Isolation

I can't help wishing
That there's a place I can go to
To just be away.
Perhaps to really isolate myself from everyone.

Off my handphone...
Not online in msn, skype, facebook...
Not checking my email...
Away from everyone...

Literally away.
In both the virtual and real world.
MIA for a period of time.




But I know,
It is practically impossible.










I wish,
That I can stop myself
From being bothered
From being affected
By the things happening
By the people around me

But is it possible?








Can someone explain to me
Why am I still so affected
When the person who started
Don't give it a damn?

Guardian Outing

ok... a rather outdated outing write-up due to e fact tt blogger been in crazy mode n doesn't let me upload my pic -.-

Finally a meet up wid Guardian peeps ^^ on 2nd July 09... almost 1yr since we last meet up!!! gosh! Selvi, Siti, Erny, Da and me!! missin Aisah though :(

Had dinner @ Pizza Hut. Shown dem my aust trip photos while w8in for Erny to arrive... Catch with everyone... n had plenty of laughters and jokes and teasing ard ^^

Send Selvi off to her bf, while the rest of us cont to slack ard Orchard/Somerset... When to Orchard Central to check it out... And had photo shoots session @ lvl 7... haha... cuz no1 ard...


Check out the toilet cuz da keep tellin me how cool the toilet is... n yea... it's rather cool... haha... Another camwhorin session... *expected wen the camera(s) in Erny's hands!!! :P*

Can't w8 for the next meet up wid dem... hopefully, tis time Aisah can join us...

Hanging out with them makes me recall of the great time at Guardian... I truly miss those time... The laughter, the chat, the endless stock-takin... Indeed, those were the great times we shared. Thanks for being my dearest colleagues at Guardian, making my time there an enjoyable one. It will never ever be the same without you gals. *not forgetting to mention, if not for Da, i won't get to work @ Guardian in e 1st place ^^*

Friendship?

Yes, blame everything on me... Finally you get the picture, and finally I seen your true side...

Get thing clear that I'm the one choosing to leave? I seriously wonder, who is suppose to be the one getting things clear... So be it, since you want to put the blame on me for ending it... Never once did I mention about ending, never once I said about giving up...

Forgotten what I say before? Never once did I say forever, because I have no longer believe in forever... I kept my words about being there for you... I know I did... I meant what I say and given such thing, I'll never lie about it...

I remember the things being done... But are you?

Thanks for reminding me, about how delicate trust and faith can be...

You're making me regret. Regret not the path I decided to choose now. But regretted on the action I had made nine months ago!

You're upset. Ain't I the same, having to read those stuff in your blog again and again. Clarify with you again and again. If I seriously don't see you one of the more important people in my life, would I really be bother AND affected by how you feel and think? Are you really cherishing, as you proclaim?


Each time trust/faith is being tested on, it's either pass the test and get stronger... or it just fail and get destroyed...



Get this straight. I don't see the point of avoiding you. Because it serve no purpose. If you intend to continue to think that way, so be it. Because I know, even if your thinking about that changes now, sooner or later, in the future, it will be back to this again. Truth is, I'm really tired of having to worry about how you feel. Tired of being blame when it isn't really my fault.

I tried. I tried to let you see. But I'm really tired of having to do it again and again. Being accuse again and again. Do you even know that?

Space

Sometime, I just choose to MIA from the virtual world... Cutting myself away from everyone online... In a way, I need some personal space and time... To clear my thoughts, my emotions... To sort out things within myself... To put it another way, I just want to escape from 'reality in the virtual world'...

Peeps like mh, puii, jenson, btp have all know and witness and even experience my MIA period... especially mh, puii and jenson... They are the people that I had MIA on, early last year...


With advanced technology, indeed spaces are getting smaller... Msn, FB, blog, etc... All ways to connect and contact... It does make life easy in a way, but at the same time, it also affect life as easy as well...

Sharing of thoughts and feelings over blog, FB status, MSN nick, etc... Anyone can just read it... Perhaps, the targeted person may not be named... But sometime, it's that easy to tell...

I'm tired of having to read negative things about me, when I didn't even do that in the first place... Accuse me once... I shall just put it aside... Accuse me again, I shall have a nice talk with you first... But accuse me again, thrice or more, rest assure, even if it's untrue, I'll make sure it come true... JUST FOR YOU!


Why prove these peoplw wrong ain't it? Waste of effort and time... Why fight against it? I shall just go with the flow.

Unhappy about it? Well, you accuse me first!




aah~ Do you know how piss off I am with you? Don't tell me one thing and end up saying something else in your blog or anything... Avoiding you? HAH! why do I even need to do that? Be it whatever you want to think about me or anything else... How many times have you say that I'm treating you as less importance? Seriously, I'm suffocated!! Nearly once that I want to leave this friendship aside, but the accusation from you is forcing me to do so! Even if I didn't treat you less important previously, trust me on this that aft what have been mention in your blog, I would seriously want to think thrice about how important I want to treat you, because it's not even appreciated and even not being acknowledge!


to be it simply, I have enough of that kind of nonsense!

Movie: District 9

Watch District 9 wid deardear @ AMKhub 2day...

a movie tt deardear thot i won't wanna watch... i dun deny tt... wen i saw e poster i'm totally not interested @ all... aft all it's like science-fric like tt... bt aft watchin e trailer, gt interested in it... haha

a gd movie... just that I dun like e way e scene jump here n dere... a lil confusin sometime... e movie is like a documentary like tt sia... it feel so real!!

interestin how e story progress...


Glad I had decided to watch tis... worth watchin ^^



sometime, we thot wad we're dng is rite... tt we noe wad exactly we're dng... bt e truth is, dere's thing tt we didn't noe or realise... tt things are different frm how it really is...

Study Break...

Cleared all project n assignments last fri... now officially study break for exam...

Really thankful for the help given by Felicia and Edith... stayin up wid me to chiong assignment... last week was practically a u-help me-here-and-there, I-help-u-here-and-there time... haha... fel like keep spammin me wid her ppt to ask how to improve her ppt~ spam me for dunno how many days :P

Exam in less than 2 weeks time... n tt will b e last time we'll ever do things as a class...


2.5yr... n it just past like nobody business... it's seem that we just enter NYP for orientation... in a blink, we're each gng our way... IAP, FYP n repeated modules...


All the best everyone... For exams!

Movie: Overheard

Watch Overheard wid Deardear @ AMKhub just now...

worth watchin...



sometime, a lie just lead to a bigger lie... wen one lie starts... it's hard to end... it just cont to snow ball... desperation can drive a person to do something he would not do... just because he see no way out of the situation he is in...

we may be able to hide behind the lie... but sooner or later, we'll have to pay for the consequences...

Movie: Where Got Ghost

Caught Where Got Ghost wid deardear @ vivo just now...

3 story, 1 show... somehow remind me of 4bia...

had qutie a few laugh... bt other den tt, it isn't really a gd movie actually... e storyline is kinda boring... too animated scenes...


anyway... i dun really recommend tis movie...

Song: 1, 2, 3, 4

1 2, 1 2 3 4-
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
[ 1,2,3,4 lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends-
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best I that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

MFGG gangshow '09

One year plus... That's how long since the last time I stepped into MFSS... No thanks to some stuff that happened...

Seriously, it's so hard to please Edith, you know? She been trying to psycho me to go since the confirmation of the campfire. I kept telling her that I won't be going as I have plans on that day le, after she informed me that the gangshow is postpone to 1st August. Not lying anyway. I did have plans on that day. But in actual fact, I had decided to go. The only person who know about that is Felicia. In a way she's the one that manage talk me through and psycho me to go la.

Went to the canteen to check with the juniors where are the rest. Then went to guides' room to help them with moving of the brick to the hall. And that's when that Edith blurt out: Eh Jie, why you here?! =.= talk about giving her a surprise. sheesh~

And that's when I started to get busy. Having to attend event and stuff cause of my current cca, StageArts, I ended up helping them with backstage, lightings and sounds as well as projection thingy.

First thing that I did was helping them with taping down the wire for the spotlight. Then help to calm Samathan down as she having stage fright. Glad to manage to calm her down. Then went to backstage to help Joey with settling of which lights to use for which sectment of the gangshow. And then I'm practically stuck there after that, as Joey had asked for my help.

To be frank, it's a whole different experience I have for a campfire/gangshow. Afterall, how many people will get to work backstage for a campfire/gangshow, especially since you're an alumni.

Being stage manager during SA event help me. And in a way, I shared those experience and knowledge with them yesterday. Joey, Xiao Wei, Samathan and Cheryl. Those who were at the backstage. Things can get a little chaotic. But as long as you're keeping check of what you have to do, things will run smoothly. Having those experience, in a way, aids me to help assuring them and enable them to be less stress during the event.

I didn't have much time to really enjoy the event with my fellow alumni. However, it has became something memorable for me. The different attitude in this batch of girls compared to the previous ones.

You girls may have little manpower. Remember, quality still override quatity. Do a good job in maintaining and improving guides. Sooner or later, people will see that MFGG is better than what they expected. I have faith in you girls.

I guess, in a way, going back for the gangshow last night have renew my passion for guides, especially for MFGG.

Communication

I just don't understand, why is it so hard to just to communicate with you! I seriously have enough, yet I can't just wash my hands off everything, no matter how many times I wished I did.

Just a simple phrase, yet you can keep telling me that I say likewise before.

I'm tired. Do you know that? I'm tired of having to carry YOUR responsibility on MY shoulder just because you're away for attachment.

Stop being hypocrite about how grateful/thankful/glad that I'm helping you. Because I'm totally unwilling to do so! Get that in you!

Who is the one putting in more effort, I believe everyone can see it. Who is the more reliable one, I believe they know it. Who is the one that do followup and making effort for the department, I believe they can tell.

I'm just really tired of trying to communicate with you. Since you been using the excuse that you're busy with attachment and FYP, then let me give you a warning. Don't be shock when I'm not going to help you anymore when mid-August is here, when you're back in school. For that time, you have no excuse of having to stay away anymore.

You ain't the only person having attachment. Yet why do I feel that you seem to have a 'privilege' for staying away from cca? Others having other commitments like attachments or work still tend to their department. Are you?



It's too late to change anything. But at least I know, I'm trying my best to do what is best for the department. Come mid-August, everything will be back to you. And when things get screwed up after that, I no longer going take anymore responsibility to clear up the mess. You are the head. I'm been handling your responsibility for the department for too long. Afterall, I'm nothing more than just an Assistant Head.

random ramble...

I guess, things ain't going well for quite a lot of peopl, including me...

Emotion roller coastal that seem to be kept gng down and down and down... perhaps... should say it's a emotional free fall??


Looking @ my UP globe... can't help wishing that I can just fly to somewhere, leaving all this unhappiness behind... for e time being @ least...


deadline drawing near... n i think, this time it's serious DEAD-line...

dreading sch more n more... not just because of the heaps of deadline and the drawing-nearer-and-nearer examinations... but also cca responsibility, which I just can't seem to escape from...

cca, it used to be something I'm looking forward to... but because of the way things had turned out, I'm starting to dread it...sometime, i really wish i can just shoot back that I'm just an assistant head... but precisely I'm e assistant head, i have to assist my head, who is currently away for attachment... I'm looking forward to e production, yet @ e same time, I just wish i dun have e responsibility to b e 1 i/c once again... how many times, have I been i/c... How many times, do I hafve to be the one to do everything??


work, my method of escaping from reality... doesn't seem to work anymore... not since xp left the place... I'm ok with working with L... I just can't stand working with I and R... to the point, I'm choosin to work over the weekend... to the point I'm relieve that i don't have to work with R totally for Thurs n next week...


things ain't going well, but I just hope that it's not going to get worse...


Temper isn't good... And people are me are becoming victims to my temper... Especially deardear, victim to my anger and short temper...


Thanks peeps, for the concern shown. But I guess, for now I need to be alone.

Future path

Mom asked me this qns last nite: After grad wad you wanna do ar?
my reply: *shrug*



was kinda shock by her reply when she actually ask me go study early childhood... work in e day, study @ nite...


sheesh~ if she didn't stop me frm studyin early childhood 3yrs ago hor~ it would haf been just nice to step into tt field next yr~~


startin pay 1.6K... hmmm...


givin a serious thot, wad i'm studyin is not exactly wad i wanna do in e future... n i noe, i'm not just e onli 1... my clsmate & da... a diff plan for e future...


time tickin away... have to really tink abt e future path soon~

Movie Marathon: Cars, Ratouille, UP

The Disney/Pixar Movie Marathon worth 2 thumbs up ^^

Marathon start time: 4pm
Marathon end time: 10pm
2 breaks in between... 15 min each...


1st movie marathon and i totally enjoyed it ^^ though i spent $29 on it @.@ in which only UP i haven't watch b4... but still... it's worth it ^^afterall, tt $29 include e popcorn set n stuff... so each movie ard $7-8...



anyway... About UP movie...
interestin concept... Like how the story build up at the start... touching... Tears at a few scene cuz really touchin... not forgettin to mention cuz of e heaps of laughter... worth watchin ^^ was not really wad i expect...

sometime, you tried so hard for someone, but all they wish is that you are able to live for yourself. Go on an adventure because of someone, be on the adventure for yourself.



had enjoyed myself watchin e other 2 movie as well... esp ratouille...

Movie: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Caught Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince twice... 1st wid Da @ amkhub during e 1st day of release... den wid deardear @ cineleisure during the followin Tue...

1st time round feel tt e movie wasn't bad. i guess, tryin to forget e story does help me to enjoy e movie more... though i dun deny, me n da haf been discussin on e missin impt scene frm e movies... n e variation dey haf made to e story for e movie... great disappointment @ e end, which me n da haf been anticipating for the battle between the order of phoenix & Dumbledore's Army VS the death eater... haix~ no such scene @ all :( *disappointment~*

2nd time, i just fall aslp wen harry n ginny was in e rm of requirement... slp til e part where e inferior tryin to drag harry down into water... cuz of e loud n sudden noise tt shock me up~ tt's how bored i was @ e movie @.@


despite not really likin e movie, bt i haf to say tt it was a gd movie... e storyflow n stuff is rather smooth compared to e previous 1/2 movie...
well... anyway, i'll still b w8in for e last installation... shall c how dey end e whole thing.

Outing wid BTP

Spend the whole day wid BTP ytd...

Meet @ Somerset, before proceedin to Cineleisure for our sushi buffet... Glad we went early so no need to queue... wakaka~ frm an empty to a fully packed... took neoprints aft tt...

Went to PS aft tt to get our craft stuff~ Glad to b able to find e stuff tt she want frm e shop @ PS... I gt myself the watermark ink n a blender pen as well... took e membership~ *gosh... dunno how many membership i sign up tis yr liao @.@* next to Daiso to get more craft stuff... hehe...

Came to my hse to do craft... mainly to try out e diff technic tt we seen in e vid... haf fun stampin n chalkin n embossin n *dunno wad else*

lookin forward to next sat movie marathon!! ^^



p.s. waitin for BTP to send me e photos

Story: The Seed

A successful business man was growing old and knew it was time to choose a successor to take over the business.

Instead of choosing one of his Directors or his children, he decided to do something different. He called all the young executives in his company together.

He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next CEO. I have decided to choose one of you. "The young executives were shocked, but the boss continued. "I am going to give each one of you a SEED today - one very special SEED. I want you to plant the seed, water it, and come back here one year from today with what you have grown from the seed I have given you. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next CEO."

One man, named Jim, was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly, told his wife the story. She helped him get a pot, soil and compost and he planted the seed. Everyday, he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other executives began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow...

Jim kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew.

Three weeks, four weeks, five weeks went by, still nothing.

By now, others were talking about their plants, but Jim didn't have a plant and he felt like a failure.

Six months went by -- still nothing in Jim's pot.. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing. Jim didn't say anything to his colleagues, however.. He just kept watering and fertilizing the soil - He so wanted the seed to grow.

A year finally went by and all the young executives of the company brought their plants to the CEO for inspection.

Jim told his wife that he wasn't going to take an empty pot. But she asked him to be honest about what happened. Jim felt sick to his stomach, it was going to be the most embarrassing moment of his life, but he knew his wife was right. He took his empty pot to the board room. When Jim arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other executives. They were beautiful -- in all shapes and sizes. Jim put his empty pot on the floor and many of his colleagues laughed, a few felt sorry for him!

When the CEO arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted his young executives. Jim just tried to hide in the back. "My, what great plants, trees, and flowers you have grown," said the CEO. "Today one of you will be appointed the next CEO!"

All of a sudden, the CEO spotted Jim at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered the Financial Director to bring him to the front..

Jim was terrified. He thought, "The CEO knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me fired!"

When Jim got to the front, the CEO asked him what had happened to his seed - Jim told him the story.

The CEO asked everyone to sit down except Jim. He looked at Jim, and then announced to the young executives, "Behold your next Chief Executive Officer! His name is Jim!" Jim couldn't believe it. Jim couldn't even grow his seed.

"How could he be the new CEO?" the others said.

Then the CEO said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone in this room a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today.. But I gave you all boiled seeds; they were dead - it was not possible for them to grow.

All of you, except Jim, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Jim was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new Chief Executive Officer!"

* If you plant honesty, you will reap trust
* If you plant goodness, you will reap friends
* If you plant humility, you will reap greatness
* If you plant perseverance, you will reap contentment
* If you plant consideration, you will reap perspective
* If you plant hard work, you will reap success
* If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation
* If you plant faith, you will reap a harvest

So, be careful what you plant now; it will determine what you will reap later.

"Whatever You Give To Life, Life Gives You Back".

My way of advising

If you want me to be a listening ear, then prepare to listen to my way of giving advices to you!


I don't denied being harsh. But that is because IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME THAT I HAD TO OFFER ADVICES FOR!!! The exact same issue!!!


Sorry to say, if it is the same exact freaking problem that you come to me every time, don't expect me to be empathic/sympathetic. You chosen not to heed the advices before, so why do I have to give pleasant advices or something that you want to hear?


Can't take my way of giving advices or my way of listening ear? Then don't approach me!


If you chosen not to heed my advices, don't come to me in the future with the same issue. If you do approach me, then prepare for a harsh session.


Damn it, I have enough!!!

P.S. Yes, I don't have pleasant words for you. But hey, look who approach who first? Don't ask me to get out when you're the one who approach me! damn it!

P.P.S. You are the one who approached me. If I really do have something against you, I won't bother to reply or listen to your whining. Wonder who is the one who have something against the other! If I wasn't having something against you before, I DO NOW!

Movie Marathon

i can't w8 for next sat disney/pixar movie marathon @ cineleisure wid BTP...

3 movie @ a go ^^ Ratouille, Cars n UP!!!!


hopefully i will b able to get my tix!!! *cross finger*


more info here ^^

Aunt Agony

can't help but wonder, if i became somewhat like aunt agony to certain people?

Movie: Ice Age 3 (3D)

watch Ice Age 3 (3D) wid deardear @ amkhub...


Ice Age 3 is more abt family and love? e 2 squirrels r so out-of-e-storyline...bt somehow, i love deir scene most... haha... esp e last scene!!! totally hilarious!


1st time watch 3D movie @ cathay... tink it's quite ok... really haf e 3D effect... nice~


may b findin Ice Age 2 to watch... i forget wad happen in Ice Age 2 totally!

The catch @ ECP

Went to ECP wid deardear aft movie... sat @ Bedok Jetty to enjoy e breeze and withness an amazin catch ^^
Yep yep... some1 caught a stingray!!!

overheard frm e malay uncles tt e stringray is pregnant? *shrug*



Anyway... sit ard @ Bedok Jetty til ard 915pm.. den go burger king to get a drink... lucky dere's a direct bus... bt still reach home rather late @ 1230mn @.@

Movie: Land of The Lost

watch Land of The Lost wid deardear @ vivo...



i seriously think that this is the worst comedy i ever watch -.- lucky i onli watch it cuz i wanna use my bday voucher... if not waste $$ on tis movie...

comedy... yet i hardly laugh... n tt's how bad it is, given how easily i laugh durin a movie -.-

basically, it's like an epic movie? not much of a gd storyline... bored bored bored bored bored!!!


deardear thot i'm not feelin well and stuff, cuz i'm like stonin throughout e movie.. bt it's actually cuz i'm ultra bored to death~


tis movie is totally not recommended!

Quantity VS Quality

Many things have happen for the past 1/2 yr. And with the things that have happen recently, in a way, I was once again being reminded of this post that I posted in another blog of mine. Slight edition to the post I made, after copying it over.

Quality is always more important that Quantity isn't it? What's the point of having to meet the quantity, if the quality isn't met? Doing of project... Handling of relationship... A lot of stuff are affected by quality, rather than quantity...

Recent encounters just make me realised on that... Relationship is not about quantity... Rather, it's about quality... What's the point of having such many friendships when most are just a very surface kind of friendships, not one that you can connect well with... It's not how long a relationship is... Rather, it's how deep the relationship is...

A friendship of years may crumple when obstacles are met...While a friendship of months still stay strong...

A friendship of years may vanish over time... While a friendship of months continue to grow stronger...

My besties are people who I've known for 6yrs, since 2003... However, I came to realise, despite we're a group of four, we are in actual fact, just two pairs of good friends coming together that's all... It feel like ever since graduation, we been drifting away from each other like nobody business... I can't blame anyone, because I too have a part to play for that... Each of us walking our own route, choosing our own path... Effort have to be made to maintain and strengthen the friendship... And I know clearly, I have not really put in my best effort to maintain and strengthen it... However, maintaining and strengthening, is not a job of just one or two, but a commitment of all in the clique, ain't it?

Another group of friends whom I had only gotten close to ard late 2007, are the people who I really confide in... So what if we know each other online? Our frienships blossom... Even though we had least expected it... However, obstacles will still surface, and it's really up to us, up to each individual, how the obstacles are being handled and overcome...

Another will be a really good friend who I had known only in Nov 08... Somehow, there is just this special chemistry between us, to 'trigger' this special friendship... We may have known each other less than a year... But what's important is how our friendship is... And in a way, she is the one who make me realise, relationship is not about how long it had last, but how deep it had been...

All that I wish is that, whatever relationship I have, it will be deeper than I know... Because, I know there been too much time that I was proven wrong when I thought my friendship with a certain someone is really strong...

And this lead me to understand another thing... Don't cry because it's over, Smile because it happened...

The things that happen, made me realise, and thus posting as my pm in msn: Learning to let go and move on is important. Be it the good or the bad past. I learning on how to let go and move on. Are you learning to do so?

Many times, we thought we have let go of the past and moved on. Yet, when a new obstacle surface, the past came to haunt us as well. Affecting how we interpret things, affecting how we view a situation, affecting how we handle the obstacle.



At times, I asked myself: what exactly does the duration of the friendship mean? does it mean that our friendship have last thus far? or is it just nothing more than a number?

I used to thought, the longer the friendship, mean how strong the friendship is. However, I have change my thinking. So what if our friendship have been years? The main thing is if the strength of the friendship have maintain/strengthen... or has it weaken? Weaken to the point that drifting apart doesn't seem to matter anymore? Weaken to the point that the far distance can't be 'sense' by any?


Why deceive ourselves and keep mentioning the length of the friendship? Indeed, the length still in a way matters. Imagine rejoice over a strong friendship that last over decade and more. Perhaps, that's when the lenght does matter.




People come and go. Be glad that they have once walked with us on our journey in life, rather than missing out totally. Appreciate and treasure each moment, for a moment lost is a moment that can never be gain back.




I'm glad, to have my love ones and my dear friends. Sharing with me moments of our lives. Laughing together, crying together. Being there for each other.


Secondth half of 2009 is starting. Before we realise, it'll be the end of 2009. Treasure, cherish and appreciate.

Anime: Kaleido Star

Just finish watch an anime: Kaleido Star...


had lots of fun over it... worth watchin ^^


http://www.anilinkz.com/kaleido-star/

A series of Unfortunate events?!

WHY MUST UNPLEASANT THINGS HAPPEN AT THE SAME TIME EVERYTIME!!! damn it!

i'm tired.
i'm really tired.
i really feel like giving up on everything that's on my mind now.


why is it that just when I thought things are going well.
reality want to prove me wrong?


i guess i had to be heartless.
afterall, it won't be fair to just let it be.
i just hope, this will be the last i have to experience this.


as for the other matter.
i seriously have no idea to continue or not.
i asked, i got the answer.
the thing is, what is my answer?



somehow
i just wish,
what happen on mon
just happen in the way that was expected
at least then
i won't be vexing over all these now.

Song: Can't Help Falling In Love With You

Can`t Help Falling In Love

(I just can't help falling in love with you)

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I say would it be a sin
(Be a sin)
If I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows (Oooh)
To the sea (Oooh)
So it goes
Some things are meant to be
Some things are meant to be

[CHORUS]
Take my hand (take my hand)
Take my whole life too (life too)
For I can't help falling in love with you

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I, I can't, I can't help Falling in love (falling in love) With you (with
you)

Like a river flows (Oooh)
To the sea (Oooh)
So it goes
Some things are meant to be
Some things are meant to be

[CHORUS x2]

Like a river flows
That's the way it goes
I just can't help fallin' in love with you
(Fallin' in love with you)
Like a river flows (yea yea)
That's the way it goes(cause I can't)
Fallin' in love with you
Like a river flows (I just can't help myself)
That's the way it goes
I can't help falling in love with you
(I can't help falling in love with you) [x2]

Fallin'in love with you

Song: Heartbreak Lullaby

(Heartbreak Lullaby) x2
In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be

And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there remiding me
How things could be

I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But every time I close my eyes
You're still inside my heart

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
but out of reach

And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind

I try to look the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But every time I'm close to you
I lose my self control

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby


Chorus version 2
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Give me just one good reason why
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby

Bday wishes Thanks

Thanks to Rina and the fellow KidzQuest volunteer who were present during the 30th May meetin for celebrating the bday of May and June babies ^^

Thanks to Mr Richard Khaw, Sushi Gang, Jerald and the three juniors for celebrating my bday on the last night (19th June) of our Sydney Study Trip at Pancake on The Rock cafe ^^ really memorable ^^

Thanks dad, mom, sis n bro for celebratin my bday @ home wid the chocolate mint cake on e actual day^^

Thanks everyone for the bday wishes ^^

phonecall: deardear ^^, mom, xiaoyi

sms: 2yi, wy, wendy, erny, bready, edith, isabelle, sock, da

skype: mh, jenson, puii

msn: btp, edith, miao, fasheng, stealth, andreas, felicia, isabelle

facebook: 3yi, wanfen, isaac, btp, mh, cally, khong jia yi, xue zhi, putri, saint, linda, lee mei, munyra, hui ni, pey lih, cindy soh, adelia, bready, eunice (FS), neil, yun rong, yulei, blur, shili, rasyidah, xin mun, ben chia, wanfen, sindhu, syafiq, hong jie, Ms Gan, yana

blog: deardear, miao, shipei, btp, mh, wy, 2yi, make_ends_meet,puii, shili, putri, vanessa, nicholas

friendster: isaac

face-to-face: xiaoyi, xavier, noelle, dad, mom, wy, xz

Movie: The Taking of Phelem 123

watch The Taking of Phelam123 @ amk hub wid deardear...


interestin storyline... bt dere's 1 thing tt i still dun understand... e thing abt e brube thingy... so did it happen or not?

anyway... how things are, each and every person haf deir own view... bad to some, may b gd to others...

often, we thot we knew how things may b... bt often than not, thing turn out differently, way differently than we expected...

Song: Gekkou

Gekkou - Bz

GEKKOU
Moonlight

Nemuri ni ochiteyuku sono yokogao
Musaboru youni mitsume
Mune no hibiki saterarenu youni
Aoku somaru heya wo nukedashita

Subete wo nusu mitai kasuka ni moreru iki made
Nano ni itsuka wa hanarete yuku to otoko wa sasayaiteru

Nani ka wo kitai suru koto de toki ni surechigau keredo
Mushin ni atae ai tsuzukeru koto wa
Yume no michibata ni saku hana no you da
Dare ni dekiru koto nano darou

Hitotsu no omoi dake wo tsuramekou to sureba suru hodo
Ai to wa hodo tooi chikara ni hageshiku yusaburareru

Nami no uneri no youna shoujiki na wagamama wo
Motto butsuketekure gomakashi wa shinai
Anata wo dakishime you

Togireta usui kumo ga me no mae wo mata yokogireba
Hisoka ni mo ooki na kesshin ga konya mo boyakete yuku

Yami no naka kara yawaraka ni tsuki wa terashi tsuzukeru
Sukoshi zutsu zure nagara mo tesaguri de yorisoi aruku kokoro wo

TRANSLATION

Your side profile while falling asleep
I'm watching with burning desire
The beating of the heart that seems to not understand
Coming out of the room dyed in blue light

I want to steal everything, right to the faint breathing that escape from you
Because someday we shall be parted, the man murmuring

While expecting something, we have passed by the time
But continuing to have this godsend innocent love
Is like a blooming flower on the sideway of a dream
It's not something that just anyone can do, right

Only one thought seems to be getting through
Love is the distant strength that is strongly swinging along

Just like the heaving motion of the waves, this selfish honesty
Please hit me more, there is no deception
I'm embracing you tightly

When fading broken clouds once again pass by my eyes
Tonight this secretive big decision has also become blurred

From the centre of darkness, the gentle moon keeps shining down
As there's a small gap, this fumbling heart is inching to lean closer

Song: Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Sora moyou nante ki ni mo naranai
Nani shiro kyou wa saikou ni hi sa

Negai wo komete sono hi wo fuki keshite goran yo
Atarashii hi ga mata hajimeru
Youi wa iikai

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday omedetou
Happy Birthday To You
(kyou wa saikou!)

Kono yo ni umare hade ni naita kara
tsukihi to tomo ni kimi wa suteki ni naru

Kanashimi ga aru nara issho ni fuki keshite miyou yo
Daijyoubu mou hitori jyanai
Youi wa iikai

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday arigatou
Aete yokatta yo

Rarara toki ga sugitemo
Rarara kyou wo wasurenai
Rarara toki ga sugitemo
Rarara zutto wasurenai

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday ometetou
Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday arigatou
Happy Birthday To You
(Kyou wa saikou)

TRANSLATION
I couldn't care less about the look of the sky
After all, today is an awesome day

Make a wish and go ahead and blow out the candles
A new day will begin again
Are you ready?

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday congratulations
Happy Birthday To You
(today is awesome!)

Born into this world; after you cry your eyes out
You become more amazing with each passing day

If you've got any sorrows, why don't you blow them out together (1)
It's all right, you're no longer alone
Are you ready?

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday Thank you
I'm happy to have met you

Lalala even if the time goes by
Lalala I won't forget today
Lalala even if the time goes by
Lalala I won't ever forget

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday congratulations
Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday Thank you
Happy Birthday To You
(today is awesome!)

Happy Birthday

deardear delicate tis song to me ^^

Bak in SG

Finally bak in SG!!!


Thanks for fetchin me @ e airport ^^ puii, jenson blur n jeff... though i noe it's bcuz of e donuts rather den bcuz of me -.-

BTP... thanks for fetchin me as well!! hope u like e present! actually dere's more to it... guess i gif it to u e next time we meet up? paiseh~ a lil bit not orientated @ airport sia~ @.@

Deardear, thanks for e dinner treat ^^ yummy!! hehe... sorry for havin to make u worry @.@

n of cuz dad, mom n bro~ hehe~ for fetchin my luggage home :P really lots of stuff, to e point i haf a hard time carry dem wen boardin e plane @.@



totally miss miss miss SG!! i'm like smilin to myself wen e plane touchdown la... haha... was rather worried abt havin to b quanrantine n stuff... *phew* lucky no need... haha..

guess i'm really adaptin to tunin in to e country timezone rather well? it's like freakin 2+am in SG n yet i'm still wide awake here -.- if i'm still in Aust, i'll oredi slept 2hr ago!!! *faint*

really miss e cool weather @ Aust... as i expected, e moment i step out of e plane n into changi airport, i oredi start to sweat... gosh~hopefully e weather dun get too hot? *cross fingers*

anyway, currently sortin and organisin my photos to upload into facebook... will upload here as well, aft i made in collage... lazy to upload e thousands of pic 1 by 1...



kk... guess i better go n zZz liao... shall leave my stuff layin ard for e nite 1st... tml den pack... no mood to pack rite now...


p.s. parents, esp mom, was shock by e num of plush toys i bot bak... hehe...

Last day @ Aust

Last day @ Aust le... currently alone in hotel... Guess e rest r enjoyin demselve @ Manly Beach~

choose not to join dem... 1) i wanna explore e area... 2) i wanna complete gettin e stuff on my shoppin list (presents for friends n family)... 3) feelin a lil unwell @.@


kinda glad tt i didn't join actually... cuz i completed my shoppin!! Woots!


was super amazed by myself by e stuff tt i bot, which oso includin how much i bot *nod nod* i shock myself... seriously... n not just tt... oso by e stuff i did... hehe...


currently left wid pathetically AUS$30+ -.-" glad i did bot some stuff for myself along e way... guess i spend too much @ e arcade @.@ oh ya... Aust oso haf those toys-catchin machines... n tt day nite while explorin wid frien... we went n play... n well~ u noe me... gt hook on it lor @.@ but i manage to caught i whole set of e stitch~~ woohoo!!

anyway... time for me to get gng... Cya wen i'm bak in SG ^^

flight detail:
Plane: SQ232
Terminal: 3
Time: 5-6pm



update:

caught more toys~

Another day @ Aust

Another day @ Aust ended...Another day closer to gng bak to SG

had a really early end to activities, thus sushi gang went out to explore by ourselves... i spent soo much 2nite!! cuz went to arcade @.@ caught 9 toys though!! hehe...

bot a bk as well... e 1st bk of e new series by stephenie meyer... hehe... hopefully SG gt bring in e series ^^

had a really fun nite ^^

Msn vid call wid family

a screenshot of my chat wid my family n relatives...
shld haf taken 1 earlier...
bt den onli rmb abt screenshot thingy wen gng to end e conv -.-

Just ended e vid call wid family n relatives... MISS THEM SO MUCH!!

sweet of 2yi to start tt vid call~ haha... havin so much laughter here @ my side... hehe... but kinda haf to laugh silently? cuz sock is slpin liao~

time check: 12+am @ my side... which is actually onli 10pm in SG...


wy ask if i'm had chat wid deardear so far aft i reach Aust... in fact, i been chattin wid him everynite since i reach... hehe...


really glad tt i bot my laptop along n manage to connect to e internet, thus enablin me to chat wid family n deardear... n oso for me to surf net... haha... *recall on how jerald show me usin my laptop to surf e net... e 1st thing tt he say is actually: "CIVILISATION!!" LOL!!*


Seriously... i can't w8 to go bak to SG... though i'm definitely not missin e weather in SG currently... i'm totally in love wid e cool weather in Sydney now!!



P.S. been havin icecream wid every1 for e past 3 nites before we end each day... yummy yummy ice cream~

Australia Study Trip

Sayin Hi frm Darling Harbour Holiday Inn, Sydney, Australia ^^ currently 5pm here in aust~ w8in for dinner...


weather is pretty ok here... really cooling... other den in e mornin or like haf strong wind, I didnt' wear my jacket... hehe... really nice~~ *go bak sg i jialat liao... gng to sweat like mad like tt time aft i came bak frm taiwan -.-*


hey da! a shoutout to u tt ur mission for me is TOO EASY!! haha... 1st day i oredi took lots of pic!! will show ya wen i'm bak!!

i can't believe it's onli day 2... totally energy drain somehow... TIRED!!



kinda lookin forward toward e day back to SG... missin my love one!!! lots n lots n lots... Lucky gt internet access... can blog n chat n stuff...


kinda glad tt i able to just tune to e Aust timezone easily... guess slpin on e plane help? i actually able to wake up @ 7 tis morn... which is 5am in SG!! hopefully i able to wake up for e 4+am de @.@


p.s. stuff here r ultra ex! zZz...

Movie: Drag me to hell

Watch Drag Me To Hell with deardear @ GVmax...

Ok~~ really horror... bt kinda like e end of story~~ too much element of surprise by e stupid loud loud noise...

deardear even jump out of his seat... *bt he blamin tt my reaction too big =.=" which in turn freaks him out*


nice storyline... really really interestin...



Recommended to watch!!



tis gng to b e last time i ever gng to do is to blog wen deardear is ard me!!! -.- he keep correctly my language ARGH!! n nag n nag n nag until i do his way -.-

Day out wid Da n Stomp peeps

Went out wid Da in the day and had fun wid stomp peeps @ pitstop in e nite...


went to haf lunch @ amk central, before gettin out of AMK... Had originally decided to go Suntec as Da wanna get her jigsaw frame... change of mind n decided to go to orchard instead to play pool... so we went to bishan so i can get my tix for tml movie...

took e circle line down to serangoon and change to NE line to douby ghaut... plan to alight @ douby ghaut n walk over to orchard... in e end, on e train we decided to go Suntec for the PC show... i wana check out if there is any mickey mouse MP3 on sale dere...

alight @ douby ghaut n walk ard PS for a while... bot Anderson Ice Cream to eat.. hehe... YUMMY!! walk ard a lil more b4 makin our way to Suntec... long long chat while walkin dere ^^

keep a look out for mickey mouse mp3... bt seem to b really not on sale :( haix~ check out lvl 6 n 1 of e mp3 caught my eye... ended up gettin a samsung mp3 YP-Q2, as Da highly recommend samsung mp3... S$229~~ @.@ 8GB, up to 50hrs playback time... just nice for me durin e aust trip... hehe :P ok... kinda upset by how much $$ fly away... bt console myself by tellin myself tt it's a bday present i'm givin myself... hehe *haiz~~ wad an EXPENSIVE PRESENT!!!!*

walk wid Da to cityhall mrt, b4 i make my way over to clark quay to meet puii... stop over @ Challenger to check out memory card, bt decided not to get it... *glad i didn't... if not pocket ultra big hole -.-"*

suppose to meet puii, end up jenson n bready reach earlier den her... wen over to yoshinoya for dem to get deir dinner... i kop bready's iphone to play~ wakaka... den zy, mh, sh n casa came... miss casa lots! haven seen him for such a long time...

a lil chit chat, and wad casa told us kinda surprise every1... lol... n funny how we left mh n sh @ yoshinoya while we 'escape' out of yoshinoya... hehe *dey sat diff table frm us...*

finally made our way to pitstop... ygz n cally is oredi dere... split into 2 grps as dere's 12 ppl... nich n his gf join us much ltr...

play games like jurassic jumble *my favourit*, imaginiff, some queen thingy game~ n oso cash n gun... spend onli 2hrs @ pitstop... NOT ENUFF!!!


had a great time hangin out wid e peeps 2day~ n oso cuz of gettin tt mp3.. hehe...

another day in SG... b4 i'm gng to Sydney, Aust for 1 week for e study trip... will b gng for movie wid deardear in e mornin, bak home to wash up n check luggage for 1 last time den make my way to e airport @ nite for dinner...

hopefully, gt e time n energy to update my blog while i'm @ aust ^^




p.s. y do i feel tt e ppl ard me make it sound like i'm out of SG forever ar?! =.="

p.p.s. took e circle line home 2day... super fast...reach home in 30 min... took frm clark quay to serangoon den change to circle line to bishan den to NS line to AMK...

Bella's Diary

For twilight series lovers!!

happen to come across tis site... rather interestin... e life of bella aft breakin dawn... check it out n read it... ^^


http://www.bellasdiary.com

900th post

900th Posts!! woohoo~ another 100 to hit 1k!!!


seem tt for most of e posts r abt movies or song... as well as outin wid love ones...


started to open up more, express more of my emotion in e blog... kinda gd in a way i guess... n oso blog some post in an 'abstract' way? lol


lot of stuff happen durin this 100 posts, even though it's not even four months since my last 100th post... There are stuff that i wish tt haf nvr happen, while dere's stuff tt i'm came to realise was in a way a blessin in disguise...


Bloggin have became a habit of mine... a habit tt let me reflect n think abt e stuff tt happen... a habit tt let me express myself more...

i guess... it isn't a bad habit huh?

Australia Study Trip

Another 5 more days to go...
Luggage yet to be pack...
Somehow, just can't seem to get into e mood to pack it?


Back on 20th June...
Ard 5+,6pm?
mom dey all were sayin how come i dun come bak on 21st -.-
den same day wid my other relatives~~
tell me to go home myself!! walau!


Grandparents n xiao yi so sweet to gif me allowance to spend dere ^^
Shoppin shoppin shoppin!!!

Movie: Monsters VS Aliens

watch Monsters VS Aliens with deardear @ SDC...


somehow, i feel tt e storyline isn't really nice... not much of a climax n stuff...
bt e monsters are cute!! n e clonin process is kinda cute... haha... photocopyin e alien!!



Sometime, the people whom we rely on, dependent on... Disappoint us durin times of need... Pushin the blame, when no1 is to be blame @ all... However, it's through these time that you will learn, who are the ones who can truly be rely and dependent on... Who are the ones that can really be trusted...

七个对不起，让你懂得什么是爱

Heard tis story over 100.3 a few weeks ago... n MH happen to email e same story to me...

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
—— “对不起”的快乐 。



大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。

那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。



渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。

那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。


“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。

对不起，我想我是真的累了。”


男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。

女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。


那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......



看了有什麽感觸嗎?
心疼?
傷心?

Napfa Test...

Recieved email frm my mentor regardin the Napfa test tt we suppose to take in yr 3...

Check e attachment... n realise my name was not in dere... so doesn't tt mean i'm excuse frm Napfa totally? or just tt......


*shrug* hopefully it does mean tt i'm dun haf to take Napfa @ all~

it's e thing tt i dread since i noe of it aft e O lvl :(

Movie: Dance, Subaru

Watch Dance, Subaru wid BTP @ cine...


A great show... was touched by a lot of parts... didn't really expect those actually... wad impress me is how the lady boss n subaru is...

enjoyed e movie totally~ esp e scene tt subaru challenge e dancer tt 1... interestin msgs tt were bein brought out durin e movie...

worth watchin ^^

Jokes

Some jokes to share~ sent to b tru email by Mun...
Memoirs of IMH... I love e last joke most... haha


Record I
Patient A: "So how.. this book not bad ya?"
Patient B: "Excellent! Astounding work. No nonsense shit, sharp and concise to the point. But there's a major flaw in this piece of art -> too many character names to remember!!!"
Nurse: "Hey! Can the two of you..put the telephone book back to the original place?"

Record II
One doctor asked a patient: "If I were to cut one of your ear off, what will happen to you?"

Patient: "Then I will not be able to hear..."
Doctor: "Hmm.. that's normal...So if I were to cut your other ear off, what will happen to you?"

Patient: "Then I will not be able to see..."
The doctor became nervous and asked: "Why would you not see then???"

Patient: "Because my spectacles will drop down..."

Record III
IMH has an old lady who wears black everyday, carries a black umbrella and squats @ the entrance to the IMH everyday without fail, rain or shine.

The doctor wanted to administer treatment for her and decided to start by understanding her behaviour.

So, the doctor also wear black and carries a black umbrella; squatted outside together just next to her, rain or shine, everyday without fail.

So...days goes by...the two of them squatted side-by-side w/o a single exchange of words..for one solid month...

One fine day..the old lady finally broke the silence and asked the doctor: "Err...Excuse me! Are you also a mushroom?"

Record IV
A nurse saw a patient writing a letter. She got curious and went to take a peek. But the patient didn't wanna let her see.

Nurse (unable to contain her curiosity): "Who are you writing to?"

Patient : "I'm writing a letter to myself..."

Her curiosity grew and she thought to herself (Why would someone write a letter to himself?)
So she asked again: "So...what's written inside?"

Patient (got impatient): "You crazy ah? I haven't receive the letter, how would I know??"

Record V
Two patients escape from the IMH. They climbed up a tree and one of them fell from the tree and started rolling on the ground.

After a while, the patient rolling shouted to the top: "Hey! How come you are not coming down yet?"

The patient ontop replied: "No..no...I can't...I'm not ripe yet"

Record VI
One patient visited the doctor: "Doc...how? I think I'm a chicken since I was born..."
Doctor: "Woah! that's very serious...Why do you only come and seek treatment now?"
Patient: "Because my family needs me to hatch the eggs..."

Record VII
One truck driver was doing his usual delivery to IMH.
He discovered a flat tyre when he was about to go home after unloading the stuff.
He jacked up the truck and took the flat tyre down.
When he was about to fix on the new tyre, he accidentally dropped all the bolts into the drain.
The truck driver was very sad as he can't fished the bolts up; started to panick.

Coincidentally, one patient walk past and asked the driver what happened.
The driver thought to himself, since there's nothing much he can do, he told the patient the whole incident.

The patient nonchantly replied: "can't even fix such a simple problem...no wonder you are destined to be a truck driver..." he goes on explaining: "You just have to take one bolt each from the other 3 tyres and fix it onto this tyre. Drive to the nearest workshop and replace the missing ones"

The driver was very impressed and asked "You're so smart but why do you stay in IMH?"

Patient replied: "I stay here because I'm crazy not STUPID!"

Deadline

3 events... and each time it just got more annoying to collate the attendance list... ARGH!


seriously, I feel like just hack care about everything. Why bother, especially since i'm not even going for the upcoming camp. just because i'm the assist head, so i have to do whatever my head throwing to me to do?! ARGH!

And guess wad, she don't even inform me herself that i have to contact e juniors, collating e attendance... I KNOW IT THROUGH A JUNIOR! SOMEMORE FROM ANOTHER DEPARTMENT! wth


Why should I even put in that much effort when I don't even get recognise for it?



So what if you're having attachment? Business don't just go to those having attachment mind you!



CCA used to be a source of enjoyment... But now it seem that it just making me more pissed off because of the thing i have to do just because the head is away for attachment. ARGH!

Stuff to do~

Sch holiday r here for my lil cousins... n here i m... still have 2 more weeks of lesson to go :(

quite a few stuff due as week 8 draw nearer... n realise i seriously need to keep track... decided to blog it out... while @ e same time use it as a chance to update my blog... wakaka...


CS ICA...
presentation on a company...
slide r yet to b done... bt settle on e company i wanna present on le...

Fd business presentation... (done ^^)
though i'm not e 1 presentin... bt need to submit my part of presentation as well...

Fd chem report (done ^^)...
fri no lab... so haf to complete b4 fri, since fri is a no sch day for me...

Pack my stuff for e aust study trip...
can't believe i'm flyin off in 2 weeks time!! it's like, it had seem to be eons away, suddenly onli left wid 2 weeks... seriously haf to start packin, if not won't haf time to get ready...

Fd processin E-journal...
due on my bday... sheesh~ of all days... sian!! bt haf to complete it b4 i fly, if not won't haf time to work on it wen i'm back..

FTT... [done :( ]
finally FTT is here... hopefully i pass like on my first try like how i did for my basic theory trial test, BTT n final theory trial test ^^

Aust study trip briefin (done ^^)
Briefin on wed... sian... dun haf to go bak to sch de... den cuz of tis briefin haf to go bak :(



anyway... guess tt's all for e stuff i haf to do for tis week... will post up another entry abt wad i plan to do tis june... A special month ^^