Totally love it... esp e voices for cancan n xiao ba~~ kawaii!!!
After watchin gt e urge to keep a dog *oops* totally love xiao ba~
in 1 part... it mention that: What matter most in Love, is not the destination, but the journey... It's not about how the outcome will be, but how the two person have spend it...
A good show to watch... Values to be learn...
I do like 1 partcular part in which it talk abt father-daughter r/s... Sometime, fathers are pretty softhearted, even though dey dun show it...
Don't wait for something to happen before you start to treasure... Cherish each moment as if it's the last... Create memories of happiness, not sorrow...
watch e series here http://www.tudou.com/playlist/playindex.do?lid=6874947&iid=35095159&cid=22
It's time agn for to-do-list for holiday... hopefully can really really get everything done... yea~
Cleared up my room (tink popo will b happier when i do clear up =.=)
Sort out my wardrobe... (it gt messy agn!!! *pouts*)
Make the class video... (ppl send me pic!!!)
Update blog abt my aust study trip
Work more!!! (i need e $$ badly!!!!)
Complete my 1st video-makin biz~
More craft, esp cards ^^ (wanna work on e technique i learn frm e vid ^^)
Complete my 2,000 piece Winnie The Pooh jigsaw
Food Chase
Cleared up my drivin pract (hopefully can do TP by oct ^^)
Meetup wid Deardear on his off
Meetup wid Da for our exploration~ (can't w8!!!)
Night cycle!!! (i think this will be not done afterall the lor...T.T)
Set up blogshop to sell my prize catches from arcade (a new income for myself... n mom n popo will b so glad finally i'm gettin rid of my plushies -.-)
Think that's all for now. I know that's a lot more to go... But can't think of any for now...
Anyway... 2 days passed since end of last paper... have been out practically since tt day...
Wed: Hang out wid bestie... like finally?! e last time all 4 of us went out was Jan? yep... ultra long... spend a long day @ bugis... den edith, da n me walk all e way to city hall den take train frm dere...
Thurs: was home practically e whole day... deardear came over aft his movie... den had dinner tgt...
Fri: went bak for GG... den fetch noelle frm sch... den to grandma place... pretty long since i last drop by *oops*
Sat: bak to NYP for SA meetin as well as photoshoot... den meetin deardear for movie and dinner~ celebratin out monthversary ^^
Sun: no plan yet... bt i tink gt tt filmin lesson @ nite... zZz...
Mon: Workin 12-5pm... den drivin @ 5.55pm
Tues - Thurs: Production rehearsal... 12-10pm
Fri: Work 12-10pm
Sat: MFGG COH in e mornin... den production in e afternn... n out wid deardear @ nite
Got myself a job as video editor... woots~ though it's just S$30 for the project... and additional S$3 for each revision... well... @ least it's better than nothing no?
A good way to spend my holiday and kill those time when I had to be somewhere which I can't do much stuff...
Somehow, I just hope... that I'm able to do a good job for it and that in the future will be approach again...
Dore dake nakeba, asa ga tsutsunde kureru Kagami no naka no nureta kuchibiru wo kamu
Machijuu ga uragiri ni afureteru to, suneru dake no yatsu mo iru kedo Kimi wa kanari omoi koi no damage mo, hara ni osame ashita wo mitsumeteru
Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo Itami wo shiru manazashi wa fukaku sunde mou shioreru koto wa nai
Doko made hashireba ano hito ni aeru Shirazu shirazu yasashisa motomesamayou
Hakanai dake no tsuyogari ni mieru nara isso dareka ni dakitsukya ii Nasakenai yaji bakari tobasu dake no himajin nanka yori yoppodo ii kara
Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo Itami wo shiru manazashi wa fukaku sunde mou shioreru koto wa nai
Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo Kaze ni kesareru koto no nai, yorokobi sagasou Don't you cry, my hadashi no megami yo Hitori de nakanai demo ii yo Kokoro kara dareka ni hohoemu Kimi no kata wo hikiyosetai yo
TRANSLATION
No matter how much you cry, morning still comes around Looking inside the mirror, biting the lips that are wet by tears
In the city, betrayal fills the air, there are people who are angry with the world But you hide the seriously damaged love and calmly face tomorrow
Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine Your bright eyes know all about pain, there's no need to restrain yourself now
How far do you have to run until you can meet that person? Never realizing that you're looking for such tenderness
Rather than showing a false strength, why not embrace somebody tightly? Because this is much better than those who have much spare time and still neglect loved ones
Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine Your bright eyes know all about pain, there's no need to restrain yourself now
Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine Find your happiness that won't be blown away with the wind Don’t you cry, my bare-feet goddess You don't have to cry alone, it's fine In the bottom of your heart, who is that you are smiling at I wanna pull your shoulder close to me
떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요 Ddeol-eo-ji-neun nun-mul-eul eo-ddeoh-ge dal-hae-ya ha-na-yo
그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고 Geu-dae ch’eo-eum-bu-t’eo na-eui ma-eum-eul ga-jyeott-go
나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠 Nan-eul su eobs-neun myeong-eul anh-ge han-geo-jyo
화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠 Hwa-pun-i doe-go-p’eun na-neun neul gi-do-ha-jyo
*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요 Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도 A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며 Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠 Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo
*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요 Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도 A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며 Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠 Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo
TRANSLATION: Verse 1: He is approaching.. from a far far far distance how am i to express my shaking heart? He..... Stole my heart from the very start and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from...
Chorus: I want to become a flowerpot I pray all the time I want to become a flowerpot That stands on his small window sill Even if I won't be able to say a word or expect anything
From time to time I'll receive his smile and careness And just watch his sleeping face
Verse 2: He's leaving very far far far away How am i supposed to soothe these falling tears? He... Stole my heart from the very start And gave me an illness that i cannot recover
Chorus: I want to become the flowerpot I pray all the time I want to become the flowerpot That stands on his small window sill Even if I won't be able to say a word or expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness And just watch his sleeping face
I want to become the flowerpot That stands on his small window sill Even if I won't be able to say a word or expect anything From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness
As easy as it is to connect with others due to the advanced technology... It is also as easy to just cut off from the world...
Off handphone... Offline in msn, skype n so on...
And for once, My handphone have been switch off For the need to escape from everywhere...
I want some time alone... But at the same time... I need someone to be there for me...
Thanks peeps, For the concern... I know there's a listening ears out there But as I had mention before... It's not about who is willing But who I'm comfortable in sharing... Or who that I need to be there...
I seriously wonder, what is my importance in you... Do you know, that I want to MIA because of you?
Perhaps... It has been me who is needing you, Not you needing me...
Do you know, That I told myself to be emotionally independent... Because of you?
Have you realise That each time you want to rant That you need someone I'm there for you Despite how late it may be? Waking up to your calls late at night...
Do you know how much I needed you today? Yet, with just a 'not today' reply from you... I tried to keep the disappointment in me... Because you're unwell You need your rest...
Perhaps, Time alone is needed for now... Perhaps, We have to stay out of each other way for the time being...
I guess, I ought to be thankful for tonight... Because I was reminded of the great people I have in my life... Because of two person...
First person... Despite getting pissed off and fed up with me, because of the way I had acted... Walked away because it was just a bit too much to tolerate... But was all along watching out for my safety and well being which walking a distance behind me, without letting me knowing... Only when I didn't board the bus, that this person catch up with me to make sure I'm really alright... Staying with me when I got onto my transportation, while having to risk being caught in the rain without an umbrella...
Second person... Just when I thought I have no one that I'll feel comfortable turning to... This person change my mind... I guess, with so many people in my life, this person is still the one who understand me best... The one who worry about my emotional being... And I guess, without being ensured that I'm okay, this person who let me off easily?
I'm glad and I'm thankful... If not for tonight, I guess I'll still be trap in my own world... If not for them, I think I'll just totally break down...
I guess, stress has finally decided to catch up with me, after having to let me off for the past 18 years
I just came to realise... That I have no one Who I can really turn to now... When I need someone... A listening ear...
I know there many around, Who are willing to be my listening ear However it just not about who willing to be there But who I'm comfortable in sharing...
Number dwelling... Perhaps it's because of the things that had happened... I no longer know who to turn to...
Perhaps, It's time I learn to be independent... Be independent emotionally... Learning the lesson the hard way?
DA!!! meet up soon!!! I need our chit chat therapy :(
Was rereading the book You Are Here just now... in fact i just finished e book...
Sad endin... A sad love story... A friendship that became a relationship... Dated all the way back when they were primary 1... til dey were 22...
Readin tt book kinda remind me of The Curious Case of Benjamin Button... Gettin younger over time, instead of older... Metally shrinkin a year fortnightly... all bcuz of tryin to escape of hurt and betrayal... Trying to protect self from hurtin more...
e guy stay by her... even though dere's times wen he feel like givin up... but each time he near to givin up, his love for her is renew and he stay by her... tryin to cure her from e mental illness...
How far would you go for your true love?
That's e statement at the cover of the book. And that's the question that I ended up asking myself. Not just for true love, but all my love ones... Indeed, how far would I really go for my love ones? For my family and friends?
Kinda contradicting to what was mention previously isn't it? Telling myself to live for myself. Yet now, I'm asking myself how far I'm would go for others.
What if I'm in either main leads' shoes? If i'm in e girl's situation... will e ppl ard me still cont' to stay by me? or slowly, one by one givin up on me? If i'm in e guy's situation... will I have e strength to stay by the other person? or will I end up breakin down myself?
What if... A question that is often ask. But how many times do we really get an answer to it?
Was watchin some vid just now... n tis was wad had mention in e vid
You do good, people talk bad. You are bad, people talk bad. You do more, people talk bad. You do little/none, people also talk bad.
So why? Why even bother?
Live for yourself. Live for the day. You'll be a better person
Indeed, I can't help agree. Sometime, no matter what you do, others just want to put you in e bad light. Be it things that you did or things that you didn't.
Ultimately, who is it for? It's just you. So live your life for yourself. Live for the day.
i'm trying to care less, lest I'm badly affected again by something which the other parties won't.
All I feel like doing now, Is to just close this chapter once and for all. I'm tired.
You doesn't need me afterall. Unlike how we have thought. You have great people around you. And I ain't one of them.
I am nothing more than just a passerby In your life.
Watch Turning Point with Deardear @ GV Bishan 2day...
prefer tis movie compared to District 9... though similar to District 9... dere's lots of jumpin here n dere for e scene... as in quite a few flash backs...
interestin concept... being undercover for both side of e laws... a triad leader send him to b e undercover in police force... police force made him e undercover for e underground triad... interestin~
rather sad endin wid so many deaths...
e amt of sacrifice tt e brother made for his sis, e amt of compromise given to his sis by him, e amt of care and stuff...
another thing tt kinda amaze me is e route Laughing choose in e end... can't help thinkin, isn't it just gng to b a cycle agn n agn?
not a bad movie... given tt i didn't watch e drama series b4...
Sometime, we ain't given much choice/route... Choice is nothing more than just to choose between two option given by someone else... Having to choose mean to give up on something while you settle on the one you decided on... That's how life is, isn't it? There isn't best of both world, sadly...
ok... a rather outdated outing write-up due to e fact tt blogger been in crazy mode n doesn't let me upload my pic -.-
Finally a meet up wid Guardian peeps ^^ on 2nd July 09... almost 1yr since we last meet up!!! gosh! Selvi, Siti, Erny, Da and me!! missin Aisah though :(
Had dinner @ Pizza Hut. Shown dem my aust trip photos while w8in for Erny to arrive... Catch with everyone... n had plenty of laughters and jokes and teasing ard ^^
Send Selvi off to her bf, while the rest of us cont to slack ard Orchard/Somerset... When to Orchard Central to check it out... And had photo shoots session @ lvl 7... haha... cuz no1 ard...
Check out the toilet cuz da keep tellin me how cool the toilet is... n yea... it's rather cool... haha... Another camwhorin session... *expected wen the camera(s) in Erny's hands!!! :P* Can't w8 for the next meet up wid dem... hopefully, tis time Aisah can join us...
Hanging out with them makes me recall of the great time at Guardian... I truly miss those time... The laughter, the chat, the endless stock-takin... Indeed, those were the great times we shared. Thanks for being my dearest colleagues at Guardian, making my time there an enjoyable one. It will never ever be the same without you gals. *not forgetting to mention, if not for Da, i won't get to work @ Guardian in e 1st place ^^*
Yes, blame everything on me... Finally you get the picture, and finally I seen your true side...
Get thing clear that I'm the one choosing to leave? I seriously wonder, who is suppose to be the one getting things clear... So be it, since you want to put the blame on me for ending it... Never once did I mention about ending, never once I said about giving up...
Forgotten what I say before? Never once did I say forever, because I have no longer believe in forever... I kept my words about being there for you... I know I did... I meant what I say and given such thing, I'll never lie about it...
I remember the things being done... But are you?
Thanks for reminding me, about how delicate trust and faith can be...
You're making me regret. Regret not the path I decided to choose now. But regretted on the action I had made nine months ago!
You're upset. Ain't I the same, having to read those stuff in your blog again and again. Clarify with you again and again. If I seriously don't see you one of the more important people in my life, would I really be bother AND affected by how you feel and think? Are you really cherishing, as you proclaim?
Each time trust/faith is being tested on, it's either pass the test and get stronger... or it just fail and get destroyed...
Get this straight. I don't see the point of avoiding you. Because it serve no purpose. If you intend to continue to think that way, so be it. Because I know, even if your thinking about that changes now, sooner or later, in the future, it will be back to this again. Truth is, I'm really tired of having to worry about how you feel. Tired of being blame when it isn't really my fault.
I tried. I tried to let you see. But I'm really tired of having to do it again and again. Being accuse again and again. Do you even know that?