Was told by Erny to meet her @ clubroom @ 6pm ytd... bein so secretive n stuff, not tellin me anything... somehow... i gt a veri bad feelin.. n it was cfm >.<
wad if i say... i had expected it?
wad if i say... it was the reason why i join?
wad if i say... i no longer want it because i noe i'm not e best person for it?
wad if i say... i even haf thots of MIA if i do get tt post?
But i haf gif my words tt i'll stay tru-out no matter wad... becuz a CCA is a commitment... not something tt ought to b take jokinly... come as u wan, leave as u like...
so wad if a junior has a higher rank den me? if he is much more capable, much more knowledgable in tis field den me... i believe he ought to b given tt chance... I seriously dun mind... becuz i doubt my capability to lead...
rank... it doesn't seem as impt as it used to... yes, it will look gd on e leavin cert n stuff... BUT...perhaps, it was cuz of wad i witness b4... it is not abt givin a person e rank jus bcuz he/she is a senior... i strongly believe tt it is given for e capability... for e effort put in...
I'm grateful enuff that e seniors recognise e effort put in by me... tt dey tink i can b given a chance... bt e truth is... i didn't really put in much... not as much as i had in GG... I onli try to make it to every event tt i can so tt Erny won't b so trouble findin manpower, findin some1 to oversee everything...
well... how things gng to turn out... we shall jus wait for tt day...
p.s. wen e rest r teasin me tt some1 cfm will get e head of dept... i jus smile along... bt in my heart, i dread it... not bcuz of e responsibility tt i'll haf if i do get it... bt bcuz i noe dere is some1 out tt hu is more suitable for it den me...
i still rmb tt time ilhum tease me for able to move up e ladder so fast, despite e fact tt i onli join @ e start of tis yr... @ tt point of time, i have oredi dun wanna haf tt post anymore...
perhaps it is kinda dumb to push away... aftall, hu won't wan to b part of e committee? i guess, i will b e onli 1? to push away not bcuz of e responsibility...