Book: The Alchemist

Finished a book that Mom passed to me... The Alchemist... Really interesting book, which I can't really put down aft started reading... And it's been quite some time since that happen to me...

Soul of the World... Language of the World... Personal Legends... Signs...

In the book, it mention abt the 4 obstacles that each and everyone of us faced when pursuing our dreams/personal legends...

1. Lack of courage:
   Growing up with the thought that dream are impossible, slowly dreams will get buried and stayed buried deep in our soul that it became invisible, despite it being there.
   
   
2. Love:
   Having courage to pursue our dreams is not enough as we will be afraid to hurt our love ones when we put down everything to pursue our dream. Only when we realise that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey, then we're able to take another step closer to pursuing our dreams.
   
   
3. Fear of failures:
   Facing setbacks, having nothing to fall back on as we have staked everything to set on this journey of pursuing our dream, what we can do is to fall seven times and to get up eight times, don't we?
   
   
4. Fear of realizing the dream:
   We may be near to fulfilling our dream, yet, the guilt of having to achieve the dream when others didn't, may push us back. Back to the start, where the courage to pursue the dream isn't there. Feel that we do not deserve to achieve. Forgotten about the obstacles that were overcome, the sufferings that were endured, the things that were given up, the effort that was put in. And never reach the goal, when it's only a step away.

A boy, having e same dream for numerous nights, decided to have it analysis when he reach the next town. Having to meet a man, who encourage and urge him to set on the journey of pursuing his dream, he give up on his possession and set on the journey. The journey wasn't smooth, and thoughts of giving up cross his mind. However, each time, he observe signs which encourage him to carry on the journey. On his journey, he met his love and had wanted to forgo his journey to stay with her. However, his love encourage him to carry on, because she'll wait for him. And once again, he set off on his journey.

Throughout this journey, he seen more stuff that he expected, learning more than he thought he will. Learned to read the signs, learn to speak in the Language of the World. Doing his best to reach his personal legend.



When I had finished reading the book, somehow, the part about signs left me thinking... I recalled an incident that had happen almost a year ago while I was doing closing at Guardian... That day, I broke something that means a lot to me. I tried hard to find, but just couldn't find it. However, when my colleague help me to search for it, she found it immediately. That night, she told me this as well: "If it meant to be yours, it'll come back to you. Don't have to worry"

Another incident happen pretty close to that time... And if not for someone's encouragement, I believe, it would have been long over and lost...


Now that I recalled on that incident... I realise, both incident, it was because of someone else being there, helping me, encouraging me, that some stuff wasn't lost... Is it signs telling me that I can't handle stuff alone? That someone else have to be there to be there for me, to guide me, to encourage me, to help me... Only then, it would stay with me? or maybe, I wonder if I had been holding to certain stuff to tightly? Perhaps, it isn't really meant to be mine? Perhaps, I have to brace myself with the possibility of having to lose it forever?



Right now, I recalled on another incident... It was the day that I will know my test/exam result... I was walkin to the busstop and was lookin up into e sky when I saw a new moon... At that moment, this thought crossed my mind: "Is the moon smiling at me, ensuring me that my result isn't really as bad as I thought... Or is it laughing at me for not getting a good result?" When I check my result... Somehow, it's both way... I didn't fail when I thought I will... And I didn't score for the those I thought I would...



Kinda interesting when you observe what's happening around you...Though I know, most probably, in your opinion, I'm just thinking too much...

Application: SnowDays

ok~ so there isn't any real snow in Singapore... so let's play wid virtual 1 ^^

had fun creatin my own snowflake~ hehe... enjoy creatin urs as well!

To look @ e flakes tt I done... Go to search flake... den key in " Jie Ying" & "Singapore"... You'll be able to view those tt I had created ^^

School Holiday

Almost 2 weeks gng to pass since e last time I post what I'm gng to do durin my holiday...

Busy but fulfillin for these 2 weeks... And it's finally mine to spend since end of exam~ afterall... I did enjoy e freedom frm sch after the exams... but that Saturday and the whole week after that was totally occupied by CCA production (as well as work actuall)!!! Therefore~ i'm ultra glad for these 2 weeks ^^

Anyway... this is what had/gng to happen durin these 2 weeks...

14th (Mon): Craft shoppin with Btp... Then movie with Fel @ Causeway point...
15th (Tues): Deardear came over before his movie... Then I went for my one and only Auto Vehicle pract lesson...
16th (Wed): Had two driving lessons
17th (Thurs): Chip's & Dale's Exploration Trip part 1!!
18th (Fri): Had two driving lessons... Then work from 6 til closing
19th (Sat): Working 4 til closing
20th (Sun): Sleep in til aftnn~ hehe... den Film & Video class at night

21st (Mon): Meet with Deardear... Dinner with family @ Waraku... Den walk ard wid Deardear @ suntec...
22nd (Tues): Had two driving lessons and cleared my Stage 3!! then workin from 6 til closing...
23th (Wed): Spend e whole day catchin e rest of my drama... Dinner wid mom n bro @ KFC...
24th (Thurs): Cleared my wardrobe (FINALLY!) then off to work from 4 til closing...
25th (Fri): Craftin wid Fel... Then ice cream buffet wid Da, Edith n Fel @ Ion Swensen...
26th (Sat): TGSTH 10K Hunt @ vivo in e mornin wid Fel... HongJie's 21st bday celebration @ nite...
27th (Sun): Food Chase wid Fel @ DTE @ 2pm... Mid Autumn Festival @ Buddist Society



tt's wad happen... onli 1 day tt is totally free~ anyway... below is schedule for the next week~

28th (Mon): Working frm 5 til closing
29th (Tues): Dinner & Pitstop with Pitstompers
30th (Wed): Workin frm 4 til closin
1st (Thurs): Meetin up wid DearDear
2nd (Fri): Currently nth on~
3rd (Sat): Wrokin frm 6 til closin
4th (Sun): Workin frm 10 til 5... Film & Video class @ night



hopefully... can pack my rm on mon n fri~ totally messy~~ so proud of myself for clearin up my wardrobe 2day... hehe... super duper neat now ^^


hopefully, tml ltr craft session is rewardin... in e sense tt I'm able to sell my cards off @ my blogshop... gng to discuss blogshop stuff wid Fel as well...

3 weeks of holiday gone... which mean 3 more weeks to enjoy only!!!!! I don't want sch to reopen so soon :(

Drama Series: You're My Destiny

Just finished watch You're My Destiny... Thanks Da for lendin of DVD ^^

I rmb tt time tt i wasn't interested @ e show... but somehow... I gt interested in it aft catchin 1 episode...

Love e show~~ Sweet~~~~ Love the ending ^^


Somehow, the original personality of the lead gal left me tinkin lots... She's being called by the ppl ard her as 'Post-It-Note girl'... Because when she is needed, people will look for her... But when she not, she'll be neglect and left one side... Helping people with practically everything, even things that are not in her work scope or at her disadvantage... Taken for granted by the people around her...

Agreed to do for hope to get into the good books of others, for the fear of offending others...


In one of the scene, this was mention:

People love working with "Post-It-Note people", but no one will be willing to be a "Post-It-Note person"...

Indeed, who would really like to be taken granted by others... Helping others w/o bein appreciated... Give twice the effort, received half the reward...




It's not easy to put the past behind... It's even harder to change your character... Sometime, we thought we have put the past behind... Sometime, we thought we have moved on... But have we?

Been there done that... Thought to have put some stuff behind me... Only to realise that all I have done is to pretend that it's not there, until it caught up with me...

Somehow, it made me recall on something that I had confide to a friend of mine. He was telling me of times when we just know each other, how I had help him, stand up for him, giving him support when needed... At that time, all that came to my mind was: Who have I becoming to? Because at that point of time, I no longer see that side of me in myself. I broke down, when his reply to what I had said was that I didn't change, I just thought that I change, because he still see that side in me.


Isn't this what happen to her as well? She thought she moved on, she thought she change... But the fact remain that how she is at that point of time, is nothing more than just a mask that she hide behind to escape from the self that she want put behind, that she want to forget. But are things that easily forgotten? Years may go by... But it's still there as it had happen...



While you change over time, you have actually keep part of the old you in you... Because, that's what make you You!

Year 3 S1 result

Finally gotten e result for exam... somehow... This is the first time I'm so anxious to get my result... perhaps it's because of e repeated module bah?

Passed all... I know the result isn't good at all...

Next sem here I come!

Video: 母狗被撞身亡 公狗不離不棄守護身旁

Song: Don't Say The Word Goodbye

SAYONARA NANKA WA IWASENAI
Don't Say The Word Goodbye

(1) Sayonara nan kawa iwasenai
Bokura wa mata kanarazu aeru kara
Kagayaku jikan wo wake atta
Ano hi wo mune ni kyou mo ikiteiru

Shiokaze wa tsuyoku boku no hoho wo nadete iru
Kimi wo kokyou ni okuru fune ga mou tsuku koro

Sonna ni tooku ni yuku wake janai noni, baka da yo ne
Wakareru koto ga tada kanashii koto ni shika omoenai kara, miokurenai

Repeat (1)

Mokuteki mo yume mo ayafuya na kurashidatta
Oya no sune wo kajiri nagara jikan dake ga atta

Kami wo kiranaide kono machi ni mou sukoshi nokutte miru yo
Ate mo nai kadode wo naki nagara iwatte kureta kimi ga itoshii

Repeat (1)
(2) Sayonara nanka wa iwanaide
Yowane wo hakunara saa kiite yaru
Mukashi no koto dake kagayaiteru
Sonna kurai mainichi wa sugoshitakunai

Repeat (1), (2)
Sayonara nan kawa iwasenai
Samishisou ni taiyou ga shindemo
Chiisana hoshi de aishiatta
Kimi wa ima mo kitto waratteiru

TRANSLATION

(1) Don't say the word goodbye
Because we shall meet again for sure
We have shared shining moment together
Till today it is still alive in my heart

Sea breeze is brushing my cheeks strongly
It is the arriving time for the ship that takes you back to hometown

There's no reason for you to go that far, are you not being a fool?
Because to me, parting has always been nothing but painful
Therefore I don't wanna see you off

Living a life with uncertain goal nor dreams
It is time to go back and stick around parents

Don't cut your hair, try staying a bit longer in this street
Looking so lovely while crying
You said these senseless things to me during departing

(2) I won't say the word goodbye
If you need to whine, I will listen
Things from the past are shining
I don't wanna live everydays like this

Don't say the word goodbye
Even if the seemingly lonely sun sink down
We have loved under the small stars
You are definitely smiling now for sure

Driving Stage 3

Weeeeee~~~ I CLEARED MY DRIVING PRACTICAL STAGE 3!!!!! which mean... I learn all e lesson already!!!!!


Now left 3 assessments to be done b4 TP... hopefully can cleared those 3 assessments in 3 lessons!!


And that will means CAR LICENSE HERE I COME!!!!! WOOHOO!!!

Driving...

Having to gone for 19 driving lessons... Never have I been as irritated and fedup as the last lesson I had... ARGH!

Out of that 2 hours of lesson... I seriously think that he didn't stop talking for 5min... And what he saying isn't really constructive! ARGH!!

Asking me inch forward just to see that the taxi driver is a female?! As me wind down e window to look @ e pictures at the side of the truck?! wth!

Ok la~ to be fair... @ least he taught me parallel parkin (which, according to him, is a bonus... cuz it suppose to be covered in e next lesson)

Oh... e most irritatin thing was that... He ask me if I did S-course before or not... And THAT WAS JUST AFTER I DONE THE S-COURSE AND CRANK-COURSE ONCE FOR HIM!!! Asking me if I learn this and that already WHEN IT ALREADY COVERED IN THE PREVIOUS SUBJECTS!!! =.=

Ok~ so he praise me for progressing fast... As I have only taken 19 lessons yet have already covered 28 subjects... But seriously, he don't have to repeat it like don't-know-how-many-times... And emphasis on how lagging and far-back if the number is opposite... Eg 28 lessons and only cover 19 subjects...


I want my usual instructors!!!! Hopefully that lesson is the first and the last that I'll ever get him as my instructor...

5 more subjects to go!!!

The Wizarding World of Harry Potter

AHHHHHH~ I WANT TO GO I WANT TO GO I WANT TO GO!!!!!!


ok... go where u ask? TO UNIVERSAL STUDIO ORLANDO!!!

They set up a new theme park!!! n the theme? THE WIZARDING WORLD OF HARRY POTTER!!! how cool can it get?! places like Hogwarts n Forbidden Forest and Hogmede! Get a taste of Butterbeer n hear e whistle of e Hogwarts Express!!!

AHHHH~~~~ I WANT GO!!!!


watch e vid that intro abt it here! *psst Da~ better watch wor... got ur favourite character as Special Guest~*

Driving...

Woohoo~~ Cleared stage 2 for my drivin pract ^^ 2 more stages to go~


had 2 lessons 2day... in which 1st lesson, learn abt 3-points turnin, S and Crank course n E brake! 2nd lesson review of all e subjects for stage 2...

Wee~~~ my instructor say my E brake is gd ^^ haha... ok~ 1st time did wrongly though... suppose to brake hard n clutch... bt i clutch n brake same time... den end up do another time, he say gd ^^ (psst~ left mark on e rd lor~ according to him... e yellow box gt e tires markin... lol) den did another 1 near the turnin... for tis 1, really can c e mark left...

Kinda scary... cuz he only signal wen ultra near to e car infront! of cuz i dun dare to speed la~ bt gt more confident aft e 2nd try ^^ Wen he show me e demo... it all happen so fast tt i can't catch anything, other than graspin on e fact tt if not for e seat belt, i would haf oredi been flung out of e car~ had to ask him demo 1 more time cuz it just way too fast~


Can't w8 for fri lesson~ cuz it will be learnin parkin!!! i seriously need to really rmb to not let my clutch come to high... zZz... Stall super lots of time durin e 1st lesson... n ard twice or thrice for 2nd lesson?

Somehow, having to drive both manual n auto... I prefer e manual 1, though more troublesome~

Australia Study Trip Day 1

Ok~ i'm finally here to update abt my Australia Study Trip durin e June holiday~

13th June 2009:
Spent e day wid deardear... den he came over to help me wid packin (n not forgettin his naggin while packin -.-)... Had dinner wid family n deardear @ T3 Swensen... Meet e peeps near e aisle for our check in... took grp photos b4 gng in e gate~

sweet of btp to come down just to send me off~

ok~ I admit i cried k -.- cuz I miss my family n deardear n btp lor~ n cuz touched tt dey send me off la~~ bt seriously oso cuz I laugh til I cried by those jokes (n concern) frm family n deardear...

More camwhoring while w8in to board e plane... every1 is so excited~ haha... n woohoo~ clique's 1st oversea trip tgt!!!


Unfortunately, I was seated along in e plane... cuz gt 11 of us... den Mr Richard seated elsewhere cuz his return date is diff... den e rest are seated in a row (behind me)... But den... I'm kinda glad abt e seatin cuz I GOT WINDOW SEAT!!!

haf to thank Nicholas... cuz e couple sharin tt aisle wid me took my window seat actually... den he help me tell dem tt it's my seat (i paiseh~ dun dare to ask)... n dey just move out for me to move into tt window seat...

14th June 2009:
Fall aslp not long aft e plane lift off n left SG (not like it need a long to get out of SG anyway -.- practically aft lift off oredi out of SG liao =.=) missed my supper :( bt den... I woke up just in time to catch e SUNRISE!! my 1st sunrise ^^ n to tink it's on e plane~ how cool can tt can?
Touch down @ Sydney Airport n meet our friendly guide cum driver, Mr Jaka...

Camwhore wid Sock, who is my room-mate for e trip, while on our way to e 1st stop of our trip...

Sydney Fish Market!! Took a grp photo b4 we explore e area... Lunch was on our own... didn't eat cuz I was still full frm e plane meal... Lots of seafood dere (like duh!) n saw lots of diff species of prawn n lobster! clique tried on abalone n salmon sashimi... as well as e fish n chip...
n we saw this ultra big size doggie dere!!! look at the vast diff!

As it's a Sunday... it was a free n easy day for us... Mr Richard that ask his friend to bring us around Sydney... Check out a lot of e shoppin center dere... Totally love buildin dere...tis is taken inside Queen Victoria...
I love tis clock~~ e ship is actually e second hand... den u can c e time n date n day on e clock~


went to woolworth to get some snack... bot some instant soup, just in case get hungry @ nite... yummilicious chocolates n sweet n snacks~ lots of flavour tt's not available in SG!


Had dinner at Chinatown, which is located directly behind our hotel ^^... then Mr Richard bot us to Sydney Opera House for their Arts Fest... Lighting on Sydney Opera House, as well as other buildin ard it...

Had icecream while we're dere... yummy~~ enjoyin e ice cream in e coolin weather of Australia, Sydney... ooh~ n e coolest thing abt tt icecream stall? it has fudge n caramel as toppin, in dispenser, outside e icecream showcase... so u can just put e toppin urself!
Back to hotel and prepare e bday surprise for SP... haha... prank her by pressin her rm bell den every just hide near my rm... cuz SP's rm is e furthest in e corridor... Mission accomplish... She totally taken by surprise ^^


And basically... This end the 1st day of the trip ^^

Glad that I was able to get internet access n chat wid family, deardear n friends ^^ super duper miss dem~

Pre-flight/on-flight/Post-flight photos here
Day 1 photos here!!

Auto car

Had my one n only Auto Vehicle lesson 2day...

ok~ seriously... i dunno i'm lucky or wad la~ gt e instructor tt I kinda least wanted? cuz he's rather fierce!!! bt den... he pretty friendly 2day? *shrug* 1st thing he asked me was: What you doing in an auto car? my reaction? to learn to drive auto car la~ duh -.-

he trick me la~ ask me change gear... den end up need to step on brake to activate tt button so as to change e gear... Grr~ i keep pressin n pressin can't press it lor!!! !@#!@# den he say one big round just to tell me need to step on brake so that able to press the button =.=

drove in e circuit for almost an hour before movin out... tried on the slope... the 2 technique to move off from the slope... didn't manage to try the directional change though... *kinda relieve abt tt actually* tried on 1 of e course tt is tested for 3A, which is actually testin on speed n reaction... i actually scream for tt cuz i thot i move too fast -.- den i kinda jam break~

move out n drove on e road... seriously... it's easier to forget about e speed when drivin auto car... cuz no need change e gear... but lucky I gt e habit to keep checkin e speed *cuz manual need change gear mah~*

back to circuit for the last 15 minute or so... tried out S and crank course... was told tt tis will b cover for next lesson~ ^^ kinda veri happy tt i can navigate through tt course w/o prob... was worried tt i will mount e kerb durin S-course...


somehow, i feel tt steerin for auto car is much easier... in term of durin sharp turn n stuff... turns tt need to rotate e steerin wheel 2 rounds... i haf a easier time steerin e car 2day... usually i'll either turn rather slowly... or i get confuse by e num of turn i need to do to get e wheel straight... bt somehow, it didn't happen to me 2day...


anyway... 2more lesson tml~ can't w8 ^^

*may i get my license by end of tis yr~*

Craft Shoppin trip~

Went wid BTP on a craft material/equipment shoppin trip ytd... 1st stop was to Novena's Junior De Artist... Then to Plaza Singapura's Made With Love, Spotlight and Daiso... And then to Bras Basah's Art Friends, Popular and 2/3 craft shop dere... Then try our luck @ AnBC... And lastly back to Junior De Artist AGAIN!

1st Stop: Junior De Artist
Bot BTP dere aft I chance upon it when I was out wid deardear... More like e craftshop for us, cuz we gt interestin in stampin n stuff... n I wanted to get e ink set frm dere... But den... we didn't get anything... cuz e stuff was 'out-of-budget' for us... so we make our way to Plaza Singapura

2nd Stop: Made With Love
Decided to get some clear stamps as well as e blk for stampin... Den I told BTP abt e spotlight voucher tt my mom passed to me e nite b4... So she suggest tt we go to spotlight to check out if gt e circle stencil tt we're lookin for... as well as to check if spotlight gt more ink choices... so we put all my stuff back... n made our way up to Spotlight...

3rd Stop: Spotlight
ok... we walk throughout e whole craft session... n guess wad... e stampin blk @ spotlight cost practically S$10.00 LESSER than Made With Love -.- glad BTP suggested to check out spotlight 1st... we gt some ribbon to up e amt so as to use our voucher...End up, when we makin our payment den realise e date to use e voucher start on 17th! =.= zZz... *shrug* bt @ least I did save S$10 for e stampin block... so yea~

My purchase frm Spotlight

4th Stop: Daiso
Check out daiso if gt e circle stencil tt we're lookin for... in e end dun haf... End up gettin a cuttin mat n a pencil case (to put all my markers n pens n penknife~)
5th Stop: Made With Love
ok~ so we're bak to Made wid Love agn... only get e clear stamp.. cuz other stuff is either not wad we really want... or it's too ex -.-

6th Stop: Bras Basah
nth much to talk abt tis other den our legs gt super sore n tired aft all e walkin here n dere JUST to find tt circle stencil *curse n swear tt stupid stencil !@#)!(@$#!U&* so yea~ can guess tt we haf no luck over here *haix!*

7th Stop: ANBC
ended up walkin frm bugis to city hall -.- check out ANBC @ Raffles Place b4 we finally admit defeat n took e train back to Novena...

8th Stop: Junior De Artist
Bot e ink ultimately... n a "lil" chat wid e boss dere... end up i sign up for e membership as well as purchase of Hero Art craft catalog for 2009 n 2008... membership = S$120... which include 1 goodie bag (totally worth it!!!) n oso 30% discount for my purchase (aka my inks~!)... so end up I onli pay S$7+ for e catalog wen e original price is S$30!!!

my ink... 24 in total... ok~ I paid S$70 for all this...

BUT!! it's cheaper den I buy individual hor~

My catalog~

This e goodie bag ^
n below are e goodies~

See~ it's worth it to sign e membership!!

N tis is part of my craft collection... e blue box file is my paper tt is cut n stuff as well as some pic tt i had cut out of tidbit n tissue boxes~ red box file contain my clear stamps, popcorn pen, cutting board, glue, maskin tape n my diamension form... blue tin box contain my punches~ n tt's onli some of it... get a lot lot more in another bag... e looney tune tin box is my ink, stamp blocks, decorative tape, ribbons n glue tape...


can't w8 to start on my new materials ^^

p.s. I plan to make cards n sell it on my blogshop as well ^^

Uniquely Us Blogshop

Finally set up blogshop~~ woohoo~

Do visit and pass on to your friends!!

http://www.uniquely-us-4eva.blogspot.com

Set up with Felicia... She kinda can't wait for me to finally get down to set it up, so she volunteer to help me with setting it up as well as be my logistic for it... haha...

Hopefully can earn extra money from this...

Start out with selling those plushies, as well as those clothes that I purchase but can't fit or not suitable... Then venture to selling handmade cards... Fel plannin to sell beads handicraft in the blogshop...

Oh... and we decided to 'rent' out space for friends who want to sell their stuff as well... Let them sell it on our blog...

This blogshop is definitely uniquely us~ haha...


*Cross finger* hoping it will strive!!!!

Movie: The Proposal

Watch The Proposal wid Fel @ causeway point... a rather impromptu move... haha...

Glad tt we caught tt movie 2day... totally love tt movie! Lots of laughter... n not forget some tears too~

kinda able to guess e plot

totally love e part which granny fake heart attack!!! LOLX!!!!



worth watchin ^^

Movie: Aliens in the Attic

Just watch Aliens in the Attic wid Deardear @ J8...

didn't really wanna watch tis movie in e 1st place... bt I'm really glad I did... tons of laughter!!!

interestin how adult r bein control by just a wireless controller... haha... totally love e endin ^^


recommended~

SA Production '09

I just realise, how much I didn't want to12th September to come. Not that I dread it, but rather, it's that I still not prepared to face it. Not prepare to face the SA production, an event which everyone comes together and work together.

The last event in which every departments play a big role in.

Like what Illham had said in his facebook:

With this much fun that we're having. I wouldn't want production to start. Because I do not want it to end.

It's not really an end yet for our journey. But this is the last time we seniors are working on something together. Indeed, lots of fun and laughter, lots of anger and irritation, but ultimately, we get thing done smoothly and well...


Having to supervise for this production only, I wish I can be really part of it like how other Department Heads and Assistant Heads are. Fully immersed into the production as a participants, not as a 'supervisor'. Immersed into the production like how I had for last year.

I missed being the Stage Manager (SM)... Indeed, it is a "one time" opportunity, like what Erny said last year. Cue to standby lighting. Cue to standby sound. Cue to open/close the curtain. I really do miss those time. Those 'intercom-abusing' sessions with my then juniors. And that was the time, I get to know the other departments juniors better. People like Jac, Nadeen, Hanafi, etc. And I still remember hanging out with other members and seniors after the production on the last day for the 'traditional' supper at S11, which is just below my house.


And all these are just memories of what happened last year. Much as I try to be as immersed as I can for the production, the feeling is just isn't there. Anyone understand how I'm feeling?

Time have passed, and I know that my time to shine has pass as well. As I told Erny, it's time for Shavien to shine instead, that is, if she do her role well. Having to be the one handling her responsibility and role for the past few months is more than I want to take up on. Not like I have a choice anyway.

Tomorrow will be the day. Though it ought to be drama's big day as it's their production, perhaps, because of the closeness I feel to this family, that I feel that this is the time for the whole cca to shine. Be it Drama, Dance, MCH or TMT.

I believe things will go well, because it never fail to do so.


Let's make it a blast, STAGEarts!

Treat frm Deardear?

Deardear never fail to brighten my day up... And even more so wid his up-comin 'project' ^^


I just hope tt both of us can really fork out e time next yr or 2011 for tt 'project'... Hopin tt my attachment/fyp or even future work will NOT get in e way *cross finger*

But another thing is that will parents allow? *shrug*



Thought deardear was joking about it when he mention to me... But after readin it from his blog, I realise how serious he was about it...


Thanks deardear ^^





p.s. if anyone thinking that the wedding bells are ringing... all I can say is tt you're thinking way too much =.=" n seriously... i oredi can name some peeps who will be thinking that when reading this entry...

p.p.s i'm still smilin away just by thinkin back on what deardear say to me, verbally and in msn (i cfm wid him aft readin his blog)... esp our msn conv ^^ deardear super duper sweet~~~

Movie: Time Traveler's Wife

Watch Time Traveler's Wife wid deardear @ The Cathay...

Missed e 1st few min of e movie :(
But still, i like e movie... though rather confuse in a way tt he keep travel tru time (duh =.= he's e time traveler!)

Down side of it is tt you'll nvr noe when u'll disappear n appear in another time... You have no idea where you'll be, will it be e future or e past?

Up side of it is tt sometime, you get to experience something 1st... or like wad's in e movie, he 'predicted' e lottery num... And of cuz, to let your family c you agn aft you have really die...


Find it interestin abt e fetus travel out of e womb n go to another time and cuz a miscarriage... bt in e end, dey mange to haf dey own kid... who inherit e gene disorder of havin to time travel... bt she able to contact n stuff, so wasn't tt bad...

Worth watchin!!!!

love e weddin scene... find it amusin... haha...

Song: A Thousand Words

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
And I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turned back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Oh, a thousand words have never been spoken
They'll fly to you crossing over the time
And distance holding you suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words, one thousand confessions
Will cradle you making all the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I can see how you can stand there with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turned back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

'Cause a thousand words called out through the ages
They'll fly to you even though we can't see
I know they're reaching you suspended on silver wings
Oh, a thousand words, one thousand embraces
Will cradle you making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words have never been spoken
They'll fly to you, they'll carry you home
And back into my arms suspended on silver wings, ooh
And a thousand words called out through the ages
They'll cradle you, turning all of the loving into only days
They'll hold you forever

Driving...

So far, driving pract have been gng well n as wad i expected...

Just did right turns as well as U-turn 2day... was kinda surprise manage to cover both in just 2nite pract... it's good though...

Having so many pract now... as well as instructors for those pract... can't help havin preference over certain instructors... haha... 3 instructors in fact... ^^

I miss bein taught by my 1st instructor!!! Though he can get kinda annoyin wid all his jokes to distract me durin drivin -.-


All I hope now is that I can cleared all my lesson within this holiday (and pass my TP as well?)


Drivin out on e road @ nite is really scary~ *phew* 1st time drivin out in e nite... it's sure is heavy... bt den, i have to get use to tt dun i? If i really do wanna drive e car in e future~

Still feel like cursin n swearin @ those drivers hu cut my lane n stuff... *#(%@#$... e taxi driver tt just cut frm lane 1 to e extreme rite lane!! super close to me... wth?! thot he just gng to overtake in my lane... end up just cut vertically over to 2nd lane on my rite?! another driver more pro... drive on my rite side... den immediately cut into my lane cuz he wanna left turn into e minor rd... wth -.-


anyway... 10 more lesson to go~~ woots! can't w8 for e end of it!! I want my license by end of tis yr!! (bt hopefully to get it by end of tis holiday ^^)

Movie: G Force

Caught G Force wid deardear @ Grand Cathay... (n it's seriously GRAND!!!)


Darwin is soooooo cute!!!!! haha

Had lots of laughter... bt den... i fall aslp -.- gt so bored tt i fall aslp... n accordin to deardear, it was e climax of e movie~ @.@

ok... seriously... @ least i noe tt who is e bad guy lor~ *bleah* just tt i didn't really noe how e movie end @.@


Lesson learn:

Ultimately, it's not what someone telling us who we are, but how special we want to believe ourselves to be...

TVB Series: 当狗爱上猫

Just completed watchin 当狗爱上猫

Totally love it... esp e voices for cancan n xiao ba~~ kawaii!!!

After watchin gt e urge to keep a dog *oops* totally love xiao ba~

in 1 part... it mention that: What matter most in Love, is not the destination, but the journey... It's not about how the outcome will be, but how the two person have spend it...


A good show to watch... Values to be learn...


I do like 1 partcular part in which it talk abt father-daughter r/s... Sometime, fathers are pretty softhearted, even though dey dun show it...


Don't wait for something to happen before you start to treasure... Cherish each moment as if it's the last... Create memories of happiness, not sorrow...



watch e series here
http://www.tudou.com/playlist/playindex.do?lid=6874947&iid=35095159&cid=22

To-do-list

It's time agn for to-do-list for holiday... hopefully can really really get everything done... yea~

1. Cleared up my room (tink popo will b happier when i do clear up =.=)
2. Sort out my wardrobe... (it gt messy agn!!! *pouts*)
3. Make the class video... (ppl send me pic!!!)
4. Update blog abt my aust study trip
5. Work more!!! (i need e $$ badly!!!!)
6. Complete my 1st video-makin biz~
   
7. More craft, esp cards ^^ (wanna work on e technique i learn frm e vid ^^)
8. Complete my 2,000 piece Winnie The Pooh jigsaw
9. Food Chase
10. Cleared up my drivin pract (hopefully can do TP by oct ^^)
11. Meetup wid Deardear on his off
12. Meetup wid Da for our exploration~ (can't w8!!!)
13. Night cycle!!! (i think this will be not done afterall the lor...T.T)
14. Set up blogshop to sell my prize catches from arcade (a new income for myself... n mom n popo will b so glad finally i'm gettin rid of my plushies -.-)
    

Think that's all for now. I know that's a lot more to go... But can't think of any for now...


Anyway... 2 days passed since end of last paper... have been out practically since tt day...

Wed: Hang out wid bestie... like finally?! e last time all 4 of us went out was Jan? yep... ultra long... spend a long day @ bugis... den edith, da n me walk all e way to city hall den take train frm dere...

Thurs: was home practically e whole day... deardear came over aft his movie... den had dinner tgt...

Fri: went bak for GG... den fetch noelle frm sch... den to grandma place... pretty long since i last drop by *oops*

Sat: bak to NYP for SA meetin as well as photoshoot... den meetin deardear for movie and dinner~ celebratin out monthversary ^^

Sun: no plan yet... bt i tink gt tt filmin lesson @ nite... zZz...

Mon: Workin 12-5pm... den drivin @ 5.55pm

Tues - Thurs: Production rehearsal... 12-10pm

Fri: Work 12-10pm

Sat: MFGG COH in e mornin... den production in e afternn... n out wid deardear @ nite

Sun: Work 10-4 pm

HOLIDAY HERE I COME!!! ^^

End

I guess,
I wasn't that important to you afterall

Just some words over msn
And that's the end

That's how easy you are disposing me
That's how easy for you to end everything


I should have known better
For you like finding faults with me
Be it with things I did
Or things that I didn't

I'm unwilling to accept
But this time,
I have to,
No matter how hard.



Thanks for all these time.
Thanks for all the memories.

Extra Income

Found myself an extra income for the holiday...

Got myself a job as video editor... woots~ though it's just S$30 for the project... and additional S$3 for each revision... well... @ least it's better than nothing no?

A good way to spend my holiday and kill those time when I had to be somewhere which I can't do much stuff...

Somehow, I just hope... that I'm able to do a good job for it and that in the future will be approach again...

Can't wait to get the last paper over with...

Gambette!!!!!

Dear Friend

Grateful to this very dear friend...

Someone who do not read my blog that often...
However,
Just because he read it this time
And got so worried about me
That he called me


Though there was misunderstanding in the midst of our conversation
That cause me to get so fedup
As he just won't stop interrupt me

But somehow,
I had feel much better
After the nearly-two-hours chat with him



Thanks a lot my dear friend
For the concern and the chat
As well as
For reminding me
Who I am inside ^^

Final Theory Test

Woo hoo!!!!!

Finally FINALLY cleared my FTT!!!!!

ok... fail once.. .and missed my 2nd 1 wen i was 'arguin' wid Fel tt day -.-

could hafclear it wayyyyyy earlier if not for bein too sotong n applyin for e wrong date 1... zzZ


@ least.. now theory cleared liao... pract until lesson 21 liao... ard 12more to go!!!

Aim to get license by Dec ^^ so tt i can drive e car durin CNY... hehe

Song: Bare-feet Goddess

HADASHI NO MEGAMI
Bare-feet Goddess

Dore dake nakeba, asa ga tsutsunde kureru
Kagami no naka no nureta kuchibiru wo kamu

Machijuu ga uragiri ni afureteru to, suneru dake no yatsu mo iru kedo
Kimi wa kanari omoi koi no damage mo, hara ni osame ashita wo mitsumeteru

Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo
Itami wo shiru manazashi wa fukaku sunde mou shioreru koto wa nai

Doko made hashireba ano hito ni aeru
Shirazu shirazu yasashisa motomesamayou

Hakanai dake no tsuyogari ni mieru nara isso dareka ni dakitsukya ii
Nasakenai yaji bakari tobasu dake no himajin nanka yori yoppodo ii kara

Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo
Itami wo shiru manazashi wa fukaku sunde mou shioreru koto wa nai

Oh my hadashi no megami yo, kizu wo kakusanai de ii yo
Kaze ni kesareru koto no nai, yorokobi sagasou
Don't you cry, my hadashi no megami yo
Hitori de nakanai demo ii yo
Kokoro kara dareka ni hohoemu
Kimi no kata wo hikiyosetai yo



TRANSLATION

No matter how much you cry, morning still comes around
Looking inside the mirror, biting the lips that are wet by tears

In the city, betrayal fills the air, there are people who are angry with the world
But you hide the seriously damaged love and calmly face tomorrow

Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine
Your bright eyes know all about pain, there's no need to restrain yourself now

How far do you have to run until you can meet that person?
Never realizing that you're looking for such tenderness

Rather than showing a false strength, why not embrace somebody tightly?
Because this is much better than
those who have much spare time and still neglect loved ones

Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine
Your bright eyes know all about pain, there's no need to restrain yourself now

Oh, my bare-feet goddess, you don't have to hide your scars, it's fine
Find your happiness that won't be blown away with the wind
Don’t you cry, my bare-feet goddess
You don't have to cry alone, it's fine
In the bottom of your heart, who is that you are smiling at
I wanna pull your shoulder close to me

Song: Flowerpot

Alex Chu – 화분 (Flowerpot)



멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
Meol-li-seo meol-li-seo meol-li-seo geu-dae-ga o-ne-yo

이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
I ddeol-li-neun ma-eum-eul eo-ddeoh-ge mal-hae-ya ha-na-yo

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
Geu-dae ch’eo-eum-bu-t’eo na-eui ma-eum-eul bbae-at-go

나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
Na-eul-su eobs-neun byeong-eul nae-ge ju-eott-jyo

화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠
Hwa-pun-i doe-rae-yo na-neun neul gi-do-ha-jyo



*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo


멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요
Meol-li-do meol-li-do meol-li-do geu-dae-ga ga-ne-yo

떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
Ddeol-eo-ji-neun nun-mul-eul eo-ddeoh-ge dal-hae-ya ha-na-yo

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
Geu-dae ch’eo-eum-bu-t’eo na-eui ma-eum-eul ga-jyeott-go

나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠
Nan-eul su eobs-neun myeong-eul anh-ge han-geo-jyo

화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠
Hwa-pun-i doe-go-p’eun na-neun neul gi-do-ha-jyo



*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo



*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo





TRANSLATION:
Verse 1:
He is approaching..
from a far far far distance
how am i to express my shaking heart?
He.....
Stole my heart from the very start
and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from...

Chorus:
I want to become a flowerpot
I pray all the time
I want to become a flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a word
or expect anything

From time to time I'll receive
his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face

Verse 2:
He's leaving
very far far far away
How am i supposed to soothe
these falling tears? He...
Stole my heart from the very start
And gave me an illness that i cannot recover

Chorus:
I want to become the flowerpot
I pray all the time
I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a word
or expect anything

From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face

I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a word
or expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness

MIA

As easy as it is to connect with others due to the advanced technology...
It is also as easy to just cut off from the world...

Off handphone...
Offline in msn, skype n so on...

And for once,
My handphone have been switch off
For the need to escape from everywhere...



I want some time alone...
But at the same time...
I need someone to be there for me...


Thanks peeps,
For the concern...
I know there's a listening ears out there
But as I had mention before...
It's not about who is willing
But who I'm comfortable in sharing...
Or who that I need to be there...

Perhaps...
I just finding excuses...


Confused and lost...

Importance

I seriously wonder, what is my importance in you...
Do you know, that I want to MIA because of you?


Perhaps...
It has been me who is needing you,
Not you needing me...


Do you know,
That I told myself to be emotionally independent...
Because of you?

Have you realise
That each time you want to rant
That you need someone
I'm there for you
Despite how late it may be?
Waking up to your calls late at night...


Do you know how much I needed you today?
Yet, with just a 'not today' reply from you...
I tried to keep the disappointment in me...
Because you're unwell
You need your rest...


Perhaps,
Time alone is needed for now...
Perhaps,
We have to stay out of each other way for the time being...

Exam

Start of exam today for me... and ends on next wednesday... No break between e paper... going to cram like hell...

Final lap for most of my classmate... But not for me...



Hopefully, I can just score for today's paper... Today's paper is important... And will determine how my path will be like... *Back to studying*

Dearest peeps

I guess, I ought to be thankful for tonight... Because I was reminded of the great people I have in my life... Because of two person...

First person...
Despite getting pissed off and fed up with me, because of the way I had acted... Walked away because it was just a bit too much to tolerate... But was all along watching out for my safety and well being which walking a distance behind me, without letting me knowing... Only when I didn't board the bus, that this person catch up with me to make sure I'm really alright... Staying with me when I got onto my transportation, while having to risk being caught in the rain without an umbrella...

Second person...
Just when I thought I have no one that I'll feel comfortable turning to... This person change my mind... I guess, with so many people in my life, this person is still the one who understand me best... The one who worry about my emotional being... And I guess, without being ensured that I'm okay, this person who let me off easily?



I'm glad and I'm thankful...
If not for tonight, I guess I'll still be trap in my own world...
If not for them, I think I'll just totally break down...



I guess, stress has finally decided to catch up with me, after having to let me off for the past 18 years

Confide

I just came to realise...
That I have no one
Who I can really turn to now...
When I need someone...
A listening ear...


I know there many around,
Who are willing to be my listening ear
However it just not about who willing to be there
But who I'm comfortable in sharing...


Number dwelling...
Perhaps it's because of the things that had happened...
I no longer know who to turn to...



Perhaps,
It's time I learn to be independent...
Be independent emotionally...
Learning the lesson the hard way?













DA!!! meet up soon!!!
I need our chit chat therapy :(

Book: You Are Here

Was rereading the book You Are Here just now... in fact i just finished e book...

Sad endin... A sad love story... A friendship that became a relationship... Dated all the way back when they were primary 1... til dey were 22...

Readin tt book kinda remind me of The Curious Case of Benjamin Button... Gettin younger over time, instead of older... Metally shrinkin a year fortnightly... all bcuz of tryin to escape of hurt and betrayal... Trying to protect self from hurtin more...

e guy stay by her... even though dere's times wen he feel like givin up... but each time he near to givin up, his love for her is renew and he stay by her... tryin to cure her from e mental illness...

How far would you go for your true love?

That's e statement at the cover of the book. And that's the question that I ended up asking myself. Not just for true love, but all my love ones... Indeed, how far would I really go for my love ones? For my family and friends?

Kinda contradicting to what was mention previously isn't it? Telling myself to live for myself. Yet now, I'm asking myself how far I'm would go for others.


What if I'm in either main leads' shoes?
If i'm in e girl's situation... will e ppl ard me still cont' to stay by me? or slowly, one by one givin up on me?
If i'm in e guy's situation... will I have e strength to stay by the other person? or will I end up breakin down myself?


What if... A question that is often ask. But how many times do we really get an answer to it?

Live for yourself...

Was watchin some vid just now... n tis was wad had mention in e vid

You do good, people talk bad.
You are bad, people talk bad.
You do more, people talk bad.
You do little/none, people also talk bad.

So why?
Why even bother?

Live for yourself.
Live for the day.
You'll be a better person

Indeed, I can't help agree. Sometime, no matter what you do, others just want to put you in e bad light. Be it things that you did or things that you didn't.

Ultimately, who is it for? It's just you. So live your life for yourself. Live for the day.


i'm trying to care less, lest I'm badly affected again by something which the other parties won't.

All I feel like doing now,
Is to just close this chapter once and for all.
I'm tired.

You doesn't need me afterall.
Unlike how we have thought.
You have great people around you.
And I ain't one of them.

I am nothing more than just a passerby
In your life.

Movie: Turning Point

Watch Turning Point with Deardear @ GV Bishan 2day...

prefer tis movie compared to District 9... though similar to District 9... dere's lots of jumpin here n dere for e scene... as in quite a few flash backs...

interestin concept... being undercover for both side of e laws... a triad leader send him to b e undercover in police force... police force made him e undercover for e underground triad... interestin~

rather sad endin wid so many deaths...

e amt of sacrifice tt e brother made for his sis, e amt of compromise given to his sis by him, e amt of care and stuff...

another thing tt kinda amaze me is e route Laughing choose in e end... can't help thinkin, isn't it just gng to b a cycle agn n agn?

not a bad movie... given tt i didn't watch e drama series b4...



Sometime, we ain't given much choice/route... Choice is nothing more than just to choose between two option given by someone else... Having to choose mean to give up on something while you settle on the one you decided on... That's how life is, isn't it? There isn't best of both world, sadly...

Isolation

I can't help wishing
That there's a place I can go to
To just be away.
Perhaps to really isolate myself from everyone.

Off my handphone...
Not online in msn, skype, facebook...
Not checking my email...
Away from everyone...

Literally away.
In both the virtual and real world.
MIA for a period of time.




But I know,
It is practically impossible.










I wish,
That I can stop myself
From being bothered
From being affected
By the things happening
By the people around me

But is it possible?








Can someone explain to me
Why am I still so affected
When the person who started
Don't give it a damn?

Guardian Outing

ok... a rather outdated outing write-up due to e fact tt blogger been in crazy mode n doesn't let me upload my pic -.-

Finally a meet up wid Guardian peeps ^^ on 2nd July 09... almost 1yr since we last meet up!!! gosh! Selvi, Siti, Erny, Da and me!! missin Aisah though :(

Had dinner @ Pizza Hut. Shown dem my aust trip photos while w8in for Erny to arrive... Catch with everyone... n had plenty of laughters and jokes and teasing ard ^^

Send Selvi off to her bf, while the rest of us cont to slack ard Orchard/Somerset... When to Orchard Central to check it out... And had photo shoots session @ lvl 7... haha... cuz no1 ard...


Check out the toilet cuz da keep tellin me how cool the toilet is... n yea... it's rather cool... haha... Another camwhorin session... *expected wen the camera(s) in Erny's hands!!! :P*

Can't w8 for the next meet up wid dem... hopefully, tis time Aisah can join us...

Hanging out with them makes me recall of the great time at Guardian... I truly miss those time... The laughter, the chat, the endless stock-takin... Indeed, those were the great times we shared. Thanks for being my dearest colleagues at Guardian, making my time there an enjoyable one. It will never ever be the same without you gals. *not forgetting to mention, if not for Da, i won't get to work @ Guardian in e 1st place ^^*

Friendship?

Yes, blame everything on me... Finally you get the picture, and finally I seen your true side...

Get thing clear that I'm the one choosing to leave? I seriously wonder, who is suppose to be the one getting things clear... So be it, since you want to put the blame on me for ending it... Never once did I mention about ending, never once I said about giving up...

Forgotten what I say before? Never once did I say forever, because I have no longer believe in forever... I kept my words about being there for you... I know I did... I meant what I say and given such thing, I'll never lie about it...

I remember the things being done... But are you?

Thanks for reminding me, about how delicate trust and faith can be...

You're making me regret. Regret not the path I decided to choose now. But regretted on the action I had made nine months ago!

You're upset. Ain't I the same, having to read those stuff in your blog again and again. Clarify with you again and again. If I seriously don't see you one of the more important people in my life, would I really be bother AND affected by how you feel and think? Are you really cherishing, as you proclaim?


Each time trust/faith is being tested on, it's either pass the test and get stronger... or it just fail and get destroyed...



Get this straight. I don't see the point of avoiding you. Because it serve no purpose. If you intend to continue to think that way, so be it. Because I know, even if your thinking about that changes now, sooner or later, in the future, it will be back to this again. Truth is, I'm really tired of having to worry about how you feel. Tired of being blame when it isn't really my fault.

I tried. I tried to let you see. But I'm really tired of having to do it again and again. Being accuse again and again. Do you even know that?

Space

Sometime, I just choose to MIA from the virtual world... Cutting myself away from everyone online... In a way, I need some personal space and time... To clear my thoughts, my emotions... To sort out things within myself... To put it another way, I just want to escape from 'reality in the virtual world'...

Peeps like mh, puii, jenson, btp have all know and witness and even experience my MIA period... especially mh, puii and jenson... They are the people that I had MIA on, early last year...


With advanced technology, indeed spaces are getting smaller... Msn, FB, blog, etc... All ways to connect and contact... It does make life easy in a way, but at the same time, it also affect life as easy as well...

Sharing of thoughts and feelings over blog, FB status, MSN nick, etc... Anyone can just read it... Perhaps, the targeted person may not be named... But sometime, it's that easy to tell...

I'm tired of having to read negative things about me, when I didn't even do that in the first place... Accuse me once... I shall just put it aside... Accuse me again, I shall have a nice talk with you first... But accuse me again, thrice or more, rest assure, even if it's untrue, I'll make sure it come true... JUST FOR YOU!


Why prove these peoplw wrong ain't it? Waste of effort and time... Why fight against it? I shall just go with the flow.

Unhappy about it? Well, you accuse me first!




aah~ Do you know how piss off I am with you? Don't tell me one thing and end up saying something else in your blog or anything... Avoiding you? HAH! why do I even need to do that? Be it whatever you want to think about me or anything else... How many times have you say that I'm treating you as less importance? Seriously, I'm suffocated!! Nearly once that I want to leave this friendship aside, but the accusation from you is forcing me to do so! Even if I didn't treat you less important previously, trust me on this that aft what have been mention in your blog, I would seriously want to think thrice about how important I want to treat you, because it's not even appreciated and even not being acknowledge!


to be it simply, I have enough of that kind of nonsense!

Movie: District 9

Watch District 9 wid deardear @ AMKhub 2day...

a movie tt deardear thot i won't wanna watch... i dun deny tt... wen i saw e poster i'm totally not interested @ all... aft all it's like science-fric like tt... bt aft watchin e trailer, gt interested in it... haha

a gd movie... just that I dun like e way e scene jump here n dere... a lil confusin sometime... e movie is like a documentary like tt sia... it feel so real!!

interestin how e story progress...


Glad I had decided to watch tis... worth watchin ^^



sometime, we thot wad we're dng is rite... tt we noe wad exactly we're dng... bt e truth is, dere's thing tt we didn't noe or realise... tt things are different frm how it really is...

Study Break...

Cleared all project n assignments last fri... now officially study break for exam...

Really thankful for the help given by Felicia and Edith... stayin up wid me to chiong assignment... last week was practically a u-help me-here-and-there, I-help-u-here-and-there time... haha... fel like keep spammin me wid her ppt to ask how to improve her ppt~ spam me for dunno how many days :P

Exam in less than 2 weeks time... n tt will b e last time we'll ever do things as a class...


2.5yr... n it just past like nobody business... it's seem that we just enter NYP for orientation... in a blink, we're each gng our way... IAP, FYP n repeated modules...


All the best everyone... For exams!

Movie: Overheard

Watch Overheard wid Deardear @ AMKhub just now...

worth watchin...



sometime, a lie just lead to a bigger lie... wen one lie starts... it's hard to end... it just cont to snow ball... desperation can drive a person to do something he would not do... just because he see no way out of the situation he is in...

we may be able to hide behind the lie... but sooner or later, we'll have to pay for the consequences...

Movie: Where Got Ghost

Caught Where Got Ghost wid deardear @ vivo just now...

3 story, 1 show... somehow remind me of 4bia...

had qutie a few laugh... bt other den tt, it isn't really a gd movie actually... e storyline is kinda boring... too animated scenes...


anyway... i dun really recommend tis movie...

Song: 1, 2, 3, 4

1 2, 1 2 3 4-
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
[ 1,2,3,4 lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends-
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best I that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

MFGG gangshow '09

One year plus... That's how long since the last time I stepped into MFSS... No thanks to some stuff that happened...

Seriously, it's so hard to please Edith, you know? She been trying to psycho me to go since the confirmation of the campfire. I kept telling her that I won't be going as I have plans on that day le, after she informed me that the gangshow is postpone to 1st August. Not lying anyway. I did have plans on that day. But in actual fact, I had decided to go. The only person who know about that is Felicia. In a way she's the one that manage talk me through and psycho me to go la.

Went to the canteen to check with the juniors where are the rest. Then went to guides' room to help them with moving of the brick to the hall. And that's when that Edith blurt out: Eh Jie, why you here?! =.= talk about giving her a surprise. sheesh~

And that's when I started to get busy. Having to attend event and stuff cause of my current cca, StageArts, I ended up helping them with backstage, lightings and sounds as well as projection thingy.

First thing that I did was helping them with taping down the wire for the spotlight. Then help to calm Samathan down as she having stage fright. Glad to manage to calm her down. Then went to backstage to help Joey with settling of which lights to use for which sectment of the gangshow. And then I'm practically stuck there after that, as Joey had asked for my help.

To be frank, it's a whole different experience I have for a campfire/gangshow. Afterall, how many people will get to work backstage for a campfire/gangshow, especially since you're an alumni.

Being stage manager during SA event help me. And in a way, I shared those experience and knowledge with them yesterday. Joey, Xiao Wei, Samathan and Cheryl. Those who were at the backstage. Things can get a little chaotic. But as long as you're keeping check of what you have to do, things will run smoothly. Having those experience, in a way, aids me to help assuring them and enable them to be less stress during the event.

I didn't have much time to really enjoy the event with my fellow alumni. However, it has became something memorable for me. The different attitude in this batch of girls compared to the previous ones.

You girls may have little manpower. Remember, quality still override quatity. Do a good job in maintaining and improving guides. Sooner or later, people will see that MFGG is better than what they expected. I have faith in you girls.

I guess, in a way, going back for the gangshow last night have renew my passion for guides, especially for MFGG.

Communication

I just don't understand, why is it so hard to just to communicate with you! I seriously have enough, yet I can't just wash my hands off everything, no matter how many times I wished I did.

Just a simple phrase, yet you can keep telling me that I say likewise before.

I'm tired. Do you know that? I'm tired of having to carry YOUR responsibility on MY shoulder just because you're away for attachment.

Stop being hypocrite about how grateful/thankful/glad that I'm helping you. Because I'm totally unwilling to do so! Get that in you!

Who is the one putting in more effort, I believe everyone can see it. Who is the more reliable one, I believe they know it. Who is the one that do followup and making effort for the department, I believe they can tell.

I'm just really tired of trying to communicate with you. Since you been using the excuse that you're busy with attachment and FYP, then let me give you a warning. Don't be shock when I'm not going to help you anymore when mid-August is here, when you're back in school. For that time, you have no excuse of having to stay away anymore.

You ain't the only person having attachment. Yet why do I feel that you seem to have a 'privilege' for staying away from cca? Others having other commitments like attachments or work still tend to their department. Are you?



It's too late to change anything. But at least I know, I'm trying my best to do what is best for the department. Come mid-August, everything will be back to you. And when things get screwed up after that, I no longer going take anymore responsibility to clear up the mess. You are the head. I'm been handling your responsibility for the department for too long. Afterall, I'm nothing more than just an Assistant Head.