Space

Sometime, I just choose to MIA from the virtual world... Cutting myself away from everyone online... In a way, I need some personal space and time... To clear my thoughts, my emotions... To sort out things within myself... To put it another way, I just want to escape from 'reality in the virtual world'...

Peeps like mh, puii, jenson, btp have all know and witness and even experience my MIA period... especially mh, puii and jenson... They are the people that I had MIA on, early last year...


With advanced technology, indeed spaces are getting smaller... Msn, FB, blog, etc... All ways to connect and contact... It does make life easy in a way, but at the same time, it also affect life as easy as well...

Sharing of thoughts and feelings over blog, FB status, MSN nick, etc... Anyone can just read it... Perhaps, the targeted person may not be named... But sometime, it's that easy to tell...

I'm tired of having to read negative things about me, when I didn't even do that in the first place... Accuse me once... I shall just put it aside... Accuse me again, I shall have a nice talk with you first... But accuse me again, thrice or more, rest assure, even if it's untrue, I'll make sure it come true... JUST FOR YOU!


Why prove these peoplw wrong ain't it? Waste of effort and time... Why fight against it? I shall just go with the flow.

Unhappy about it? Well, you accuse me first!




aah~ Do you know how piss off I am with you? Don't tell me one thing and end up saying something else in your blog or anything... Avoiding you? HAH! why do I even need to do that? Be it whatever you want to think about me or anything else... How many times have you say that I'm treating you as less importance? Seriously, I'm suffocated!! Nearly once that I want to leave this friendship aside, but the accusation from you is forcing me to do so! Even if I didn't treat you less important previously, trust me on this that aft what have been mention in your blog, I would seriously want to think thrice about how important I want to treat you, because it's not even appreciated and even not being acknowledge!


to be it simply, I have enough of that kind of nonsense!

Movie: District 9

Watch District 9 wid deardear @ AMKhub 2day...

a movie tt deardear thot i won't wanna watch... i dun deny tt... wen i saw e poster i'm totally not interested @ all... aft all it's like science-fric like tt... bt aft watchin e trailer, gt interested in it... haha

a gd movie... just that I dun like e way e scene jump here n dere... a lil confusin sometime... e movie is like a documentary like tt sia... it feel so real!!

interestin how e story progress...


Glad I had decided to watch tis... worth watchin ^^



sometime, we thot wad we're dng is rite... tt we noe wad exactly we're dng... bt e truth is, dere's thing tt we didn't noe or realise... tt things are different frm how it really is...

Study Break...

Cleared all project n assignments last fri... now officially study break for exam...

Really thankful for the help given by Felicia and Edith... stayin up wid me to chiong assignment... last week was practically a u-help me-here-and-there, I-help-u-here-and-there time... haha... fel like keep spammin me wid her ppt to ask how to improve her ppt~ spam me for dunno how many days :P

Exam in less than 2 weeks time... n tt will b e last time we'll ever do things as a class...


2.5yr... n it just past like nobody business... it's seem that we just enter NYP for orientation... in a blink, we're each gng our way... IAP, FYP n repeated modules...


All the best everyone... For exams!

Movie: Overheard

Watch Overheard wid Deardear @ AMKhub just now...

worth watchin...



sometime, a lie just lead to a bigger lie... wen one lie starts... it's hard to end... it just cont to snow ball... desperation can drive a person to do something he would not do... just because he see no way out of the situation he is in...

we may be able to hide behind the lie... but sooner or later, we'll have to pay for the consequences...

Movie: Where Got Ghost

Caught Where Got Ghost wid deardear @ vivo just now...

3 story, 1 show... somehow remind me of 4bia...

had qutie a few laugh... bt other den tt, it isn't really a gd movie actually... e storyline is kinda boring... too animated scenes...


anyway... i dun really recommend tis movie...

Song: 1, 2, 3, 4

1 2, 1 2 3 4-
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
[ 1,2,3,4 lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends-
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best I that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

MFGG gangshow '09

One year plus... That's how long since the last time I stepped into MFSS... No thanks to some stuff that happened...

Seriously, it's so hard to please Edith, you know? She been trying to psycho me to go since the confirmation of the campfire. I kept telling her that I won't be going as I have plans on that day le, after she informed me that the gangshow is postpone to 1st August. Not lying anyway. I did have plans on that day. But in actual fact, I had decided to go. The only person who know about that is Felicia. In a way she's the one that manage talk me through and psycho me to go la.

Went to the canteen to check with the juniors where are the rest. Then went to guides' room to help them with moving of the brick to the hall. And that's when that Edith blurt out: Eh Jie, why you here?! =.= talk about giving her a surprise. sheesh~

And that's when I started to get busy. Having to attend event and stuff cause of my current cca, StageArts, I ended up helping them with backstage, lightings and sounds as well as projection thingy.

First thing that I did was helping them with taping down the wire for the spotlight. Then help to calm Samathan down as she having stage fright. Glad to manage to calm her down. Then went to backstage to help Joey with settling of which lights to use for which sectment of the gangshow. And then I'm practically stuck there after that, as Joey had asked for my help.

To be frank, it's a whole different experience I have for a campfire/gangshow. Afterall, how many people will get to work backstage for a campfire/gangshow, especially since you're an alumni.

Being stage manager during SA event help me. And in a way, I shared those experience and knowledge with them yesterday. Joey, Xiao Wei, Samathan and Cheryl. Those who were at the backstage. Things can get a little chaotic. But as long as you're keeping check of what you have to do, things will run smoothly. Having those experience, in a way, aids me to help assuring them and enable them to be less stress during the event.

I didn't have much time to really enjoy the event with my fellow alumni. However, it has became something memorable for me. The different attitude in this batch of girls compared to the previous ones.

You girls may have little manpower. Remember, quality still override quatity. Do a good job in maintaining and improving guides. Sooner or later, people will see that MFGG is better than what they expected. I have faith in you girls.

I guess, in a way, going back for the gangshow last night have renew my passion for guides, especially for MFGG.

Communication

I just don't understand, why is it so hard to just to communicate with you! I seriously have enough, yet I can't just wash my hands off everything, no matter how many times I wished I did.

Just a simple phrase, yet you can keep telling me that I say likewise before.

I'm tired. Do you know that? I'm tired of having to carry YOUR responsibility on MY shoulder just because you're away for attachment.

Stop being hypocrite about how grateful/thankful/glad that I'm helping you. Because I'm totally unwilling to do so! Get that in you!

Who is the one putting in more effort, I believe everyone can see it. Who is the more reliable one, I believe they know it. Who is the one that do followup and making effort for the department, I believe they can tell.

I'm just really tired of trying to communicate with you. Since you been using the excuse that you're busy with attachment and FYP, then let me give you a warning. Don't be shock when I'm not going to help you anymore when mid-August is here, when you're back in school. For that time, you have no excuse of having to stay away anymore.

You ain't the only person having attachment. Yet why do I feel that you seem to have a 'privilege' for staying away from cca? Others having other commitments like attachments or work still tend to their department. Are you?



It's too late to change anything. But at least I know, I'm trying my best to do what is best for the department. Come mid-August, everything will be back to you. And when things get screwed up after that, I no longer going take anymore responsibility to clear up the mess. You are the head. I'm been handling your responsibility for the department for too long. Afterall, I'm nothing more than just an Assistant Head.

random ramble...

I guess, things ain't going well for quite a lot of peopl, including me...

Emotion roller coastal that seem to be kept gng down and down and down... perhaps... should say it's a emotional free fall??


Looking @ my UP globe... can't help wishing that I can just fly to somewhere, leaving all this unhappiness behind... for e time being @ least...


deadline drawing near... n i think, this time it's serious DEAD-line...

dreading sch more n more... not just because of the heaps of deadline and the drawing-nearer-and-nearer examinations... but also cca responsibility, which I just can't seem to escape from...

cca, it used to be something I'm looking forward to... but because of the way things had turned out, I'm starting to dread it...sometime, i really wish i can just shoot back that I'm just an assistant head... but precisely I'm e assistant head, i have to assist my head, who is currently away for attachment... I'm looking forward to e production, yet @ e same time, I just wish i dun have e responsibility to b e 1 i/c once again... how many times, have I been i/c... How many times, do I hafve to be the one to do everything??


work, my method of escaping from reality... doesn't seem to work anymore... not since xp left the place... I'm ok with working with L... I just can't stand working with I and R... to the point, I'm choosin to work over the weekend... to the point I'm relieve that i don't have to work with R totally for Thurs n next week...


things ain't going well, but I just hope that it's not going to get worse...


Temper isn't good... And people are me are becoming victims to my temper... Especially deardear, victim to my anger and short temper...


Thanks peeps, for the concern shown. But I guess, for now I need to be alone.

Future path

Mom asked me this qns last nite: After grad wad you wanna do ar?
my reply: *shrug*



was kinda shock by her reply when she actually ask me go study early childhood... work in e day, study @ nite...


sheesh~ if she didn't stop me frm studyin early childhood 3yrs ago hor~ it would haf been just nice to step into tt field next yr~~


startin pay 1.6K... hmmm...


givin a serious thot, wad i'm studyin is not exactly wad i wanna do in e future... n i noe, i'm not just e onli 1... my clsmate & da... a diff plan for e future...


time tickin away... have to really tink abt e future path soon~

Movie Marathon: Cars, Ratouille, UP

The Disney/Pixar Movie Marathon worth 2 thumbs up ^^

Marathon start time: 4pm
Marathon end time: 10pm
2 breaks in between... 15 min each...


1st movie marathon and i totally enjoyed it ^^ though i spent $29 on it @.@ in which only UP i haven't watch b4... but still... it's worth it ^^afterall, tt $29 include e popcorn set n stuff... so each movie ard $7-8...



anyway... About UP movie...
interestin concept... Like how the story build up at the start... touching... Tears at a few scene cuz really touchin... not forgettin to mention cuz of e heaps of laughter... worth watchin ^^ was not really wad i expect...

sometime, you tried so hard for someone, but all they wish is that you are able to live for yourself. Go on an adventure because of someone, be on the adventure for yourself.



had enjoyed myself watchin e other 2 movie as well... esp ratouille...

Movie: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Caught Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince twice... 1st wid Da @ amkhub during e 1st day of release... den wid deardear @ cineleisure during the followin Tue...

1st time round feel tt e movie wasn't bad. i guess, tryin to forget e story does help me to enjoy e movie more... though i dun deny, me n da haf been discussin on e missin impt scene frm e movies... n e variation dey haf made to e story for e movie... great disappointment @ e end, which me n da haf been anticipating for the battle between the order of phoenix & Dumbledore's Army VS the death eater... haix~ no such scene @ all :( *disappointment~*

2nd time, i just fall aslp wen harry n ginny was in e rm of requirement... slp til e part where e inferior tryin to drag harry down into water... cuz of e loud n sudden noise tt shock me up~ tt's how bored i was @ e movie @.@


despite not really likin e movie, bt i haf to say tt it was a gd movie... e storyflow n stuff is rather smooth compared to e previous 1/2 movie...
well... anyway, i'll still b w8in for e last installation... shall c how dey end e whole thing.

Outing wid BTP

Spend the whole day wid BTP ytd...

Meet @ Somerset, before proceedin to Cineleisure for our sushi buffet... Glad we went early so no need to queue... wakaka~ frm an empty to a fully packed... took neoprints aft tt...

Went to PS aft tt to get our craft stuff~ Glad to b able to find e stuff tt she want frm e shop @ PS... I gt myself the watermark ink n a blender pen as well... took e membership~ *gosh... dunno how many membership i sign up tis yr liao @.@* next to Daiso to get more craft stuff... hehe...

Came to my hse to do craft... mainly to try out e diff technic tt we seen in e vid... haf fun stampin n chalkin n embossin n *dunno wad else*

lookin forward to next sat movie marathon!! ^^



p.s. waitin for BTP to send me e photos

Story: The Seed

A successful business man was growing old and knew it was time to choose a successor to take over the business.

Instead of choosing one of his Directors or his children, he decided to do something different. He called all the young executives in his company together.

He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next CEO. I have decided to choose one of you. "The young executives were shocked, but the boss continued. "I am going to give each one of you a SEED today - one very special SEED. I want you to plant the seed, water it, and come back here one year from today with what you have grown from the seed I have given you. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next CEO."

One man, named Jim, was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly, told his wife the story. She helped him get a pot, soil and compost and he planted the seed. Everyday, he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other executives began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow...

Jim kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew.

Three weeks, four weeks, five weeks went by, still nothing.

By now, others were talking about their plants, but Jim didn't have a plant and he felt like a failure.

Six months went by -- still nothing in Jim's pot.. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing. Jim didn't say anything to his colleagues, however.. He just kept watering and fertilizing the soil - He so wanted the seed to grow.

A year finally went by and all the young executives of the company brought their plants to the CEO for inspection.

Jim told his wife that he wasn't going to take an empty pot. But she asked him to be honest about what happened. Jim felt sick to his stomach, it was going to be the most embarrassing moment of his life, but he knew his wife was right. He took his empty pot to the board room. When Jim arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other executives. They were beautiful -- in all shapes and sizes. Jim put his empty pot on the floor and many of his colleagues laughed, a few felt sorry for him!

When the CEO arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted his young executives. Jim just tried to hide in the back. "My, what great plants, trees, and flowers you have grown," said the CEO. "Today one of you will be appointed the next CEO!"

All of a sudden, the CEO spotted Jim at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered the Financial Director to bring him to the front..

Jim was terrified. He thought, "The CEO knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me fired!"

When Jim got to the front, the CEO asked him what had happened to his seed - Jim told him the story.

The CEO asked everyone to sit down except Jim. He looked at Jim, and then announced to the young executives, "Behold your next Chief Executive Officer! His name is Jim!" Jim couldn't believe it. Jim couldn't even grow his seed.

"How could he be the new CEO?" the others said.

Then the CEO said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone in this room a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today.. But I gave you all boiled seeds; they were dead - it was not possible for them to grow.

All of you, except Jim, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Jim was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new Chief Executive Officer!"

* If you plant honesty, you will reap trust
* If you plant goodness, you will reap friends
* If you plant humility, you will reap greatness
* If you plant perseverance, you will reap contentment
* If you plant consideration, you will reap perspective
* If you plant hard work, you will reap success
* If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation
* If you plant faith, you will reap a harvest

So, be careful what you plant now; it will determine what you will reap later.

"Whatever You Give To Life, Life Gives You Back".

My way of advising

If you want me to be a listening ear, then prepare to listen to my way of giving advices to you!


I don't denied being harsh. But that is because IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME THAT I HAD TO OFFER ADVICES FOR!!! The exact same issue!!!


Sorry to say, if it is the same exact freaking problem that you come to me every time, don't expect me to be empathic/sympathetic. You chosen not to heed the advices before, so why do I have to give pleasant advices or something that you want to hear?


Can't take my way of giving advices or my way of listening ear? Then don't approach me!


If you chosen not to heed my advices, don't come to me in the future with the same issue. If you do approach me, then prepare for a harsh session.


Damn it, I have enough!!!

P.S. Yes, I don't have pleasant words for you. But hey, look who approach who first? Don't ask me to get out when you're the one who approach me! damn it!

P.P.S. You are the one who approached me. If I really do have something against you, I won't bother to reply or listen to your whining. Wonder who is the one who have something against the other! If I wasn't having something against you before, I DO NOW!

Movie Marathon

i can't w8 for next sat disney/pixar movie marathon @ cineleisure wid BTP...

3 movie @ a go ^^ Ratouille, Cars n UP!!!!


hopefully i will b able to get my tix!!! *cross finger*


more info here ^^

Aunt Agony

can't help but wonder, if i became somewhat like aunt agony to certain people?

Movie: Ice Age 3 (3D)

watch Ice Age 3 (3D) wid deardear @ amkhub...


Ice Age 3 is more abt family and love? e 2 squirrels r so out-of-e-storyline...bt somehow, i love deir scene most... haha... esp e last scene!!! totally hilarious!


1st time watch 3D movie @ cathay... tink it's quite ok... really haf e 3D effect... nice~


may b findin Ice Age 2 to watch... i forget wad happen in Ice Age 2 totally!

The catch @ ECP

Went to ECP wid deardear aft movie... sat @ Bedok Jetty to enjoy e breeze and withness an amazin catch ^^
Yep yep... some1 caught a stingray!!!

overheard frm e malay uncles tt e stringray is pregnant? *shrug*



Anyway... sit ard @ Bedok Jetty til ard 915pm.. den go burger king to get a drink... lucky dere's a direct bus... bt still reach home rather late @ 1230mn @.@

Movie: Land of The Lost

watch Land of The Lost wid deardear @ vivo...



i seriously think that this is the worst comedy i ever watch -.- lucky i onli watch it cuz i wanna use my bday voucher... if not waste $$ on tis movie...

comedy... yet i hardly laugh... n tt's how bad it is, given how easily i laugh durin a movie -.-

basically, it's like an epic movie? not much of a gd storyline... bored bored bored bored bored!!!


deardear thot i'm not feelin well and stuff, cuz i'm like stonin throughout e movie.. bt it's actually cuz i'm ultra bored to death~


tis movie is totally not recommended!