Monday, May 18, 2009

Cover letter n resume

zZz... currently still stuck @ my cover letter T.T resume is easy... aft havin to finish my cover letter... since i'm usin mostly facts~ haha... dun need to tink so much :P bt havin to cook up a story for cover letter is totally killin me -.- esp since i'm bad @ crappin stuff...

y do we haf to cook up a story for e cover letter -.- zZz...


*squeeze brain for more juice*

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Commitment

So, to you doing the work prior to the event (eg. preparing the script and cues) is more important than being there to ensure thing go well during the event. Then isn't it just going to prove even more that I'm the one committed more now? Since I have been the one collating, initiating, attending the briefing, being there during the rehearsal.

Oh, I shouldn't say that, should I? Afterall, like you say, you're having your FYP, can't commit your 100% now. Then when it's attachment, what are you going to do? Isn't that going to be even worse?!

Anyway, don't expect me to initiate after this event. Same goes for checking of the email. If you, as the head don't even give a damn, why should I?


Oh, have I mention that some juniors even mistaken that I'm the head instead?



I believe it is very clear, that who is more approachable to the juniors, not just our own department juniors, but other department as well. At least, from what I have observed, that is the way it have been.

Once again, I'm the one initiated, to discuss about SA/TMT stuff. Can't you even inform me about the rehearsal after you know about it? So much for Head and Assistant Head to work hand in hand. How do I even work with you when you don't even update me about what is happening? Gosh, I think, if the juniors have not contact me through facebook, I doubt I will even know about it.

I done my share of work. You are the head, you shall be the one talking to the juniors about their attendance. I'm just going to collate the attendance for the upcoming event that's all. That is my scope of work.


I hate it when my gut feeling prove me right. I hate it.


This Saturday, I'm not going to bother how hectic it may be, I going to really talk things out with you. To really draw a line for the thing we ought to do for our own position. Why should I do more than my share and let you be the one getting the credits for my effort?

Did you realise how contradicting your words are? When I mention to you about the juniors not able to make it. You actually reply that they should push away whatever they can and to attend all SA/TMT events. Have you done the same? Have you been there for every event? The answer is clearly no. For the past one year, how many of SA event have you attend?

I guess it's just the SA nite, SA camp and BBQ. You didn't even stay for the BBQ, left after a while. Drama production and Halloween nite. Both you didn't attend the actual event because you have your church stuff.

Indeed I'm questioning your priority of the cca. Indeed I'm questioning your committment toward the cca.

Unfair? Bring it on then. Prove to me that what I say is not true.


I'll be waiting for Saturday.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Movie: Angels & Demons

Watch Angels & Demons wid deardear @ GVmax


feel tt it's better den Da Vinci... mayb cuz i haven read e bk yet bah *shrug*

as usual, interpretin of sign, decodin codes n stuff, really do capture my interest... haha... totally enjoy e movie...

worth watchin ^^

Friday, May 15, 2009

Initiative

While checkin e email, I couldn't help bt asked myself... y m i still takin all this initiative and responsibility to check, wen she dun even gif a damn... wen she dun even bother to log in to check and reply e freshies...


crap!


oh~ i haf to correct myself... she did log in... aft i told her to do so as to reply a certain freshie... sheesh~


i'm so damn irritated tt she dun even bother to check e freshies sign up list... to think tt she was e 1 tellin me she wil check up e num to c hu is tt person tt sms her *roll eyes* end up hu's e 1 checkin... me agn...

n to tink ieven inform her tt e person oredi sign up... she still ask for e freshie's details n stuff... gosh~





is it really that hard to communicate with you?!?!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

KidzQuest: GardenAsia (vid)



e previous KidzQuest @ GardenAsia... happen to haf chnnl 8 programme being film @ e same time... so we were bein filmed as well ^^ n tt was y we met huang wen yong and xiang yun...

I spotted myself in e vid... hehe... watch out aft e timin 1.05 ^^

The things I want to do with my family!

I missed having the big family outing with my maternal relatives! The happy memories of going to East Coast Park or West Coast Park to have a picnic. The fun times of baking cookies as well as craft sessions at my aunts' house. The partying during the festive season, especially during Chinese New Year and Christmas. Recalling on all these memories, just bring a smile to me.

With NFC'09 coming soon, I can't help thinking when was the last time that I had really fork out my time to spend with my family. Having to set aside time for other commitments in my life, I had, at the same time, taken away the time I could have spent with them. Other than the weekly family gathering at my maternal grandparents' place on Sunday, I have not really spent much time with them, even during the school holiday.

I am appreciating each family gathering, because I know I'm one of those lucky ones to be really close-knitted with her family. Close-knitted with not just her nuclear family, but also with her maternal side relatives, especially her aunts. But I don't deny, there were times that I had took those gathering for granted, not wanting to go just because I want to spend more time on other stuff.

Family Day, to me, mean more than just spending time with my nuclear family. It is spending time with my relatives, having fun times together, creating happy memories together. Spending the time with my grandparents, my aunts and uncle, their spouses, my cousins and my own family.

Family Day = Bonding Time. Through the fun and happy time spent together, creating memories that will be look back on in the future and put a smile on each of our faces.

I guess, the best time for another family outing, would be the upcoming school holiday, after the mid-year exams. To spend a Sunday at the beach, having a picnic, riding the bike, flying kites, throwing frisbee. Full participation from everyone ^^

I guess, I have to be the planner for the outing this time round, since I'm the one who haven't been forking out time for my family.

Anyone up for the outing? ^^


Start planning for your own Family Day Out on 30 May 2009! Visit www.nfc.sg!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Committee

I can't help but wonder... how is e committee bein chosen? who is e 1 havin e say for hu to be put into e position of head n assistant head of each department?


Somehow... I startin to question on e decision being made...
Somehow... I can't help recallin those stuff tt I had withness before...



There is still 2/3 of e yr to go... hopefully, things do get better, instead of worse...



Though assume is to make an ass out of u and me... I shall assume that the battle is lost...

ADic's forest adventure

Kinda interested in gng for the ADic's forest adventure on 17th May... organised by Young Ntuc...

But wonder who is interested to pei me go... it's $30 for NTUC members... and $32 for non-NTUC members...




more information here


I WANNA GO!!! T.T

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Responsibility

Don't blame me if I started to do less work. Afterall, my role is just to assist you, not the one to make e decision nor doing almost all e work.


I believe I have done more then my share ever since we had step up, ever since we have taken up this responsibility


You argue that you oversee the events. True, you are the one who oversee the events, afterall your're the head. But are you really there to make sure thing going well during rehearsal and stuff? Who is the one who is physically there to really make sure things are okay? Who is the one who turn up for the briefing? Who is the one who allocate the duties to the juniors during the events? I believe both of us know clearly the answers to all the questions that I stated above.

Anyway I had voiced out. I decided not to take action on my own and wanted to talk to you first. But it seem, you are putting a guard against me after I mention how I felt to you, don't you? True that I strongly believe things are in my favour. But ultimately, outcome will still be based on you. If you don't want to give way, if you feel that I'm just being the one that unreasonable, then there's nothing I can do isn't it?


If my gut feeling about the outcome is true, all I want to do is to ask you: Do you think you are really capable to handle the department and everything else? Are you able to make e decision, voice it out and really do something abt it? Are you even able to prove that you can do your job as the head? Are you even close to the juniors as well as the rest of the cca to really work well with them?

What happen last wednesday somehow just seem to prove how unsuitable you are. I may be the last in our batch to join. I may have been in the department for a shorter period than you. But at least I know how things work.

Do you even remember what you say to me on that day? You say you don't know how thing work in the cca. You say you can't alway be the one to do the work. You say you're shocked that you got the post, yet at the same time not really shock.

Ask youself, answer yourself truthfully. Are you really the one doing all the work? Who have been the one who have been voicing out ideas for the department? Who have been the one who is doing the compilation of the freshies? Who have initiate the meeting to discuss for orientation? Who have been the one making the decision and work on it all these while?

Do you even know why I'm voicing out my displeasure? Do you know that it's not even about cca point? I don't give a damn to cca point now! I just displease over the fact that I'm doing the work, yet it seem that you are claiming the credit.

True, I agree to do the work, but do I have a choice not to do it? And seriously, think about it. I have been initiative enough to do the work without you to tell me to do so, having to know how tied up and stressed you are with your fyp.

It's like our responsibilities swop, do you even realise that? I'm the one telling you what to do, informing you of what's happening, allocating of juniors for duties. Isn't all these your responsibilities instead?

Yes, I have to stand in for you if you can't make it. But things like compiling of contacts, emailing the juniors and freshies. I believe you can do all these don't you?


If the outcome is as what my gut feeling is telling me. Rest assure I'll cooperate with you for the rest of the year. But don't expect me to be initiative anymore. I won't deny that I may still do more that what is expected of me, but just don't expect me to be initiative anymore. Because I see no point of doing so.

If it's not for the welfare and growth of the department, I would not have voiced out. Indeed that I want to be recognise for what I am doing. But what I have been doing have been for the department.

Future path

Had to research and do a presentation on a company for my communication skill project in week5,which is actually just next tues~~ *faint*


had a hard time tryin to tink of a company cuz i was thinkin along e line of tour guide or counsellor...

bt thanks to deardear, manage to sort out and decided on a company to focus on ^^ cuz ended up tinkin toward my ultimate goal in life... hehe

time to research n prepare my presentation... ^^ n oso work on ICA 1 & 4... zZz...



i'm glad i done my resume before... just need to edit n make into e format tt e tcher provided us wid... *phew* lesser work to b done~~

Friday, May 08, 2009

New phone ^^

Finally gotten my new hp ^^

Nokia E63~~

n guess wad, i got it @ $98... hehe... heard from a frien tt tis phone if sell outside, i can go buy another 2 more hp... $.$


anyway... tryin hard to get use to it... it's like type on a veri veri miniature keyboard (which it really is =.=)

and for e 1st time i finally get to choose e hp i wan durin a re-contract... previously all choosen by parents... bt i like it equally e same ^^


Totally love my new hp~ bt still a lil bu she abt my previous hp... haha...

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Final Theory Trial Test n drivin pract

Woo hoo~~

I pass I pass I pass...
my final theory trial test~


FTT on 4th June... *cross finger*




anyway... did more pract bookin just now... to my horror!! june no space liao =.=" zZz... onli 18th... so if my aust trip not cancel... den june totally no pract @ all!!! sian la... either tt or take in e mornin @ 8+ am... siao lor... i have prob wakin up for sch liao... still ask me drive @ tt time =.="

can't w8 for my 1st pract on 27th may ^^ just sian abt e part tt i need to w8 soooo long til my 2nd pract which will b 1st july... decided to book every wed, take 2 lesson each day...


lucky dad gif me credit card some time back... if not i can't even pay for e soo many pract lessons... total bk 12 lessons 2day... @.@ expensive sia~~~ T.T arigato DAD!!

driving driving driving driving driving driving driving

A change~

I guess, what happen last week, in a way is a blessing in disguise...


I'm slowly, but surely, moving away from the old me...
I'm slowly, but surely, moving toward the new me...



Perhaps... Like what I had told BTP... Over time, having to experience things, witnessing stuff... Your views changes... Your prospective changes... And with that, your way of handling things as well as your thinking changes as well...


No longer will I just accept things as it is if I feel tt it's unfair... No longer I'll just take it and tolerate it... For now, I will fight for what I feel that I deserve...


And now I'm fighting for one... I hoping for things to be the way I hope... Because I strongly believe, things are in my favour for this battle...




Indeed, the start of the fresh new month of Month... will be a fresh start for me... a start for the new me which I'm slowly working on...

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

6th BTP monthversary

Went out wid BTP ytd to celebrate our 6 month of friendship... i guess, most will b wondering... y 6 month of friendship oso celebrate, it's not 6yrs or 60yrs of friendship... just 6month, onli 1/2 yr...

true in a sense that it's a short period... bt wad make tis friendship a real unique n special one (eh~~ dun interpret as i'm sayin my other friendship not unique or special hor~)... is how our friendship had started from... where e building block of our friendship had came from...

some noe abt the start... bt i believe most don't... *as in every1 is real interested in my life story like tt =.=*

story: She's my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend... And it's because of my boyfriend that I know her...
The amazing turn out of event is tt: Our friendship is something that I experience with other friend... the closeness n e deepness of the friendship despite the really short time...

those tt noe abt our friendship had asked me: What is BTP? It's actually the short form of bluetack partner... weird? haha... long story... a story between me n her ^^


anyway... bak to e outin... manage to meet up early cuz of early dismissal... went cine... can't believe i actually forgotten how to go dere n haf to check out e map outside Shaws... n it doesn't even haf cine on it =.= *oh crap~* so much for tellin btp tt i'll b her tour guide for orchard -.-

bt bt bt... i did find my way dere~ hehe... went for our neoprint 1st ^^ to mark tis date~
and den to buy our dinner... too lil time so smuggle BK @.@ *oops* movie wid her was great... haha... totally enjoy the movie... both of us were so in thought aft e movie tt we didn't even talk!!

went to KFC to chat... she kinda right in a way to say, our heart-to-heart talk happen @ e end of trip... she's 1 of e few ppl tt i can just open up to, tellin how i feel n wad i thot w/o havin to b prompt to... anyway... exchanged our 6-month-friendship present ^^ totally love e present she gif me... so much effort put in!! *feel bad cuz i didn't put much effort for mine to hers* camwhore session too... hahamy present to her: her half on e left... mine on e right

seriously... it really feel tt time is just zoomin past us... feel tt didn't really haf a proper chat and wanted to spend more time... so frm cine, we walk to somerset... just barely walk into e tunnel, both of us decided to walk to douby ghaut to take e train, so as to haf longer time to chat... den @ douby ghaut, i decided to pei her take train to city hall n i just cont ridin e train for it to rebound... in e end of us of ride e train til it rebound cuz we wanna cont chattin @.@ n i practically haf to chase her off e train @ raffles place even though our chat yet to end...



a friendship that both didn't expect...
a friendship that both thot won't work out...
bt in the end
it's a friendship that can never be replaced...


Cheers to 6 months of friendship ^^

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Movie: 17 again

Just watch 17again wid BTP @ cineleisure~

Guess it been a really long time since i watch this kind of movie... really make me tink and reflect abt life... abt e stuff that happen... abt e decision tt i had made...

Totally love e movie... though, i actually told deardear tt i won't b watchin @.@


can't really rmb any quote... bt it's a really meaningful movie


wad if... wad if one day, i can go bak to a certain age, to make a certain decision agn? which age will it b? and will i made a different decision?



perhaps... 10, 20 yrs down e rd, i may look bak n tink, if onli i haf made a diff choice, perhaps life may b better... bt hu will truly noe isn't it?


like wad i alway say... Thing Happen for A Reason... and oso Every Decision We Made Leaves Its Mark...

sometime, along e way, we lose sight of wad we had in mind, e reason we made tt choice... Gettin upset abt e choice we made n stuff...

Each choice, each decision... affect life differently... we'll nvr noe wad will happen if we made tis choice, nor will we noe how thing will b if we had choosen differently previously...

Mike was lucky in e way tt he get to experience his 17 yr old life agn... and tru experiencin it, it help him to c his reason for his decision... and along his way understand his family better...



tis movie deserve to be watch... n it's not cuz of Zac Efron =.="

Song: I Wanna Be With You



沒力氣 總是懶洋洋地
賴著你 懷理頑皮嬉戲
是該做些事情 心裡又甜蜜的
不想要 不想要 睜開眼睛

我和你 頻率如此接近
沒壓力 自在做我自己
第一次感受 這種愛的決心
只想要 只想要 和你一起

I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好幸福
想要和你建造一個愛的小屋
I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好滿足
享受最甜美的束縛 有你的呵護我不再孤獨

我和你 頻率如此接近
沒壓力 自在做我自己
第一次感受 這種愛的決心
只想要 只想要 和你一起

I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好幸福
想要和你建造一個愛的小屋
I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好滿足
享受最甜美的束縛 有你的呵護我不再孤獨

I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好幸福
想要和你建造一個愛的小屋
I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好滿足
享受最甜美的束縛 有你的呵護我不再孤獨

我和你 頻率如此接近
沒壓力 自在做我自己
第一次感受 這種愛的決心
只想要 只想要 和你一起

Friday, May 01, 2009

Song: You Yi Zhong Ai Jiao Zuo Fang Shou


如果两个人的天堂
ru guo liang ge ren de tian tang
If a couple's notion of Heaven,
象是温馨的墙
xiang shi wen xin de qiang
Is like a heart-warming barrier
囚禁你的梦想
qiu jin ni de meng xiang
Imprisoning your dreams,
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
xing fu shi fou xiang shi yi shan tie chuang
Is happiness akin to a metal-barred window?

候鸟失去了南方
hou niao shi qu le nan fang,
The bird has lost its internal compass for the south.
如果你对天空向往
ru guo ni dui tian kong xiang wang
If you aspire to travel into the sky,
渴望一双翅膀
ke wang yi shuang chi bang
And long for a pair of wings;
放手让你飞翔
fang shou rang ni fei xiang
Releasing you to soar up high,
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
ni de yu yi bu gai ban sui me gui
Roses should not accompany your feathered wings.

听从凋谢的时光
ting cong diao xie de shi guang
Obeying ageing properties of time,
浪漫如果变成了牵绊
lang man ru guo bian cheng le qian ban
If romance has morphed into a leash,
我愿为你选择回到孤单
wo yuan wei ni xuan ze hui dao gu dan
.: *^^* http://media.17vn.com :.
I'm willing to choose to return to a life of solitude for your sake.
缠绵如果变成了锁链
chan mian ru guo bian cheng le suo lian
If lingering touches have morphed into chains,
抛开诺言
pao kai nua yan
It is time to discard the vows.

有一种爱叫做放手
you yi zhong ai jiao zuo fang shou
There is a kind of love called letting go,
为爱放弃天长地久
wei ai fang qi tian chang di jiu
Forsaking a long life of romance for love.
我们相守若让你付出所有
wo men xiang shou ruo rang ni fu chu suo you
If us being together made you forsook everything,
让真爱带我走
rang zhen ai dai wo zou
Let true love spirit me away.
为爱结束天长地久
rang ai jie su tian chang di jiu
Let love end the dreams of a life-long romance.
我的离去若让你拥有所有
wo de li qu ruo rang ni yong you suo you
If my departure lets you gain everything,
让真爱带我走 说分手
rang zhen ai dai wo zou shuo fen shou
Let true love steer me away, and initiate break-up.

为了你 失去你
wei le ni shi qu ni
For your sake, I must lose you.
狠心扮演伤害你
hen xin ban yan shang hai ni
Cruelly putting on an act to hurt you.
为了你 离开你
wei la ni li kai ni
Leaving you for your sake.
永远不分的离去
yong yuan bu fen de li qu
Leaving without ever letting go.

Song: Fang Le Ai




你指向远方 爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光 钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动 是 泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上 以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光在空中翱翔
还得乔装安份 靠在你肩膀

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢 我笑得开朗
你越温柔 我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你 我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福 何必要模仿
心不在何苦 留躯壳在身旁
加满自由 我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱 会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手

我的心 为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手
放了爱

Everything


I couldn't help but agree with this pic...


We know in our heart, not to be too rely on someone, too dependent on someone... But sometime, we just can't help it and make them our everything...


I learnt my lesson in not to make someone my everything... Because, ultimately, i'll be the one getting hurt.


Letting everything take its course... How it will turn out in the future, no one has an idea... And I have no idea, if I'll ever make someone my everything again or not...




For now, I just want to forget the unhappy things that had happened... and packed away those happy memories...

A fresh start

May is here... 1/3 of e yr is gone :( bt den... it oso mean my drive pract lesson is comin soon~ woots! n so does FTT trial test =.=


Anyway... A fresh new month... time to start afresh... Throw away those unhappy experience n memories... Packed away those happy memories...


Lots of stuff happened in april... Mostly unpleasant i may say... But the most pleasant thing is to be proven how true and sincere those friendship of mh, puii, blur, jenson, btp, bready n wf are... Thanks for the encouragin and support...


Changes had taken place in quite a few aspect in just April... Namely the relationship part... True in e sense that nth ever stay constant... But in april i really feel e change in a lot of things...



A certain thing that ought to be long over is finally over... No point broodin over it or regrettin the choice that I made just a few days ago... Time to move on...


To end this post...

Happy Labour Day holiday to all!!

and most importantly...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!