (Puii and SH) were just giving reason to get out and meet MH. Because MH IS AT THE ENTRANCE WITH BALLOON AND LILY to surprise me. She was 'borrowing' two male waiters from the manager to pass me the balloon and lily one at a time because she xian sheng. But because I tag along, the surprise was spoiled! @.@

Anyway, went back in to enjoy our ice cream buffet. End up Nich accompany me out to go to the toilet =.= Because I scare I lose my way while finding the toilet in Ion. MH tried to salvage the surprise by asking the staff for their in-house birthday special: BD FIREHOUSE! But... It was once again foiled because when the bill came, I took it to see how much I need to pay, and MH just let me took it, when she had tried to prevent me from taking. She sian diao when I nudged her and said that I already saw it. She didn't realise because she was backfacing me all along and keep urging me to take that S$10 when SH was the one buying the bill =.="Jenson left first while the rest of us when walk walk around Somerset. Went to take Neoprints at Cineleisure as well as tried to catch some toys at level 7.

Deardear wanted to meet me and countdown with me at my house. But I told him don't have to meet since he had to work morning shift the next day. So he wished me Happy Birthday on the phone instead.

22nd: Sms-ed in to radio100.3 to say it's my birthday! And the moment I step into the overheadbridge into NYP, they started singing birthday, DEDICATED TO ME! ^^ And they even mention that my name is beautiful ^^ As in the chinese character that is use to form my name~

My dearest MFGG leaders came down to NYP just to celebrate my birthday ^^ Thanks Fel for organising! A simple lunch... As I was having a full day training that day.
Back to training, but pretty slacking. Jessie ask for a break and I went back to my own FYP lab (which is just next door). Just as I was getting myself a drink, Jessie opened the door and start to sing 'Happy Birthday' song, with SP and Ms Gan behind her. Mei Hui was there as well! Cut the reminding cake that the girls bought and shared with Ms Gan, Ms Sze, Ms Tay and Jessie.


After school, when home for dinner with family and deardear. Went AMKhub to get my present as well as a cake. Deardear sponsor! Woots~ Deardear accompany me til 1230, when I was already fast asleep!

23rd: Met LeeMei for a mini celebration. Ailian was there as well when I met LeeMei. Ailian treated me to a drink before she left to meet her ex-colleagues while Lee Mei and I went over to 313 to have our dinner. Yummilicious!Peri Peri Squid

My Salmon

Lee Mei's Cod

Thanks everyone for the wonderful birthday I had this year ^^ The celebration, the gift, the surprises and the warm wishes!

Remininse on the good old time of OTians

Been reading OT thread when MH mention it in FB... Still readin, many more pages to go...

The good old times... The confides, the laughter, the matchmaking, the joy... The friendships that forged and the closeness of a family. What have remain, is just the memories of it.

How many of us were as close as we used to be?
How many of us still remember each other?

It's just three years, or rather, two and a half years to be exact. But things had changed. Too many things.


That was the place where I found friendships
That was the place I used to pour out my problems
That was the place where we goof around.
That was the place we gotten close.

That was the place, where we start to nickname each other, as a certain 'family member'


And because of the friendships from this thread, Da even say that I prove that online friendships can last.

Thanks OTians... for the memories we had together...

Movie: The Last Song

Caught The Last Song with Da @ GVBishan yesterday...

Similar filmin style as My Sister's Keeper and The Lovely Bones... Pretty much flowy, just kinda fast...

Totally love the scene where the turtles hatch ^^ really really interesting!

Anyway... Gave da this card to congrats her on her graduation ^^ Hope you love it, Bestie!

1st week

It's the 4th day of Jan '10... And it seem, 2010 may turn out better than 2009...

Since I got my license on the last day of 2009, I had drove the car twice. Bad on the 1st time, improve on the 2nd... Mom even compliment and say that my parkin is better than my dad ^^ hehe~ Triangle plates up... countin down to the day those two will be removed... 361 days more!!

1st day back in sch... Though I'm still in denial that sch have already start... Only two hours of lecture today as there were no pract lesson. Ended up, cls ended within an hour. So now waiting for Da for a meetup~

Got a surprise just now when Ms Sze wanted to see me... Though what happen and I have to meet her... Attendance? can't be, as that will be meetin TT, not Ms Sze... Her module common test result? can't be bah, since only meetin me and another person... PanYu 2 weeks attachment programme? Unlikely ain't it, since there are so many juniors who applied for it as well, and also the fact that my result are lousy... Just can't seem to conjure some reason up...

Meet her @ 1315 @ her office... Ended up, I was kinda right. It was for PanYu attachment. Just that, it's not just 2 week, but 1 month... Me and another gal... Both workin on different fyp but have to move around together as we are the only FS students and also that we're the only one there for 1 month and that both of us are gals...

1 month... This will be the first time that I'll be out of Singapore for so long... And it's also the longest that I'll be out of Singapore... Thought going round and round in my head...

Anyway, for yogurt place... Pay increased to S$5.20 per hour... I thought will only raise this month... But yesterday was told by Jerry that pay raise started frm 1st Dec... I was surprise when I hear that... Cool~ now I got more $$~ haha... Bad news is that I have to cover YenLing frm 11th-14th jan as she's oversea... Never mind~ then I gt more $$... Just a bit sian that that day on New Year Day I work 12hours... Though will get 1.5X for pay... end up only additional S$2 per hr... Lose around S$7+ cause of the difference between 1.5X and S$2 sia!!!! gosh~

Talkin abt pay and Panyu... I wonder if I can get 1 month off frm Yogurt Place... If I can't, it's rather pointless to cont' workin aft april isn't it? Since my pay will drop back to the S$4.50 pay... Shrug... need to talk to YenLing/Jerry about it...

seem to be a good start for now... though dere was lil mishap n stuff... @.@

In 2009

In 2009...

...I watch 45 movies,which including 2 marathons.

1st marathon was with BTP, watching 3 Pixel movies @ cineleisure... 2nd movie maranthon was wid Da, watching Twilight and New Moon @ vivocity... Totally love it ^^ The rest? Practically all wid Deardear... From animation to action to horror... Average ard 1 movie each week! GOSH!! Thanks to the GV movie card that leemei help me get, the Cathay gift card that XiaoYi give me as well as being a study... manage to save quite a lot on movie... n also that sometime, deardear sponsor me for the movies~

Oh, and not forgettin that it's the 1st time I watch an after-midnight movie, on Boxing day with Deardear


...I went for 2 oversea trips during the winter season.

1st trip was to Sydney, Australia as a study trip with my clique and Mr Khaw... Totally love the weather there. And not forgettin that it was the 1st time going oversea without my family...

2nd trip was to Korea with family... Didn't enjoy as much I had for Australia... But pretty much enjoy it... Tried out skiing, making own kimchi, wearing the traditional korea costume... And not forgettin caught tt little snowflake~


...I signed up for 5 membership
1st: Jigsaw Puzzle world membership, with S$250 purchase I tink. Got hook to jigsaw puzzle in Jan... And had been buying jigsaw almost monthly... Except for aug to oct period? Had tried out different jigsaws. My favourite? The panorama as well as those miniature jigsaw... Not forgetting that I compeleted 2 set of 1000 pieces jigsaw... ^^ But yet to complete that 2000 piece winnie and friend jigsaw (wonder when I gng to complete that??)

2nd: Action City membership in Jan, with S$50 purchase... Had sign up when I bought my jelly-lens... But didn't really use that card cuz hardly go Action City to buy anything.

3rd: Made with Love membership in July, with min of S$5 purchase... That was when I get very very into cards making and stamping. Started to invest in stamping as well as crafting material. Actually, this is more of a loyalty card then membership...

4th: Junior De Artist membership in Aug, I think? Had sign up cause of the great promotion offered to the members. And boy am I glad to sign up for this, even though this is the most expensive membership that I had sign up... S$120!!! But brcause of the membership, I had save $500+ in the purcahse that I made in the following month. And not forgettin that the goodie bag is totally worth it ^^

5th: Popular student membership card in Dec. Mom help me sign up for this as she feel that I need it pretty often. And having two cards at home will be more convenient since me and my sister keep kopin the card and forget to put it back.


...I got my license!

Sign up in late Feb... Cleared by BTT on the 1st try, FTT on the 2nd try and finally TP on the 1st try (nope not 3rd try -.-)... 1st lesson was on the last week of May, taught by Paul... And the next lesson was all the way in July... One reason cause there isn't much slot left in June and that I went oversea as well...

It was fun learnin to drive, even though manual can be a lil bit more troublesome, as need to control the clutch. But somehow, I prefer the manual one more... Perhaps it's because I'm use to drivin that? *cross finger that I get to drive durin CNY)

Got my license on the last day of 2009. What a good way to end 2009 ^^


...I had non-family member sleeping over

Fel was the 1st non-family to sleepover at my hse. Original plan was stayin over at her camp... but due to circumstances, ended up at my hse...

Deardear being the 2nd to stayover... Had went for an after-midnight movie @ amkhub... Ended at 4am, and deardear don't want to waste money on cab... And see-ing that I'm very tired, he pei me home and keep coaxin me to go rest... Ended up I fall aslp next to him, while he's usin the com in my livin rm...


... I had a sleepover at a frien house

Sleepover at fel hse... which, prior to that, she came all the way to amk to look for me at work and take the train with me to her hse... Her maid cook a super duper nice dinner!


... I had lots of emotion sea-sawing

Emotions really on a sea-saw this year... Ups and Downs... Not that a lot of stuff happen physically around me, more like mentally, emotionally and psychogically...

Break down in April had impact me so badly that I nearly did something that I'll regret. But thanks to those around me, who been offering a hand to me each and everytime, I woke up, I stood back up.

Too much going on inside me, that lead to many little meltdowns and another breakdown. In a way, I'm glad for this happening, for it had enable me to see, who are the ones who are really there for me, concern about me. Those who had been there for me, thanks for the listening ear, the shoulder to cry on, the lending hands and most importantly, the time and effort.


... I had lost some, gain some

Lost some friendships
Gain some friendships.
Lost some naiveness
Gain some experience.
Gain some new skills

In a way, 2009 had been an eye-opening year for me. A year that I had accept quite a few stuff, which I had realise of previously, but just won't accept. It's a way that I see certain stuff clearer and better. It's a year that I start to make changes around me.

Friendships, cca, work... Each had a lesson, a trial, an obstacle... providin me a chance to learn, to gain experience, to grow. And it also became chance that cause me to change.



Overall, 2009 had been really eventful. It had been both a great and a bad year for me. But I know, things happened for a reason. I may not know why it happen, but in due time, I'll find out. Like how certain stuff in the past had lead to what I may have gone through or will be going through this year.

All I hope is that, 2010 will be a better year.

Lookback at 2009

2009-a look back.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Went to Australia & Korea ~
Watch after-midnight movie ~
Spend the whole night with deardear ^^
Book and organise chalet~
Learn drivin and gt my license!
Having non-family member staying overnight
Overnight at friends' house
Sign up a lot of membership
Start a blogshop
Went for filming cls
Went oversea w/o family

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions,and will you make more for next year?
LoL... I didn't even have any in the first place!
Hmmm... see 1st... most prob not :p

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yea...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope :)

5. What countries did you visit?
Australia & Korea...

6. What would you like in 2010 that you lack in 2009?
The stuff on my wishlist? hehe~

7. What dates from 2009 will etched upon your memory,and why?
25th Dec: 1st after-midnight movie

8. What was your biggest achievement this year?
Gettin my license! woohoo~~

9. What was your biggest failure?
Quite a few friendship prob... n study as usual~

10. Did you suffer from any illness or injury?
On and off... Feel like gng to fall sick bt didn't? Did visit e doc once thou

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Jigsaws - sooooo many diff style, diff pattern
Crafting tools and material - let e creativity juice flow ^^

12. Where did most of your money go to?
Jigsaw, craft, car lesson

13. What did you get really,really,really excited about?
1st anniversary...
Can't really rmb others...

14. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
Gekkou & Happy Birthday by B'z


15. Compare to this time last year,are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or Fatter? Erm... shrug
c) Richer or Poorer? Poorer @.@ somehow, I'm not earnin as much as I had wen I was in Guardian. And also my jigsaw and craft addiction as well as e car lesson fee totally eat my bank out...

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
More focus in study... spendin more time wid love ones... earn more $$ (look @ bank acc)

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Broodin in certain stuff?

18. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Of cuz~

19. What was your favourite TV program?
i can't even rmb what I did watch tis yr... But if wanna choose favourite... will b 'Qi Er Pa Pa' cuz GG in it ^^

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope...

21. What did you want and get?
I finally got a new mp3
I finally got my car license
I finally got more crafting stuff

22. What did you want and not get?
*point to wish list* nah~ those are the stuff I want but yet to get... any kind soul? @.@

22. What did you do on your birthday,and how old were you?
Wendy came over... Then deardear came aft work... Watch movie with deardear b4 he send me home...
I'm 19... e last time my age will start wid a '1'

23. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Gt my car license!

24. What kept you sane?
Family, bf, da & fel (though sometime she can b e 1 drivin me insane)

25. Who did you miss?
How about every1? hehe

26. Who was the best new person you met?
Fel!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Sometimes, things ain't what it really is. Give some time, and you'll see the true colours.

28. Quote a song lyric that sum up your year:
can't recall any song to really sum up my yr..

End of Common Test

Finally e end of common test n e holidays are here...

Though still lots of assignments to clear up...

2 weeks to enjoy... But many many stuff to do~~~

Collaboration invitation cards. Journal review. Confirmation with teachers. AHHH~~~~

But there's fun time too~ can't wait for the parties on 26th and 31th dec... as well as the pitstop outing on 29th~


Holiday HERE I COME!

Thots

Seems to have lots of stuff going through my mind currently. School, CCA, relationship, and whatever there is that I yet to be able to categorise into...

School:
Just had one quiz down... and 5 paper to go next week. Then it will be 2 weeks break. Projects and stuff... Glad that most lab pract are over and done with. So left with projects to settle.

Pretty vex over PDD product. Wish it can really just turn out the way it ought to be. Solutions were offered by others, perhaps ought to take it up? Couldn't help but ask myself, why did I even choose to do on snowskin mooncake when both me and my groupmate didn't try it before. And best thing is? mooncake isn't in the season now... zZz

Things are pretty manageable, but just confusing. Don't want to think so much into it le.


CCA:
in just a few days later, it marks the end of SA for me. 2 years. That's how long it been. Lots of stuff that happen which I half wish it didn't, especially for this 1 year. But still, I'm glad to be in this cca, for it have bring friendships to me. Experiences that I would never forget. Dreading, yet looking forward to it at the same time. *shrug*

as for the other cca. I really wish things are resolved and settled by ytd. I can't help but wonder, it is a wrong move all along? The decision to join, to stop for a period of time, to resume, to be a better leader. Or perhaps, all these shouldn't have been done? To leave it as how it is 2 years ago? It seems to be, if that was done, things will be less complicated now?

But like I always say, things happen for a reason and with each decision comes along with a mark that is left. A mark that is not removable, it may fade, but not gone. But, in a way, it feel as if those marks and decisions are huanting me, questioning me if this is indeed what I decided on, if I'm able to face up to the consequence of those decisions.

Thinking too much? Perhaps I am. Things can be rather simple. But they ain't, when things are interlope with other stuffs, like priorities, or even relationship.

It still boils down to how much I willing to sacrifice isn't it? But to sacrifice, you have to know the priority. All I know for myself is that, I'm a 1st-come-1st-book kinda person. I don't like cancel out on people or events. And that's the way I been doing things. However, it seems that to some, I'm not prioritizing my stuff well, that I'm not putting enough effort. If there are people doubting my skill, I'm ok with it, because there is still a lot more that I need to learn, to improvise on. Yet, commitment being questioned, that's one thing that I find it hard to accept.

Relationship:
Not that anything is screwed up or what. But just that there been too many bumps and hiccups this year. Some got back on course and moving along well, yet some had fall off the course and gone in a totally different direction. I hate it when I feel/have the impression that I'm being blame for the drifting etc in the relationship. It's a two way thing, it takes two hands to clap. I don't deny, I'm taking some for granted at times, that I seem to be can't be bother with it at times. It gets really weary at times, if it keep happening again and again, around the same issue. I learn about not holding too tightly, afterall, people comes and goes, even for the bestest friends.

Been thinking about quite some stuff, especially about future. And chat with my PDD mate had left me thinking. Both of us pretty much share the same mindset. Now, the thing is no about how we think, but rather, how much of it will be put in action? 100%? 50%? or perhaps 0%?




Lost in a way. Yet seems to be in 'control' in another.


Time is too short for regrets. Before you know it, dec will be over, 2009 will be over. On the last day of 2009, a reflection is indeed needed...

nEbO: The Quest '09

Went for nEbO: The Quest '09 - Museum Edition. Had sign up with Fel, Da n Atikah...

Fel stayover @ my hse.. Original plan was tt i accompany her @ her camp overnite... But some stuff pop up, so ended up she's stayin over @ my hse instead... Chitchat til veri late... til e next mornin we nearly can't w8... Still feelin amused by e way fel had act wen my alarm clock went off...

Meet Da n her sis @ AMK mrt station, before makin our way down to douby ghaut for registration. Collected our tee and head over to LJS for breakfast.

Flag off at ard 10am. Need to collect a stamp @ checkpoint to mark e start of our race...

Was a bit sian wen we look @ our station... we haf a station @ douby ghaut itself! but it's e 3rd station! 1st station @ tampines n 2nd station @ Bedok reserviour... zZz... talk about travelling -.-

Didn't manage to complete all station... left last 1 did not go... Wasted too much time for 1st station...

N guess wad... throughout e whole race... I tink 80% spend on travelling... 5hrs bein allocated... But we spend last den 5 min @ each station.


Waiting for pic frm Da...

Had fun... Can't w8 for The Quest '10!!! I have great groupmates, who make e race even more exciting and fun!!! ^^

Reflection

Reading on a msn conversation between MH and me, dated back in April. The time that I had broke down so badly. The period that I almost made the most terrible mistakes. If not for that msn conversation with MH that day, I wonder when I'll wake up from trying to drown myself in unhappiness.

Readinb back on that msn conversation bring tears. For it bring back those memories and feeling I had felt that time. But I won't push them away, because I know, it's a thing of the past. I have learnt from that incident and have move on.

Half a year had passed since that incident. That incident had made me realise of that those online friendships that I had made over the past two years isn't just some superficial friends. They are the one who genuinely cares when they somehow could sense that I'm not my normal self. In fact, most of the time, they are the ones who could detect that.


Indeed, running away is a much more easier way out. But each action has its own consequence. And one of the consequences from running away will be losing those dearest relationships. And that will something I will regret greatly.

Mh, you're right when you say that when I look back to that incident, I'm glad that I had made this choice and have no regrets. And I have to add, it's the conversation with you that had lead me to make this decision, because you had wake me up that time.


I have a bad habit, which is keeping everything to myself when things happen. Not wanting to tell, because I don't feel that it's right to tell. Because I feel that I shouldn't bother others with my problem. Yes, others have offered their ears to listen, their shoulders for me to cry on. But like I had mention before, it's not how willing a person is to be there for me, but it's how comfortable I am with sharing my problems with that person.

And fact is, not many that I'm comfortable in sharing. Seriously, I could only think of a handful of friends currently. Not even family members. It isn't that I doesn't want to be open to family, but somehow, it's harder for me to be open, compare to being open to friends. Those I'm comfortable in sharing, well, it's mainly Da and MH only. Others include Fel, Bready, deardear, Puii, BTP, etc...


I had told others before, I'm not a person who can talk face-to-face with someone else that easily. That's why I have problem voicing out at times, especially when it comes to thoughts and feelings. It's hard to even voice out over the net as well.

Perhaps, I need a lesson on that?

Lookin Back at the holiday~

It's time again for school to reopen *HAIX!!*

Let's look back at my holiday and see how much of the things I have done on my to-do list...

• Cleared up my room
  Checked!! ok~ half check =.= cuz I only cleared up my table...
  
  
• Sort out my wardrobe...
  Checked!!
  
  
• Make the class video...
  Undone once agin -.-
  
  
• Update blog abt my aust study trip
  1/6 done only... Laziness overtake my determination again when it come to makin collages of those pic...
  
  
• Work more!!!
  Haix~ I actually earn lesser than I did during school time as I did not work on the 1st week of sept when I was having my exam T.T
  
  
• Complete my 1st video-makin biz~
  I'm soo going to boycott that company *Pissed* Didn't even tell me that I'm no longer needed
  
  
• More craft, esp cards ^^
  Checked ^^ had received gd comments for those cards that I have given ppl so far... Guess selling hand-made card will be a plus point for my blogshop ^^ But rather time consumin for each card...
  
  
• Complete my 2,000 piece Winnie The Pooh jigsaw
  I didn't even touch ANY of my jigsaw for this holiday... *Faint~*
  
  
• Food Chase
  Check... Didn't win, bt had fun ^^
  
  
• Cleared up my drivin pract
  Checked ^^ Left the last assessment before I can book my TP... WEE~
  
  
• Meetup wid Deardear on his off
  Checked ^^ ok~ sometime I didn't cuz I kinda throwin tantrum? *oops~* but deardear give in to me most of e time and visit me instead...
  
  
• Meetup wid Da for our exploration~
  Checked ^^ 4 exploration trips~ And more comin soon!!! Sch ain't stopping us ^^
  
  
• Night cycle!!!
  I knew this won't be completed one =.= sian~ Hopefully mh dey all do plan 1 in Dec, aft my paper, while i'm still in SG!!
  
  
• Set up blogshop to sell my prize catches from arcade
  Checked... And even sold 3 items...

Have been out the whole holiday... Either work, or hangin out with deardear/friends and very occasionally with family n relatives...

Spend the 1st week in sch due to cca... bt rest of the holiday was out havin fun most of e time...

Had been lookin forward to this holiday... Because, one year ago, during sept/oct holiday... things changed for me, in a way that I never expect... But I'm glad of that change, and would never want to miss this change ^^

This year, start something else new for me... Exploration trip as well as something else... hehe... Those may be the 1st for me, but i'm totally loving them ^^


I better get down to blog abt my aust trip b4 i realyl forget every single detail liao~~ time for collagin ^^

End of holiday T.T

Last week of holiday. Seriously... I'm dreading school reopen!! In less than a week it will be :(

Let's look back on what I did for last week... As well as let's look @ what will be happening for this week.

5th (Mon) : Card making session with Fel... Then celebrating 1yr anniversary with Deardear @ night
6th (Tues) : Work 5pm-1030pm
7th (Wed) : Went Sim Lim, then Douby Ghaut with Deardear... SA committee meeting at night
8th (Thurs) :Driving practical in e late morning... Then work @ 5pm-1030pm
9th (Fri) : Sushi buffet wid Fel... Then Sentosa for exploration trip wid Fel & Da
10th (Sat) : Out with deardear... Went Auto Fair in the noon...
11th (Sun) : Working 10am-4pm... Interview shooting @ night

12th (Mon) : Working frm 5pm-1030pm
13th (Tues) : Out wid Deardear
14th (Wed) : Working frm 10am-1030pm
15th (Thurs) : Driving practical @ late afternoon
16th (Fri) : Helping out @ Mom's school carnival
17th (Sat) : SA yr 3 meeting in the morning... Xavier's bday party @ night...
18th (Sun) : Nothing on

Guess this week of mine will be way more relaxin compared to e previous 5 weeks? *shrug* Will kinda dread Wed since I'm on full shift *pouts*

Haix... Not meetin deardear much tis week as he workin aftnn shift :( meetin onli for a day? haix~

Can't w8 for thurs to clear another of my pract sub... I wanna get my license!!!!!

Just kinda realise tt I been meeting Fel for practically every week?! gosh! *no offense gal~~~* But she's a gd company... seriously... As long as she dun get on my nerves =.= *which is pretty often =.="

Hopefully... tis week can start on clearin up my rm once n for all @.@ n oso some stuff tt i been delayin since a few holiday ago @.@

I WANT THIS WEEK TO PASS SLOWLY!!!!!!!!!!

Pitstop Outing 2nd Anniversary

Finally organised a pitstop outing... Guess it was 1year ago since I last organise one for my fellow pitstompers?

Was surprise to see BJ while on NEL... More than a year since we last saw each other... She was practically staring at me when I board the train and sat next to her... While I was wondering why on earth is this gal staring at me... Only after a while that we recognise each other... LoL...

Kill time by walking around The Central while waiting for ZY... Original plan was to meet at 5pm for dinner at Clarke Quay... End up, only the three of us are meeting at 5pm... And neither one of us are hungry at that point of time... So, after ZY came, we walk around a bit more before settling down at BK to wait for Viva... Had to wait for Viva, cause he doesn't know how to go...

While we're on the way to Pitstop, second surprise received... Gab called and said that he reached! And that was like just before 6pm... Everyone kinda shock cause Gab is usually the "well-known" late king... Amazingly he's the first to reach!!

Ended up those that reach at pitstop at 6pm had dinner at Pitstop... So much for meeting at 5pm for dinner =.=

Played Tickets to Ride while waiting for the rest to be here... Took a long time... Around 1.5hr to complete the game... I won~~ Woohoo~~ with a point of 129 ^^ Eating our dinner while playing this game... Had a fun time playing this game when each and everyone of us trying to complete our destination card while trying to block people from getting to their point~ It's a race to score more point as well as complete as many destination card as possible... Totally love this game!!

Played Jurassic Jumble as well as Jungle Speed... Can't really remember which other games that was played though... Guess no more bah?

Ticket To Ride
Blue: Me
Red: BJ
Yellow: Viva
Green: Gab
Black: ZY

Viva and Cally had to leave early... So we took group photo before they left...

It's been a long time since I last enjoy myself this much... Forgetting practically every unhappiness and frustration... Laughing over little stuff... Just happy being myself for the night...


Though I had said previously that I would not be organising another pitstop outing... But I realise, it's hard not to.

Thanks for attending my pitstop outing since 2 years ago... Because of you peeps, I can't stop organising the next one, despite having to decide not to previously...

The laughter, the happiness, the wonderful times that we had spent at this place... The smiles that each and everyone of us have when we left the place after each round of gaming... Pitstop has been giving me, and will still give me, great memories of the unforgettable times that we had...


Trying to search for the 1st ever group photo that we had taken in Pitstop cause me to recall on the first time that we have ever meet. Though all of us were practically strangers who had nothing more than chatting with each other in Stomp thread... Who had never met before... But the outing 2years ago on 21.09.07 had spark off a friendship, that will carry on for as long as I hope it will be...


Pitstop Cafe is one of my favourite places for hanging out... Because it's the place that spark off the friendship that I have with this group of people...

School Holiday

Almost 2 weeks gng to pass since e last time I post what I'm gng to do durin my holiday...

Busy but fulfillin for these 2 weeks... And it's finally mine to spend since end of exam~ afterall... I did enjoy e freedom frm sch after the exams... but that Saturday and the whole week after that was totally occupied by CCA production (as well as work actuall)!!! Therefore~ i'm ultra glad for these 2 weeks ^^

Anyway... this is what had/gng to happen durin these 2 weeks...

14th (Mon): Craft shoppin with Btp... Then movie with Fel @ Causeway point...
15th (Tues): Deardear came over before his movie... Then I went for my one and only Auto Vehicle pract lesson...
16th (Wed): Had two driving lessons
17th (Thurs): Chip's & Dale's Exploration Trip part 1!!
18th (Fri): Had two driving lessons... Then work from 6 til closing
19th (Sat): Working 4 til closing
20th (Sun): Sleep in til aftnn~ hehe... den Film & Video class at night

21st (Mon): Meet with Deardear... Dinner with family @ Waraku... Den walk ard wid Deardear @ suntec...
22nd (Tues): Had two driving lessons and cleared my Stage 3!! then workin from 6 til closing...
23th (Wed): Spend e whole day catchin e rest of my drama... Dinner wid mom n bro @ KFC...
24th (Thurs): Cleared my wardrobe (FINALLY!) then off to work from 4 til closing...
25th (Fri): Craftin wid Fel... Then ice cream buffet wid Da, Edith n Fel @ Ion Swensen...
26th (Sat): TGSTH 10K Hunt @ vivo in e mornin wid Fel... HongJie's 21st bday celebration @ nite...
27th (Sun): Food Chase wid Fel @ DTE @ 2pm... Mid Autumn Festival @ Buddist Society



tt's wad happen... onli 1 day tt is totally free~ anyway... below is schedule for the next week~

28th (Mon): Working frm 5 til closing
29th (Tues): Dinner & Pitstop with Pitstompers
30th (Wed): Workin frm 4 til closin
1st (Thurs): Meetin up wid DearDear
2nd (Fri): Currently nth on~
3rd (Sat): Wrokin frm 6 til closin
4th (Sun): Workin frm 10 til 5... Film & Video class @ night



hopefully... can pack my rm on mon n fri~ totally messy~~ so proud of myself for clearin up my wardrobe 2day... hehe... super duper neat now ^^


hopefully, tml ltr craft session is rewardin... in e sense tt I'm able to sell my cards off @ my blogshop... gng to discuss blogshop stuff wid Fel as well...

3 weeks of holiday gone... which mean 3 more weeks to enjoy only!!!!! I don't want sch to reopen so soon :(